Upside Down-side

- days nights months years

2010-04-18T09:41:00.004+08:00

howdy.

yeah. so like the past few days were kinda

EMO

cause had a bad throat and had a show coming up.

was stuck on the bed most of the time.

had some issues with work.

it's been a month since i'm in starbucks.

wouldn't say it's the best experience.

cause i was kinda like stuck in the middle of a whirlpool.

1st. i got hired. YAY!

then after the first two week.

the current boss who hired me resigned.

like WTH rite??

i know... i had this black aura ard me.

and just when i was like settling into the work environment.

things took another spin.

the store's people kinda loved that manager.

and when he left.

they were all emo and moody and all.

and i'm new there.

so i kinda like... you know... blur and don't know what's going on.

but i can feel like the unhappiness.

so anyways.

new manager comes in after a week.

things took another spin and things aren't really spinning right,

i don't know. the store's people are kinda liking but not liking him.

cause as u know

new manager new rules.

and again i'm like... spinning again.

aahh!! it's so tiresome.

kay... so anyways...

yeah. the show was awesome if you've read the last post

and updates on facebook.

hmm...

had some self reflection

and deep thoughts session during my "stuck to bed" period.

of which i'm still thinking if i wanna share here.

hahaha.

so yeah. anyways.

am now currently rushing to finish my concert review assignment.

kinda got sucked into it for awhile and 1hr passed just like that. LOL!

have i mentioned i was interviewing this guy named PITO?

who was in the ensemble of the jazz trio i was writing my review about.

yeah

you guessed it.

or not.

he's the bassist of Estrella!!

the one that brought you songs like

Stay

My Morning

and

Ternyata.

which of course is famous for the bass riff.

every local band supporter knows them.

including me =D

i was so excited i started to forget what i wanted to ask for my assignment

ended up chatting instead.

asking abt the band.

i hope i get to meet them and jam with them one day!!!

haha yeah happy as a dog.

even have my tail wagging.

hahaha

owh yeah

abt that

that's my extention i got for my performance.

hahahaha

it was eye catching NO?

yeah... i know.

fan boys would go

that's a Padawan Braid.

i just think its cool and unique.

hahaha

been getting alot of comments on my hair since day one after the sem break

nice kan?

lol!

okay...

so yeah... i said i'd think abt if i wanna share what's in my head.

so i think i'll leak a lil bit.

been getting questions like

"yo ken! so where's your gf?"

"yo ken! found your (insert mushy word here)??"

"kenny!! so how's life? any "news"??"

and sorts.

and some are quite helpful to ask me

"hey!! lets help you find your soulmate!!"

that kinda stuff..

hahaha

which leads to me think this

i love my life right now.

i know i get mistaken as a girl's bf sometimes or a girl gets mistaken as my gf

but it isn't a problem for me.

haha

to tell you the truth.

i ain't looking for one.

just love this single life.

BARNEY!! u're my idol. hahaha. his confidence amazes me.

so yeah anyways.

i do get the occasional "sigh i feel so lonely..." kinda shit.

but it gets over once i found someone to talk to. hahaha

yeah....

i know. i'm weird.

but lets just say.

we all have a past.

sometimes, even though you're over it.

you just need the space to move around before you want to get stuck and planted again.

lazy to write those metaphor shit now.

so yeah. hahaha

LETS SUIT UP!

man i love Barney from "how i met your mother"

owh shit. i shall update next time la.

or at least after i finish writing my assignment.

hahaha.

see ya'll.

- talk about, walk about

2010-04-18T09:30:00.002+08:00

we had no photopraphers. so this was like the only picture of my performance i can find?

hahaha.

yeah.

man.

gotta say,

IT WAS FANTASTIC and AWESOME!

gotta love the people that came down to show their support.

haha =D

had a bad throat

and the doctor said i can't sing.

if i do. i'll suffer.

like today.

hahaha.

but yeah. who cares.

the show had to go on. and it went on awesome.

though yeah. i'm kinda suffering now.

hehehe...

coughing gotten worse.

phlegm gotten worse.

tsk.

haha. okay. for those who missed the show

it was MONASH EXTREME SPORTS CARNIVAL.

well too bad you didn't get to watch.

hahahaha.

chewah... but yeah.

come on down our next shows with Dusty Attic and Handle With Care.

see ya!

- sunday, bloody sunday

2010-04-01T10:44:00.002+08:00

hey...

i emo today...

lol

why?

cause everything can possibly go wrong has gone wrong.

and i think also caused by sunday bloody sunday.

it reflected so much emotions on me.

when i was singing it

i tried not to think afterwards...

sigh... yet it wasn't working?

anyways...

yeah m working at starbucks now.

at Sunway Pyramid 2. Near the Lagoon Entrance.

come find me if u free la. if got chance i free u a drink.

haha

hmm...

well... the store's team is pretty nice.

the manager's a nice guy.

yet...

he resign after he hired me.

what irony huh?

just when i was getting used to the new environment.

a new manager comes in.

it's as if.... i don't know... hah.

my place in KL is a living hell.

seriously. those friends that i talk to everyday would know what's going on.

sigh...

i seriously can't live here with that idiotic moronic brainless monkey.

imagine coming back to a place. where you're suppose to feel homey and relaxed.

but when i open that door.

i see a place that i can't live in.

there's so many things to say. i think i won't have enough energy to say them all here.

the fucker hogs the living room.

after he uses it.

even if he's not there.

it's like he's still there.

his bag, towels, clothes, laptop, drinks, food, paper, stuffz

everything!!! is in the living room.

and it's not properly placed.

it's on the sofas, on the table, on the chairs, on the floor.

he messes up the sofa, the table and the floor.

the tv is never offed.

everything just keeps running

even though he is not in the living room.

HOW?? IN?? THE?? BLOODY?? WORLD??

can you even live like that?

no one else can use the living room when he's around.

FUCK!

that's just the living room.

i haven't talk about the toilet yet.

used tissues, gf's PMS blood on the seat, used oil sucker...

list goes on.

the worst part is.

they use my soap.

BAR SOAP.

and left traces of DNA. i don't wanna go to the details.

i was so fucking pissed.

and i went bonkers on them.

but the same shit still happens.

please, if there's anything i can do to get the hell out of here.

please, just let me.

i cannot live here.

it's like hell.

i'd rather sleep in my car.

or lock myself in the small room i'm paying for don't know what fuck reasons.

AAAAARGH!!

this is what will happen when you see me not blogging for a few weeks.

other than these...

there are still small other matters...

ugh.

i hope i can get a break from all of this next week.

i want to see my friends.

i wanna have a life.

i feel like crying but the anger just overtakes the sadness.

please stop making my life a living hell.

i beg.

till next time man. i gotta go.

will get some pictures up soon.

hopefully pictures with me smiling.

- cheap and healthier ideas vs expensive dinner

2010-03-14T21:20:00.003+08:00

hahahaha!!

yeah man... today is the first day i did my own dinner in KL for 2010.

lol.

I Call IT!

The Ken's Special Meat Lover's Club Sandwich

aka TKSMLCS!!!

TADA!!!

yeah. it may look normal, but tastes awesome!!

How to Do + Ingredients:

+ Gardenia Bread 4 slices (RM0.60) - use whole-meal for a healthier choice!

- Toast Two Slices to a nice brown.

- Spread Vege Oil Margarine.

- leave non-toasted bread unspread is okay.

+ Cucumber (RM0.50)

- Cut to preference

+ Tomato (RM0.50)

- Cut to Preference

+ Cheesedale (RM1.00)

- Put in between non toasted bread.

+ Pineapple Baked Ham (RM4.40)

- Cut into Two Halves

1. First Layer: Toast Bread on the bottom. 1st half of ham and cucumber/tomato

2. Stack non-toasted bread with cheese in between.

3. Third Layer: 2nd half of ham and cucumber/tomato

4. add olive oil and squeeze a little bit of lime/lemon for zest

5. Final Layer: Toasted Bread.

and there you have it!! a nice cheap TKSMLCS for only RM7!!

compare with Monash's Sanfran Club Sandwich which is RM14 plus taxes!!

MINE's WAYYY CHEAPER!

change the cucumber to lettuce if you want and it'll still cost the same!!

technically you don't use all the vege in one sandwich. so it's actually less than RM7

hahaha!

so tell me. what did you have for dinner today?! =D

see ya!!

- the breakdown

2010-03-13T13:22:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH!! OH MY GOSH!!

lol. go check out the new vid by RWJ called OH MY GOSH!! on YouTube.

so anyways. week two people. and i realize

i have 3 assignments due.

one in each following week. well not really week. more like 7 days, 5 days, 3 days.

hah.

ugh. currently stuck on ideas for my assignments. i don'tch know if i'm on the right track either and the lecturer says i can't ask them to check my draft. WTF!?!

that sucks.

i'm so lazy.

seriously lazy.

was suppose to go to this workshop thingy.

which was compulsory btw.

but i didn't.

cause went for jamming yesterday.

then too tired. slept. then now this.

i'm currently thinking if i shud go buy lunch. or just eat at home.

which are bread. bread. bread.

okay i think i shud go buy lunch.

or at least grab some vege and meat.

hmm... yeah...

so anyways. i dont' know who i'm blogging for now.

i guess for myself. haha.

fuck it.

no wonder blogs are closing one by one.

i guess i'm just keeping this one for self use purposes.

now that i care if anyone gives a feedback or not.

yeah i know.

i am full of words.

no pictures = boring.

what da heck.

blah.

speaking nonsense again

gotta refresh my mind for my assignments.

see ya'll ard.

peace, loves,

bye

- ayam kat KL

2010-03-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

hah!

yellow!!

how's life?

ANS ME!!

shit you if u didn't.

hah.

anyways.

monday which was the 1st of march.

was the first day i started my studies on Communications and stuff..

yea. it was nice.

got to know some really cool people.

well... some of which i think i only get to meet once everyweek

but YEAH!! it's gonna b awesome.

ok. i shall write their names here. so i can remember forever.

lol. that's lame.

here goes.

Sam and Arman Iranians, Sabrina and Jowee and Zul locals, Riaayath from Maldives.

ahh. amazing ain't it? lol.

there's more. but malas dah.

heh.

so... i found out that blogging is some sort of journalism... so i guess... i'm the worst blogger/journalist out there.

cause i talk lots of crap and i don't have creative ideas and i only post stuff that i myself understand.

hah!

who gives a shit anyways.

there's only like a handful of people i know who are reading this anyways.

so what the heck.

Next week we're gonna start assignments! hurray?

hell no.

sounds busy the assignments. but we'll see how they go.

i'll be asking people lots and lots of useless nonsense rubbish questions.

hah.!

i guess that'll be fun on my side.

okay! so i hope to have a great week next week.

this week is kinda boring. cause it's all abt intro and stuff...

I WANNA GET A JOB!!! like ASAP!!

and bloody hell

REDFM tak call back i.

RM750 lerh!!!

i got all the songs right summore.

but they called sumone else.

darn it.

else i'd be RM750 richer.

so tell me. what wud u do if u had won RM750?

leave your ideas on the comment section on the side that says "kopitiam-mu"

or something like that.

see ya!

- up and down, up and down

2010-02-22T22:03:00.004+08:00

boom boom boom.

that's what i've been hearing for the past few days.

boom boom boom.

lol

Chinese New Year mah...

yeah...

ang pow sikit jer this year.

but heck it.

my ears are hurting as we speak.

= =

ahh... well during CNY we went up go Genting.

took some pics which are on Facebook btw.

here are some.

lol

owh yeah... Vicky was there.

so we actually accompanied her since she was alone and her parents were somewhere in the lotus eater den.

gambar gambar....

yang lain semua kat FB

go tengok urself.

lol.

banyak giler.

skrg recording lagu lagu 2 tu

but everyday wanna record also no mood to sing.

ish.

hope have the mood tmr.

tak nak ckp banyak lagi lah.

tmr's Joanne Chian Chui Yuen's bday.

so... Happy Birthday!!

tak tau u ada baca tak. but whatever lah.

hahaha

ciao ciao

- red fm threesome

2010-02-11T01:10:00.002+08:00

lol!

RED FM CALLED! hahaha. so happy.

played my Threesome request.

Bon Jovi - Always

Guns n Roses - Don't Cry

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

see... so sweet.

hahaha

hope u guys tuned in.

so blur when i was thinking of names to mention on radio. hahaha

anyways...

few days back was the 1st time ever i skype at a mamak.

hahaha

and KARYN ONG was lucky number 1

lol!

cause she wanted to hao lian to me her new telepon wo...

cantik wo... chunted touch screen wan wo...

hahaha...

happy her.

den went to sg to send VICTOR!! off to aus.

he nangis till.... haha miss him so much la wey...

den just now la... Nisha from RedFM called me suddenly.

i so blur. dunno what to say sial...

hahaha... plus driving some more. lagi can't concentrate.

but i called out yer names!!! hahahaha. tau tau lah... ade dengar dengar tu tau la...

hahaha...

den kat sayed skype again this time with victor... hahaha

he damn kesian la.

seorang kat situ.

den started havoc at FB. go check out FB den u know d.

hahaha

k la... lazy to type d.

i like status till my hand tired.

THANK YOU REDFM! made my day sial...

didn't expect to be on radio so soon. wahahahaha.

SEE YA'LL!!

BTW! new song up on myspace page.

go listen!!!

lyrics all out d...

tapi mic kat KL

tak dapat record... i will finish it once i dapat mic K???

WAIT FOR IT... WAIT FOR IT...

- sleeping moonlight

2010-02-04T00:44:00.004+08:00

Well i heard there was a secret chord

That David played and it pleased the Lord

but you don't really care about music, do you?

well it goes like this;

the fourth, the fifth

the minor falls and the major lifts

The baffled King composing Hallelujah.

- Jeff Buckley

If We could see tomorrow

what are your plans?

No one could live in Sorrow

ask all your friends

Times that you took in stride

They're back in demand

I was the one who's washing

blood of your hands

Don't you cry tonight; I still love you baby; don't you cry tonight

- Guns n' Roses

What about sunrise? What about rain?

what about all the things we were to gain?

what about killing fields?

Is there a time?

what about all the things you said was yours and mine?

Did you ever stop to notice? All the blood we've shed before.

Did you ever stop to notice? This crying Earth it's weeping shores.

- Michael Jackson

It's not easy to write a tune

let alone let you see me fly

It's not easy to touch the moon

let alone let you cry

I try and try even before I die

to place these words that are so hard to find

to let you know how much I care for you

Please do not let it Die

- Dusty Attic

he is dancing in the heavens

- a tribute

- the beginning of a dream

2010-01-30T19:58:00.003+08:00

DREAM!!

haha. yeah. we all dream.

but i feel the need to make it come true.

and patience is virtue.

i'm sure everyone's waiting to be rich.

but just waiting will never cut.

i will not wait.

NO. I. WILL. NOT.

currently,

hah

i have big big dreams.

seriously big.

but i'm starting small.

really really small.

i've been waiting for a chance.

a time.

and a bunch of trustworthy friends.

i feel like i've found them.

but it will still require time.

lots of time.

some may already know what i'm talking about

and most will not.

haha.

it's got everything to do with the picture below.

yeah.

have you heard of DUSTY ATTIC?

you may not now.

but, give me 5 years.

i will make sure u will hear about it.

then

u will know it

then

u will admire it

that ludicrous dream that i had since i was 17.

now it's bigger than ever.

i just can't wait till i see it start to grow.

i hope the people i wish to work with

would love to work with me too.

the road ahead will be a rough one.

given it is Malaysia for one

but i will not let this stop me.

it's time to do something.

instead of waiting for the apple to drop from the tree

in this case,

the DURIAN.

HAHAHA!

i believe within negativity

there is always a breakthrough.

you will never know until you risk it and make it.

aargh!! this adrenaline running through me.

i'm just so into it right now.

it's all happening.

i can't believe it is happening.

but IT IS!! =D

Indie DUSTY ATTIC co.

- insomnia people

2010-01-24T01:21:00.005+08:00

wassup! wassup! wassup!

NEWS! have u heard of the song

"Pants On The Ground"

haha

it's a new hit! xD

gotta love that guy.

anyways.

i've been doing good for the past few months not being EMO shit.

and i guess i'm doing real fine right now!

haha.

yet,

i don't feel complete.

why?

cause the people around me all seem to be as EMO as always.

sigh...

well u can't save everyone yea?

the only way out of this.

is yourself.

so... go people! hahaha.

R.I.P Sultan of Johor.

you're a great guy but your offsprings are not so good.

lol!!

i hope i don't get caught for this.

but it is true.

freedom of speech people!!

today, miss debby came to play the Wii.

cause she had nothing better to do already

and she was playing facebook and slacking at work all day.

wtf? and complain tired. = =

goin up KL tmr to ask abt my application for transfer.

ish.

troublesome bloody uni.

unreliable admins.

what more cud i say?

today. i learn something new.

or rather rediscovered something new?

how we wish life has a "SAVE" and "LOAD" function.

where one moment where we find out we did something we shudden have done.

we cud just pause, go to "GAME" and click on "LOAD"

then we're back to the save point where we can redo something or choose another path.

wonder life would be like huh?

in a way,

if you thing about it,

life would, just still be life if everyone can do it.

makes no difference.

but if only you are the only one that can.

that would surely make a huge difference.

don't you think?

anyways.

i can't wait for uni to start.

but in the meantime.

i hope i can get into the course in time.

shit.

gotta do something man.

argh. not in the mood for deep thoughts.

just wanna go to bed now and wake up tmr heading to KL for some FUN.

haha.

see ya'll around.

January's coming to an END so fucking fast.

one moment ago

it felt like we were just counting down to 2010

and now it's already going to February 2010.

one month gone just like that and 11 more to do.

hah.

irony.

i'll post more pics up.

when i have the time and mood!

- said it was an afternoon

2010-01-03T15:41:00.003+08:00

year twenty ten.

rough start?

yea...

big time.

wonder what's gotten into people huh...

some chooses to ignore you out of a sudden.

some pushes the blame on you for convenience.

some stood you up.

and some just plain being an asshole.

well

what could i say?

a rough start is a good start for a smooth sail ahead?

definitely hope so.

the bloody world is still spinning even if you're sobbing and dreading.

so what gives?

i say. wake up the next day

forget about yesterday

and give someone a break.

the world would stop hating each other.

when we accept the differences we have

and see them as something to learn or adapt.

after all

the only easy day, was yesterday.

i sit alone yet i feel like i'm not alone anymore.

if you really take a look around you.

everyone is a friend.

the only missing link is the engagement.

the engagement of speech.

a simple hello could start a conversation.

given that you are not an anti-social prick.

am i wrong?

random stuff:

my left eye's been twitching non stop for 3 days now.

not superstitious.

but i feel something bad is gonna happen or already happening.

ah.

anyways.

whatever.

like i said.

rough start = good start

hahaha.

optimistic aren't i.

yet i'm actually a pessimist.

hmm... parking ticket's gonna get expensive.

i guess i betta go now.

bloody CS.

money sucking machine.

but not after 6pm till 4am.

yeah.

shud have came at 6 instead.

haha

what the heck.

see ya'll!

- JA-NUA-RY

2010-01-02T01:04:00.002+08:00

yo!

NEW YEAR!

i know i know. it's already the 2nd day!

hahaha.

fast huh!?

damn. i can't sleep.

lots of stuff going thru my head.

mostly guitar leads...

damn!!

i hope the instrumental demo would be out soon for u guys to listen!

haha.

anyways.

i'll be updating soon!

so...

see ya'll!

shitty friends aside,

life's better already!

- one last day before twenty ten

2009-12-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

what's up...

finally caught a break

and finally caught my sleep.

yes... i did complain i was bored.

but it was because i was having too much fun;

a sudden stop was boring. hahaha.

anyways. new years eve party??

lol.

ahh...

life sucks as usual.

had a couple of friends stood me up

and acted like nothing happened.

well.. they "forgotten" again i guess..

whatever.

bunch of useless wimps.

and... a couple of "friends" that labelled as "friends" yet treated it like shit.

ugh! blah.

screw those people.

the new year's coming.

and like every new year.

i throw away the good, the bad, and the ugly.

hah.

who gives a shit anyways.

band's concept logo's out!

post it up next time. or check out the band's blog soon.

well, technically it's not band yet.

i'm still working on it.

songs would be posted next year.

ugh! it's not easy having to do things yourself.

anyways.

screw 2009

twenty ten. here i come.

btw, the bloody letter for enrollment better come quick.

before i go berserker on the PSO.

god damn.

enjoy you last few days of 2009 peeps

i know i would.

- all i want for christmas

2009-12-18T13:10:00.004+08:00

WHO GOES THERE!!?

haha. what's up what's up?

i'm officially back in JB!

for abt a month or so.

damn i miss home!! =]

Darren's back fom NZ too!

year end baby! everyone's ard.

that's awesome.

freaking awesome.

most probably going up KL to celebrate on the 28th till new years eve.

still planning.

going to hang out with Karyn too!

ahh!! haha...

what else... peeps from sec school.

then hopefully peeps at KL.

pop!

1 month while waiting for my letter from Uni.

to transfer.

yes people. i'm dropping boring engineering.

okay fine. it's boring to me... i'm not interested in building WMDs.

leave that to the geeks.

not Tony Stark tho. he's awesome. but i doubt u can find ppl like him.

people of mass communications.

here i come.

ore... sanjou!

nah! finger to u.

ji eh imissher

it's too bad for the distance

but time will fly eventually =]

muahahaha...

anyways these are all i want for christmas.

goodtimes;

goodtimes.

alrighty... anyone wanna go out to chill just give me a ring.

do it fast! cause before u know it... i'll be back in KL again = =

see ya'll soonz.

take care!!

despite what i think will or might happen

i dontgiveashit unless it's already the end

i just want things to be fun and easy;

not serious and complicated.

- misspoken

2009-12-16T14:30:00.005+08:00

damn the bastards that cheat

damn the bastards that hit on their loved ones

damn the bastards that never cared and played

i've never felt such a way before; until i saw her cried

right in front of my eyes

----------

Aku lihat dia pandangan pertama

Ternyata indah

Senyuman, Liriknya

Ku ingin dia, saat pertama

Berjumpa, dengannya

Membuat ku gelisah

Waktu berlalu hari demi hari

Hati ku dambakannya

Untuk bercinta lagi

- Estrella -

- nei nei nei nei nei!

2009-12-13T22:54:00.007+08:00

whaddap!!

today's SPECIAL!

GERMAN!!!!

muahahahhaa

i love this place

at CapSquare... called

Bayernhaus

German Fusion Restaurant

Bar Grill

featuring awesome german beer.

and awesomee german food.

1st up!

THE BEER!

hahaha.

i didn't record down the details.

and the appetizers

Mixed Mushroom Soup

The Summer Salad

MAIN COURSE!

The Variety Sausage and Bacon

The Pork and Steak Platter

Drooling already aren't u?

haha...

awesome dinner that night.

after that,

espresso goes well with everything.

lolz

ahh...

had an awesome weekend.

just chilling and having fun.

i'm going back JB soon!!

yeah... lots of gathering to attend

ok fine.. 3

but still... quite alot right?

haha

Christmas! ahh... i got myself my Xmas Gift edi. xD

IT IS... THIS!!!

The Remote Control for Apple products.

i'm having so much fun with it.

My Mac Feels diff now!!

hah. gtg for now,

i have two more stuff to show

but lazy to take the picture now.

maybe soon.

next post!

cause today's is abt GERMAN!

muahahahaha...

wiedersehen!!

(goodbye)

CHEERS!

- creep

2009-12-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

- Radiohead

- the last butterfly

2009-12-07T01:47:00.002+08:00

have u ever wondered, that if you had the ability to go back in time,

you'd want to change something that happened in life so that you can live better

right now?

have you thought about the consequences that come

from taking the steps you make the next move you make.

it is rather normal for a person to want to change something

in the past

so that they could live better in the future.

but it is most of the time, when you change something for someone else

but not yourself.

you save and help more than just yourself.

given a choice,

making that decision,

losing the person one loved so much.

was the only way to allow her to live.

a small sacrifice

changed everything.

i stepped on the wrong butterfly once.

i was given the chance to change things.

it doesn't matter if it doesn't make sense to anyone at all.

but my life has changed.

it is never the same as before.

the images flashed by me,

i had to choose what's best.

even though it's not what's best for me.

in order for a happier future for her.

what needs to be done, has been done.

i can't help any longer.

that was the last butterfly to pick.

remember those days

i used to talk about my purpose in life?

i think i've finally found my purpose.

not just as a tool.

but also, a human.

it doesn't really matter if you remember or not.

or if u even see this.

nothing is the same again.

i just hope that everything is worth it.

my last wish on the last butterfly

- the butterfly effect

be happy with what you have.

- frozen

2009-12-06T14:44:00.005+08:00

yo!

haha. what do u think of the ambigram above?

i drew it myself! xD

anyways. for the past few days have been tiring!

but at the same time awesome!

and spontaneous. lolz

Ash came up KL.

hung out and did shit.

and at 4am one morning after chillin out.

we decided. to go Genting.

hahaha

here's all our stoned faces at starbucks

ash.

Matt.

Colin

and I.

after a couple of latte and espressos.

we're back on track.

ash and matt loss in the casino.

we spent the day up in genting chillin till 12.

went to the temple.

and got our asses frozen till we can't feel our balls itch.

btw, it was raining from the moment we went up till we came back down

thus, these crazy shots were taken in the cold rain

from the mist, and the wind that was blowing on my hair.

hope u realize how cold it was.

we were totally drenched.

hahaha.

awesome wake up call.

didn't sleep for 2nights in a row.

came back next night.

we're all dead on the bed.

till 18hrs ago,

we met up again at laundry bar

and continue our shit session.

hahaha.

met up with macha abel!!

stoned till 7am.

reached home at 8 and finally some proper rest.

LOL!

okay, before i leave,

here's what's going on at home

bloody parasite mushrooms are growing in my toilet.

FUCK!!

someone tell me how to kill these things permanently!!!

damn!!

disgusting i know... hahahahaahhhahahaha...

goodbye.

- situation out of sight

2009-11-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

i hate being kept in the dark.

so stop doing that.

- five forty P.M.

2009-11-25T17:40:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to say actually.

i don't know what i'm doing actually.

i can't explain it actually.

i am confused actually.

i don't know what this means actually.

i know what it seems actually.

i can't deny the fact actually.

i brought this upon myself actually.

i wished it never happened actually.

i know i'm always a step behind actually.

i realize it too late actually.

i denied my feelings actually.

i felt it was actually.

love, actually.

- livefree or diehard

2009-11-24T00:20:00.003+08:00

hey i hope u enjoyed the cockroach story.

haha.

i'm back in KL again

yup. i know you're wondering why.

despite how much i dun like it here.

haha.

well i gotta be back to finish up some unfinished business

you will know what it is soon enough.

haha.

i'm keeping it private.

i have something to share tho.

i never knew, that someone could hate you so much?

as to delete u?

haha.

i thought we were still friends.

i thought, it just needed more time.

but i guess not.

a bitch is a bitch.

hahaha.

well safe to say now, i'm totally free from it.

and i'm ready to love someone else.

i just hope that someone else have just the slightest feelings back for me

u can't decide who to love now can u? hah.

well... it ain't a straight road for certain.

and i'm up for the challenge.

i've been through alot. i believe the experience counts.

not that i'm full of myself.

but i'm ready for more now.

so i say BRING IT ON! haha.

if there's one thing i've learnt in life

is that no experience is enough.

because every experience is different.

different people, different situation.

we should not think that we are better, but to think we are not.

that we need to continue gaining that experience.

never think, you are the best.

haha. i love these pictures.

lastly; SCREW YOU BASTARDS!

have a good one peeps.

- man vs roach

2009-11-19T02:01:00.002+08:00

it was a dark. the night was quiet. it was one fifty one A.M.

a warrior by the name of Ken sets out on his journey to the holy grail of cleanliness

- The Bathroom.

as he proceed out of the chamber door

he looked left and right

in case of passing by lizards

and the hallway was dark

street lights from the outside shown in

just enough to illuminate the walking path.

at the end was the grail.

with no sweat

he swifted towards the shining grail thinking

"this is going to be an awesome shower"

with his half naked body and towel wrapped around his waist

barely showing just a few strands of leg and pubic hair

he hit the lights and moved the slider

only to realize

an uninvited enemy awaits.

it fell out of the gaps.

it seems that Ken had unlocked the seal that was sealing this treacherous creature

called

-The Cockroach

it was black and huge with it's feelers moving up and down

as if it was provoking the warrior

it turned it's back on him

the warrior immediately tighten his towel

and with no armor he decided to take on a tactical move.

he sprung over to the armory

only to find that the only weapon that could kill this creature

has met it's last spray

-Shieldtox

the warrior was in vain

he didn't know what to do next

then, a voice whispered

"the legendary forbidden weapon; use it"

immediately it appeared before his eyes

-The Mother's Slipper

the warrior knew he wasn't suppose to use it

unless at extreme circumstances

THIS IS EXTREME CIRCUMSTANCES

the creature was standing in between his only hope of attaining the holy grail of cleanliness.

he equipped himself with the Slipper

and went on to confront the beast

the beast now aggravated

it's looking towards the warrior

giving signs that it's not going to leave

the face off on the edge of the cliff

was intensely short but felt like forever.

the warrior kept in steady pose

even tho his heart was pumping faster than a Lamborghini's engine

he knew he only had one shot at this

the beast moved forward.

he stepped on step back.

the beast advance with speed and moving it's feelers to further scare it's enemy

the warrior was prepared.

at the final moment.

both feelers and wings clashed with the slippers

in a flash of light

the warrior and roach was left standing

in a classical ending posture

of two samurai clashing blades

the roach twitched

and it fell flat under the Slipper's ludicrous force.

the warrior won the battle.

he had to bury the body.

to honor the death of the creature.

water from atop the grail was used to wash the body down

into the river of organic disposal residue

the epic battle ended between the two

and peace was once again upon the warrior.

finally

he attain the ultimate refreshment.

-The End-

2009-11-18T00:10:00.004+08:00

i just said something really fucking stupid

fucked up.

damn i don't know what's going on.

fuck it.

this is going to haunt me for the night.

i'm fucked up.

i shouldn't continue doing this anymore.

shouldn't have started.

i'm a total moron. fuck.

- ore! sanjou!

2009-11-17T12:42:00.003+08:00

hahahaha...

anyone knows momotaros? lolz

was having fun with steph's mask. lolz.

ORE! SANJOU!

(I have Arrived)

like damn bored only...

so decided to have fun with the mask. hahaha

i know la... i look better with the mask on rite?

more can be found on Facebook. lolz

this is my weapon.

THE SAO BA

(the broom)

use it to sweep the world off evil!!

lolz...

and this is one that will scared the shit out of u

if it's the chinese 7th month.

hahaha.

be afraid...

be very. afraid...

hahaha.

-------------------------------

can't make my own decisions; or any with precision

...

if god's the game you're playing

well, we must get more acquainted

because it has to be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy

...

you don't have to believe me

but the way i see it

next time you point the finger

i might have to bend it back and break it off

next time you point the finger

i'll point you to the mirror.

- Playing God by Hayley Williams

i'll see u around yea!

leave a msg! =]

- this has been a pretty long weekend for me

2009-11-15T17:02:00.004+08:00

ORE-SANJOU! lol.

hah! i'm back in JB for a week or two.

aaah... have lots of pics actually.

but most of em are in Dick's camera

which he FFK me for a girl.

bloody bastard.

a cute chick at steph's bday party caught my attention!

lol!

too bad we didn't manage to talk much.

but might have a chance.

or not. LOL!

yeap! random pics ard for today.

hahaha

anyways.

it's so damn boring in KL i started taking pictures of

Myself. = =

which i don't normally do.

jeng! this one i call it the HENSHIN pose

to turn into

GUITAR-MAN!

yesh randomly lame...

haha

it's good to be home.

owh have u guys seen this pic?

lolz...

and a couple more randoms

ahh... i have lots to say

but lots cudden make it in words.

i guess i'll just leave with a lil note?

hahaha.

i'll be back to update on the happenings.

just for ur info,

i'm currently working hard with "the band" on the EP

we don't even have a band name yet.

lol.

and we're short of a drummer and bassist.

when the CD's out! be sure to buy em!

thankyousomuch

for that 1hr call on the highway

urspecial;

somehow.

too bad fate doesn't go the right way sometimes

- tour de room?

2009-11-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

IMPROV! lol.

anyone seen how my room looks like now?

tada!!

like some ikea show room rite?

this is my office

my studio

my bedroom

lolz

this is where i live in KL

compare!

this is before

and after!

it feels good to shift or add things around.

haha.

not permanently staying here. so have to keep it simple

study and work desk!

hah.

hope u enjoyed the tour.

lolz

for more info.

please visit!!

= =

sighz...

ciao!

- four twenty six A.M.

2009-11-08T04:26:00.002+08:00

good morning?

hah. i just finished having drinks with friends

met new people.

lost a few too?

i said that i felt like the past was back to haunt me.

and that maybe it's for me to rewrite the wrongs.

but i guess i guessed wrong.

it's purely back to haunt.

maybe things isn't going well.

i just think it is.

sometimes, thinking positive ain't good enough.

the reality is still there.

just feel insignificant to the people i love.

aargh.

i feel confused.

i feel cheated.

i tried but only few was appreciated.

there's just so much to say

yet only few made meanings with words.

doesn't matter anymore i guess.

i don't anticipate it any longer.

- this has nothing to do with anything

2009-11-04T18:05:00.006+08:00

The All-American Rejects!

lol!

yesh i know!

awesome rite?!

hahaha.

sigh... ANGELALALALA! so sad you're not there!

despite this crazy queue.

which we didn't bother to queue anyways.

hahaha

see how crazy these ppl are?

we still got in in the end. and got a nice spot too.

so...

this was how i celebrated halloween.

despite the exams. =X

this is colin still trying to rock out even tho he's abt to get killed

and me just plain acting like and idiot

the guy's palm is huge btw, and he has long fingers.

wonder where they found him

grim reaper was happy to see us. so yeah. hahaha

aww steph's on the camera.

nvm. here's a picture of u with us. xD

blah. i'm pretty lazy to caption the pictures.

but i just feel like typing.

......

that was an awesome night.

then it was back to studying..... = =

and, i guess it didn't work out that well.

cause, as u can see

.......

....

btw, this is what you should not do, when studying.

drawing doodle arts. lol.

check out the monster lizard thingy.

hahaha!

= =

anyways. was at the car wash

when i saw this

lol.

i miss JB

this Syed reminds me of the Syed back at home.

which is so much better

hahaha.

okay! QUESTION! :

so how did you celebrate halloween?

i know someone kena Got'cha! haha =X

and she's hating me for that.

of which i'm proud of.

ahh can't wait to go catch a movie.

it's been so long since i've done that.

where my movie buddies went?!

fun will come back after the exams!

(which is next weeeeeeek!!!!)

holla me if u have plans! =]

i'll see u around!

- reflected at the last minute

2009-11-02T17:19:00.002+08:00

woosh. today's the day i realized what i should have realized months ago.

i shouldn't bite off too much than i can chew.

ever feel like you know how to answer your exams

but when u sit down in the hall

prepared and confident.

but as you start doing the questions

you just find yourself losing your confidence

and then soon you lose everything else in you head and you go blank

that's the shit that has been going on over and over again

and it took me only now to realize.

it's FUCKED UP!

now i'm facing the fear of failing everything and getting thrown out of the uni.

just because i wanted to "try" engineering.

it's like the whole world is crumbling down on you.

and plus when i went to talk to the lecturer.

i could see from his speech and expressions

"sigh... another guy who wants to quit at the last minute"

and i'm scheduled to meet him tmr afternoon.

gonna call my parents soon.

have to tell them now.

and just pray that i don't get shit all over me

aaarrgh!

why didn't i just follow my plans?

stop for a sem.

start out everything next year.

kan i've already told myself to take a break.

and now... see what happens?

just pray that i can still continue my studies next year.

all this striving for nothing.

and i just wasted a ton of money.

i feel like shit.

why?

is the only question i have right now.

- weird... and i d k

2009-10-29T20:01:00.002+08:00

hey...

nothing to say...

just...

emo?

lol

nvm. it happens.

i think it's cause of exams.

stressed and depressed.

i don't want whatever that has been to repeat.

why can't it just go away forever.

hah. like anyone wud know.

fuck that shit.

- moth or bird?

2009-10-27T21:47:00.013+08:00

hey ya kiddos!

okay i know i did say pictures.

but not now. hahaha

cause i gotta say this.

A BIRD FLEW INTO MY ROOM!

lol.

what sorta sign is that?

and btw. it was 6am in the morning when it did. WTF!?

sorry i wasn't awake enough to go

*woosh!!* "wait! camera 1st! take a picture!"

lol...

but yeah it flew in and tried to fly out but cudden. what a dumb brid.

i guess it's another score for the word BIRD BRAIN!!

cause i turned on the lights to help it find it's way out.

but it decided to stay in my room

crashing here and there desperately flying.

and FYI

my room ain't big

story was this...

it somehow flew it. and the wings were tapping the walls and it was hitting my stuff

at 1st. i tot it was the giant moth again. so i freaked out and

slowly... slowly... walking to the light to turn it on.

but i saw no moth.

den i heard the wings flap again.

and BAM!!

bird!

lol

i was shocked at 1st.

then i tried to catch it. cause it was tiny

but it kept flying away.

in the end. after 1hr. i decided to leave it alone and go back to sleep

cause i am too damn tired to bother. hahahaha

thus, i spent a morning with a bird in bed.

it stood on my lamp.

*** OKAY! NOTE TO SELF! CLOSE WINDOWS! or at least leave them ajar but not big enough for birds to come in and disturb good night sleep ***

i was having a very sweet dream BTW! = =

hmm pictures huh...

here u go !

HA HA HA

anyways. did i mention i got a hair cut?

don't think it's still like that. but this looks awesome!

anyways. these are from that day when we went for Photoshooting.

the model's picture are on Dickson's facebook

i'm lazy to upload them all.

this was the part where i tested the shot

where i aimed the shot

and BAM! spot on. lol. lame i know.

anyways. for ViVo's surprise.

i gave them a free show. LOL

without bothering my appearance. and yes i know

i look like shytz.

wee! thanks photographer. haha

anyways!!

it was back to shooting the model after that.

okay.

i guess that's all.

now back to the bookz for friday.

damn it.

imwonderingifsheistheone

LOL!

- dragon roar addiction

2009-10-20T01:03:00.002+08:00

heylow!!

haha

eways, i'm here cause i'mz boredz.

the hell... forget abt the weird speech.

anyways. finals coming up.

i'm forcing myself to study.

we all know kenneth don't study.

hahaha.

he's not the study type.

but.... it has to be done!

so do it! do it!

haha

man... i have like pictures. not tons of em. but afew.

but i'm kinda lazy to upload them.

and some of em not with me.

maybe i will the next time. yeah?

currently in the middle of "studying"

ended up watching a documentary abt Leonardo Da Vinci.

which is very astonishing. and a great eye opener.

anyone interested come get it from me.

you'll be amazed!

haha

hmm... heart's been flying ard lately.

and definitely on on books. hahahaha.

and i think i gotta improve on my english. god.

anyways. if you're wondering what the hell is a dragon roar addiction.

hahaha.

"now that! is a sceret!"**whispers**

hahahaha.

man... just here to release some stress and hope pple wud talk to me.

i am kinda lost in the world of communication.

it's like... ihavetomakethefirstmove.

kinda lazy and hate to do it sometimes.

when others come and talk to u. u'd feel better and

acknowledged?

haha.

i wish ppl wud do that more often in my case.

sigh...

alrighty. gtg

gd nite. btw, the post before this (the one below this)

is freaking awesome! hahaha

read it if u have not. and leave a comment or something.

ciao!

- the only easy day is yesterday

2009-10-13T00:01:00.005+08:00

booooyah!

man. this rubegoldberg machine thing is wasting alot of money.

all for the sake of passing Physics. = =

if i have a video of it. i'll post it.

but don't get ur hopes too high... cause it's limited to 1m X 1m

haha.

with limited criteria.

which idiot gives such assignment with such criteria. = =

ahh... KL KL

as lonesome as usual

dinner alone, sucks. srsly

not that i don't have friends,

just not as close the ones back in JB i guess...

time time time...

haha. hope it's going to work out soon enough.

FINALS! coming.

anyways. main point here. i got something to share with u. =]

don't know if u've read this before. but it's a very cool article. credited to RYS from facebook and wherever this came from too. here goes:

I am part of a Lost Generation.

And I refuse to believe that

I can change the world.

I realize that this is a shock that

"Happiness Comes From Within"

is a lie. And

"Money Will Make Me Happy"

So in 30 Years I will tell my Children

they are not the most important thing in my life.

My employers would know that i have my priorities straight because,

Work.

is more important than

Family

I tell you this,

once upon a time.

Families stayed together

but this is not true in my Era.

this is a quick fix society

Experts tell me

30 years from now I will be celebrating my 10th Anniversary of my Divorce.

I do not concede that

I will live in a country of my own making.

In the future

environmental destruction will be the norm.

No longer it can be said that

My peers and I care about this Earth.

It will be evident that

My generation is epithetic and lethargic.

It is foolish to presume that

There is hope.

And all of this would come true, unless we choose to reverse it.

-by Jonathan Reed

(you're suppose to read it backwards now!) ; ]

here's a link if you're a lazy bump. haha.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=167786338222&ref=nf

this sweet girl will do the honors of reading it for u.

hope this changed part of your life

in a way.

haha

take care! see ya'll ard.

- say hello to goodbye

2009-10-04T09:39:00.002+08:00

damn it.

as i thought.

one week just fly by like that.

not that i haven't catch up with anyone.

but not everyone.

seems like one week really ain't enough.

but i guess the one at the end of the sem would be?

darn... AAR's concert's going to be postponed

and i'm going to 1U to support Handle With Care!

they just got signed.

shooting a video on the 8th.

looks like it's a dream coming true for them.

and i'm still working hard for my dream.

with my band.

ahh...

damn wanted to go to look at the scout juniors yesterday

but ended up having to service the car and all.

plus my parents had to go do their prayers for their parents,

i ended up not being able to go say hi to everyone.

that just sucks.

i guess again i have to wait till the sem ends.

i better get packing now.

laterz then.

- living in a lie

2009-09-27T07:27:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.

woke up early.

like damn early.

don't feel like sharing that part of the story.

lol

but,

why am i living a lie?

a lie i created for myself so that i don't feel bad and sorry for my own sorry ass

i've seen enough faces to be able to tell lies from just the body posture and face impressions.

yet i can't tell myself to stop living a lie.

why is that impact so hard?

the first one took me countless years to let go.

how long will this one take?

can someone give me a smack in the head

and correct me to stop lying my way through life?

i can't help but to just play along this game.

i'm tired of playing.

yet the only way i can get through the day

is to just continue playing.

till the game

decides to crash and end itself.

what an idiot.

- stop and realize

2009-09-23T21:07:00.003+08:00

Malaysia's going to form their very own F1 TEAM!

and i guess after reading that, most people locally would just say

"WTF?! M'sia's OWN F1 TEAM!? WHAT A JOKE!"

correct me if i'm wrong.

but yeah... this is the kind of people we have in our own country.

is it that hard to just give some support to your own country?

to give your own country some morality boost?

we're a young country.

yet younger countries like singapore are beating us flat and advancing better than us.

why?

beacuse their people support their country's goals...

unlike some loser malaysians that only knows how to laugh and thinks that malaysia can't do anything right.

think about it,

if you don't support your own country,

who would?

i'm just sick of hearing malaysians just talking down on malaysia.

and you call yourself a malaysian.

dumbass...

when things are going well,

you don't see yourself complain and stuff

but when one thing goes wrong,

you blame the country...

that's why i say,

it's not the country that is fucked up

it's the people that lives in it that is.

did the japanese people look down on their own?

are they one of the most advanced country?

yes

did the americans back out when they are going to war?

are they one the most powerful country in the world?

yes

the list goes on...

give it a thought people...

if you only see the bad side of whatever malaysia does

then just don't be a malaysian...

go live in some other country and see what you think.

Our country can produce good quality products

Our country has the potential

just that our people... do not want to support everything that our country has.

try giving Malaysia a chance

and you'll find out there's actually lots of good things around.

so what if the government sucks?

the people must not suck.

then again. it was the people who have chosen their leaders now NO?

i despise the people who are local and want to act like their from some other country.

they should not even have an IC that says that he/she is malaysian.

and if you wanna be some outsider.

don't concider yourself a local.

then you can say all you want about this country.

don't be a snob, a loser that criticize you own country.

it's like criticizing your own body, your own family and your own pride.

i guess the bottomline is that

we live in this country

we should not look down on ourselves

but make ourselves better.

if you know you suck.

then do something about it.

instead of being a kid

and complain and cry.

that's what Malaysia has been doing.

can't you see the BIG PICTURE?

- i'm sick

2009-09-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.

i'm bored till i got sick

sick of staying at home

got a headache from staying at home

i'm dead serious...

it's so boring i wish i don't have holidays today and tomorrow.

i know...

it's not human to say that.

but seriously...

ugh. my stomach is feeling weird.

i think dinner gave me bad stomach.

i just watched malaysia's worst tv game show ever.

called 1 2 jus

wth is wrong with malaysia...

don't the people working there studied mass comm b4?

it's so bad that i don't think ratings even hit 0.01

lol

damn it.

i am going to bed early again on a holiday.

what worse could possibly come man...

GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO TMR!!!

blah!

- left it on that side of the bed

2009-09-06T08:32:00.003+08:00

shit...

i woke up this morning

to a dream that felt so real...

i woke up finding myself really in tears and

i felt dumb

it was one of those dreams where it felt like it's reality

i was sitting in a room

a class

and i walked out as i saw her sitting in the same class

and my friends told me that she's there

i went home and change to go elsewhere

i walked out of my house,

the class ended

i could hear people shouting

happy the exams are over...

and i saw her walking out with her friends

i went to greet my friends

and she came trying to talk to me as if nothing had ever happened

as if nothing ever was

it's like she has no memory of what we were

and i ignored her

i went back home

i sat in my room thinking

and as i went to grab my stuff on the table

there she was at my door

with a sad look on her face

i looked at her and she looked at me

tears started to roll down from my eyes

and i woke up to feel alright.

i walked out of bed. to see the time

and as i turned back

i saw something that made me cry...

a tear hit my pillow and formed a shape of a heart

what odds does that happen ever in life?

hah... i don't know

and i left it on that side of the bed

it's just so stupid...

9 months i've tried

and this just tears that all back down

i even dreamt that i already turned off my fan

when i woke up

i realized i didn't.

that was how real it was. hahaha.

i never should have answered...

- hmm... i think i've forgotten something

2009-08-28T01:34:00.002+08:00

gooooood morning!

i'm stuck with maths.

MATHS!

WTH

engineering maths is not for the fainted heart.

so please,

if you wanna live long...

don't study engineering!

it's for lifeless people

LIKE ME!

hahaha

maaaaan...

i dunno why i'm still awake

maybe cause of the trauma maths has given me

have i told u that I'M HAVING MY MATHS MID TERM THIS SATURDAY?!

good now u know.

basically i'm nowhere near the range of a PASS not to say Credit.

i'm so D.E.A.D

and i still can come online and crap with people and stuff...

geng rite??

hahaha

anyways. random picture,

THE SATANIC NASI PATAYA

okay, i did not put that star there,

it came like that

and i was like... "WOAH.... this is cool shit..."

hahaha

ask me where i got it.

okay... i still got lots of maths to cover.

and a whole day in front of me.

have to wake up to makan before Puasa...

to my Muslim friends...

SELAMAT RAMADAN.

and to my beloved country...

MERDEKA!!!

31st August coming soon. weeee!!! which means i'm closer to PSA test also

which i also don't know anything but peanuts about it.

owh... and Karyn's bday's coming up.

lol!

who else... don't know.

blah.

gtg.

i still can't remember what i've forgotten. hmm...

-so many titles to choose from

2009-08-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

haha

what's up...

so i've missed out on my scout troop campfire.

damn it.

today i'm kinda happy.

i'm so happy

cause today i found my friends...

haha.

no la... just happy cause i get to slack at home the whole day.

and i got my table and my room looks more like a room now than a garbage dump.

haha.

cool huh?

tmr got plans for dinner!

meeting up with my long lost friend from NS

MARCUS JEE. lol

apparently he's going back to Romania on tuesday. and sunday was the only day he's free.

i miss my ex-camp-mates.

i wonder how they're doing.

wira-wira Dahomal 2 Kem Tasik Chini.

hahaha.

did i tell u guys how marcus gotcha call me?

lol!!

damn... weekend is going to end just like that.

i can't wait for my bed to come.

my nose already killing me telling me to sleep higher above ground zero.

yes. the old nemesis - sinus

hmm... haven't been very free lately

i wanna go back jb and meet up with my mates.

not easy for that to happen for the next 2 months.

i will however...

meet them up during the long summer break!!

so WAIT FOR ME! and leave some time for me!! haha.

okay....

with that said.

i guess my purpose for this blog is done.

haha.

going to bed now.

UPDATE ME ON LIFE 09 PLEASE!!

i wanna know what happen and i wanna see pictures!!

ciao

- bug attack and stuff

2009-08-17T01:38:00.002+08:00

hey...

i can't sleep.

lol

don't know why

just can't.

i'm wondering who's reading my blog seriously.

don't really have feedbacks

but not important.

umm... people who read and run

haha.

thanks for viewing.

man... i am really darn bored and unable to sleep.

let me tell you what's going on in my mind then!

BUGS! they like to fly into my room.

= =

especially moths and jumping flying crickets

i'm like immune and lazy to bother them anymore.

i had a beetle visiting me in the morning too. lol

i so need to sleep else i'll be a zombie tmr morning in class.

jeez...

life's getting boring in KL

in fact, there isn't a life.

gotta do somthing about it.

else i'll die.

anyways, i think the main reason why i can't sleep now

is cause i'm being bothered by unnecessary comments by unnecessary people.

lol.

i don't know why am i being bothered.

i hope it could just go away.

and i guess by blogging it out.

i can get it to go.

which i hope it does work.

hahaha

if all else fails

i guess i'll subject to sleeping pills.

lol

insomnia........

hmm....

i just don't feel comfortable when i see others comment or criticize others when they don't look at themselves in the mirror.

it's sorta... irritating.

i wonder how this sort of people live...

you gotta know, it takes a lifeless person to know another lifeless person. hahahaha. if you get what i mean.

so why criticize what others do or say?

can't they have their own opinion? must everybody be like "YOU"?

it's just stupid and unnecessary.

ugh... yea it's stupid to feel like that. haha

but what gives.

i'm just being bothered by it and i wanna talk it out.

i'm sure there are some people who are reading this and already starting to give comments in their heads.

that's just their rights.

i can't do anything about it now can i?

so what i'm trying to say here.

let the people who enjoys their games enjoy their games;

let the people who loves their job love their job;

let the people who talks talk whatever they like;

let the people who has chosen their way of life live their way of life.

you are in no place to command them and criticize them on how they choose to be.

it's their human right.

i don't get what is the problem with you wanting to say such things about others.

sigh...

i am losing my respect to you.

such... never mind.

hahaha.

anyways...

we all can't be the same.

that's what makes us human.

bla bla bla.

i hope this will help me feel less irritated.

lol

should i say

or should i don't.

what good does it make

when i've lost all my trust in you

what good does it make

when what i've done

is never appreciated by you.

i'm back in my shadows

i'm wearing my mask once again

because i cannot stand

this reality where everyone's just ass licking

their way out of this.

why do i still care

why do i still think

months it has been and i can't forget what a fool i've been

thanks to such a memory

i tend to play my own game once more and no one can tell me what is wrong and what is right.

i owe my gratitude to the past

not the present one i see right in front of me.

all i can say is that i really have had such a feeling

but now i don't f*cking care

what will happen to you

i won't try and make things better

i will let you suffer

just like how fate wants you to

should i say or should i don't

that is the one and only thing left i have to choose between making things better or not for you.

you have to open your eyes soon enough

before you get deceived by your own illusions

and regret the path you have chosen

for eternal

and for life

- Should I Say or Should I Don't

some new lyrics =]

hope it has a meaning to you.

have a nice day!

- what the hell

2009-08-15T20:13:00.002+08:00

yes, what the hell...

this month of august is just a series of shit and more shit.

sigh... am i cursed during this month?

am i seriously cursed with everything august?

god knows.

well... for those who know,

my uncle passed away really sudden just last week.

i rushed to singapore as soon as i got the news.

it was damn sad.

i cried non stop.

yeah... cry baby... whatever

although he's my aunt's husband,

although he has no blood relation to me,

i grown up with him.

he's very heartwarming, very nice person.

he can make friends with anyone and everyone.

his jokes... may be a lil hard to catch.

but once u get it. it's so darn funny

and of course, his jokes are always in Hokkien. haha.

since young, i often visit them and stayed at his place with my cousins during holidays.

and he got strucked with a heart attack.

just like that.

he's always happy and not wanting others to worry about him.

yet god had to take him back.

i know he's in a better place now.

really miss him alot.

i'm worried for my aunt. i pray and hope she's doing fine.

sigh....

other than that;

was doing this assignment.

and turned out my group didn't use the report i typed at all.

he/she just changed everything that i did and passed up a totally different report.

i don't know what's that suppose to mean. and i wasn't told why.

what the hell man.

i rushed the report and corrected it over and over again.

and this is what it turned out to be?

wtf man...

and there are other stuff...

like for instance today;

suppose to go for MTV World Stage.

i went for the interview, and i was so excited i got the job.

went there in the afternoon;

walked to the gate. and my name wasn't in the list.

WTH?!?!?!

they asked me to come. and i came

and they told me my application was cancelled and was sorry they didn't call to tell.

i can say...

FUCK YOU!

fucking disappointed man.

i even went and get the shoes i needed for the job.

cause i didn't have black shoes

and this is what they tell me?

i was too tired to argue.

i asked if it's possible i can still work and they said N-O

spelled so big i don't know how else to express.

and now i'm here while some other guy/gal got my job.

pissed off i am.

very pissed off indeed.

i'm done and lazy talking about all these shit.

FUCK THE WORLD MAN!

god knows how many more bad luck i have coming for this august.

and don't try and remind me any.

just shut the eff up.

- Hitz RM5000 Says It's ME

2009-08-02T21:11:00.002+08:00

hello!

i'm back at JB now...

okay... that's old story.

new story,

i'm going back to KL tmr.

*the horror*

hahaha

yeah... back to the busy life...

yet, interesting.

but still, nothing beats home...

sigh...

wish i cud stay longer.

i sorta need to finish some assignments and stuff but i dun think that's possible

hahaha

cause i've totally forgotten about it as i'm back here in JB.

that wud lead to some problems...

*SHIT!!*

i guess i better do some or else i'll be killing myself tmr.

aahhh....

how i hate to continue my studies.

it's just so hard to cope.

god, or someone, anyone.

save me?

- event update

2009-07-24T10:40:00.001+08:00

hey.... reporting in from McD again! haha

this time it's in the morning.

having breakfast here. =]

with the cheap meal coupon. hahahaha.

hah.

anyways. as i said b4. i'm going to update with some pictures.

so... TADA!!!

lol.

anyways.

last week. i went for this F&N contest event thingy to work.

haha.

had lotsa fun.

and earned some big bucks in short time. how awesome.

best part of all.

didn't do much work.

was rather playing...

the event was the finals and the winner walks away with RM500K!!!

i can buy 3 or 4 cars edi wey!!!

our "football" team went out to work

haha.

basically it's 3 stages of games

and we're the timekeepers aka game masters.

haha.

just hanging ard having fun and earning money. how nice rite??

hahaha.

owh and the best part.

we got to meet the TEH TARIK KING from malaysia

hahaha. lame i know

and guess what...

he lives closer than home.

he's from JB!!

and he lives near CS

hahaha.

we got to become friends.

and no he doesn't work at a Mamak stall.

hahaha.

we'll go cari him when we go back.

haha.

those who are interested to meet him...

join along lo.

his teh tarik skills awesome sial

can spin ard wan.

haha. nice....

after the event.

as usual we took pictures on stage.

hahaha

keep memories

waiting for free kick from Messi.

hahaha.

and the RM500K tidak di-menang.

cause the guy cudden get thru the last round

and he won 25K

so the 500K nobody take... so who take??

US LA!!

hahaha

i know what you're thinking... YEAH RITE...

memang la.. siao mer... so nice den we dun need to suffer now lo...

haha... work so much...

anyways... have to thank Auntie Jo and You Xian find us that lobang.

there's more to come. looking forward to more.

hahaha

this job is FUN!

darn... sitting in McD to use the net is so weird.

but luckily here not many pple. haha.

heading to school later.

starts at 2pm.

lectures are quite hard to understand.

esp Maths.

sigh... dunno can keep up or not...

have to give it a try this sem.

arrrgghh...

i'll trade everything to go back to sec school life now...

damn it.

i gtg i guess...

miss the peeps at JB.

ciao

- an angel in hell

2009-07-20T22:05:00.003+08:00

hey peeps!

guess what?

there's an awesome chunted teenage chick

giving tuition here at McD to some kids.

hahaha

and i have an awesome view of her from where i'm sitting.

okay fine. not here to talk abt her.

lol.

but she's damn pretty and cute.

her smile...

omg stop.

lol

okay. guess what.

something to blog today!!

after living in KL aka Hell for the past few days.

today. was kinda suey for me.

my car battery died.

and yeah it's koz of my dumbness to not turn off the headlights again.

well was kinda hungry like mad.

and Chingy was with me.

and the hunger made the headlights slip off my mind.

hahaha.

so sorry to trouble Ching.

and i'm here to Thank a very very kind Lady

i shall call her...

MAP 1636 or MAT 1636 lady.

lol. koz i kinda got blurred of her car's number plate.

story's like this;

i'm effing hungry,

found a cheap place to eat.

didn't realize i didn't off my headlights.

makan and chat till very happy.

luckily wanted to go 7-11

walked to car.

saw headlights on

and "F**K" came to mind.

car can't start.

1st Try, asked a guy in a Persona.

well yeah... he said he need to rush somewhere.

fine... okay....

dun need your help...

den nvm...

the BMW parking beside my car

just nice wanted to leave.

so i asked for the auntie's help.

she FREAKED OUT! and DROVE OFF like so fucking fast.

i was like... WTF....

not like i'm going to rob u right...

freaking cheapskate auntie... drive BMW but go cheap food place to dapao...

= =

pek chek edi.

den after she left,

this Kind Lady in a Wira drove in to park at the evil BMW woman's place.

i waited for her to come down of the car;

tried my luck and asked extra politely.

BINGO!

she's awesome. she didn't ask. and she said yes.

she even asked her friend to help out.

man... she's awesome...

just the sad thing.

the pass 2 drivers were KL pple. she's from Melaka.

proves that KL pple are assholes like they always are.

and pple from other States are more kind that them.

lol

what to do... statistics.

jump started my car and i can't thank her enough.

THANKS to Ching for helping pushing the car too. and the Lady's Friend.

if MAP1636 Lady or MAT1636 Lady. (really sorry can't remember clearly the letters)

if you're reading this.

I REALLY REALLY THANK YOU ALOT.

YOU ARE SO KIND.

if you need any help ever, please let me know.

kinda slipped my mind to get her contact so that i cud treat her a meal one day.

darn it.

but she's kind.

and kindness will be passed on and on...

so i guess i'll help others one day too.

when the chance comes.

okay... that chick's still catching my eye... if she's not giving a tuition,

i'd go over and chat her up.

hah....

darn...

*i think she saw me looking at her*

hahahaha.

k man...

gotta go.

there's another story for another chapter.

haha.

when i get the pictures, i'll post them up.

in the meantime

take care and please do leave me msgs.

i miss everyone that i can't contact now.

Juls, Dick, Joyce, Ash, SMKST peeps, Rone Rone, Teh, Darren, Sarah and gang... Karyn, ShanLi.... list goes on and on. haha.

ciao

- finally some light

2009-07-17T13:24:00.002+08:00

hah! in case you're wondering...

yes i'm online!

but guess where!!

non other than the usual hometown...

McDonalds!! lol.

right.

still don't have my internet connection at home.

been going to places with free WiFi to keep in touch.

i got my father's device to go online with a phone modem.

but it seems like it's not working.

i think i'll have to pop back home soon to get my cable,

use the Sim Card from my dad's device,

and go online with my phone's modem.

haha.

so what's up peeps?

i know i ain't chatting much recently.

i need to freaking find a WiFi area to go online.

what gives?!!

i'm effing bored at home as the place i stay is like thousands of miles away from all my friends.

and i'm lagi effing bored at home as i'm super de duper

OUT OF SHOWS TO WATCH ON THE HARD DISK!

= =

damn.

haven't been blogging much.

school's starting next week.

timetable's a mess.

having classes like 5 to 6 hours a day.

talk about draining my life...

btw, did i say that i was sharing a table with someone here?

hah.

not that awesome of a chick. i think she's older than me.

lol.

okay. i guess i'm gonna stop here.

nothing much to say at the moment.

stay safe,

see ya'll next time yeah?

ciao

- back so soon

2009-07-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

yo.

umm...

hah. i know. fast update

back from KL.

saw the place i'm going to stay edi.

kinda far from sunway.

darn it.

have to wake up early again for classes.

as usual

i think i might shift out with my friends after everything's stable there.

lol

hmm...

feels a lil diff over there.

there's a pool tho.

lol. which is awesome.

cause i have a nice view of it.

slack part. no chicks there to see.

lol.

i think pple hardly use that pool.

it's clean. just the surrounding kinda slack.

haha.

jeez.

don't know when i'll blog again after this.

maybe soon

or not so soon.

ain't in the best of moods

maybe cause i'm leaving.

maybe not.

just a mixture of diff stuff

i'm sure gonna miss life in JB.

but,

i'll get to come home when i feel like it.

hah.

that's why i don't know why i'm feeling so...

i don't know how to explain.

and i'm sure it's not what you think it is.

haha. don't try to talk to me abt it.

got some grad day pics at my FB acc

for those whom i know and don't have me on Facebook:

look for my name!! haha.

i don't think you need my email.

it's not friendster.

let me know if you need help adding.

going to be a lil busy week this week.

have some things to do.

buy.

get.

and prepare.

accompanying my friends here in JB

for those who i can't fit the time in. i'm so so so so sorry.

school days what... how...

but i'll be back in weeks. hah.

so no worries.

i don't think anyone will miss me much.

well...

i guess it's just like that gua...

anyone have any plans PLEASE!! let me know.

i don't wish to plan anything as i'm already busy enough.

but i'll join your plan if it's not clashing.

promise!

gah...

just to announce that the annoying fella is leaving JB.

other than that.

yeah...

a lil mood swing here and there.

ciao then.

take care

and see you peeps when time allows me to.

- after disappearing for god knows how long

2009-07-03T02:08:00.004+08:00

waddup peeps

how's it going for you guys?

hah.

god knows if anyone's still reading this old blog.

apologies for the ones who constantly check for updates.

and HELLO! to those who came by for a short visit.

what am i here for??

lol. i don't know.

just feel like typing.

looking at the keyboard and realized i haven't touched on my typing for ages.

and figured out the best way to do so.

which is... BLOG.

so guess what...

i'm graduating from Sunway JB!

kudos! woohoo!!

wow.

what news ey?

and i'm heading to Monash U in KL...

which is still within the borders of Malaysia

not out of country yet for me i guess.

most probably taking the Engineering Course if i'm able to get it.

okay.

total Random blogging

since i haven't typed so much crap in awhile.

lets read up some crap shall we?

hahaha.

right.

i'm just in a state of dilemma recently.

i think i've lost my identity

i used to know who i am and what i want.

and i don't give a shit what other pple say abt me

whether in front or behind me

until recently...

i guess it's because of going to Uni.

that made me feel like i've lost myself.

i begin to wonder...

when someone asks "everyone around you smokes... why not you?"

i ponder.

and i just smile with the ans "i don't get influenced easily"

then i thought: "that was kinda naive. what's the real reason i don't smoke at all"

yeah i know.. it's stupid... to think abt something like that.

but i guess. it's just the ol weird ken.

hah.

and i know that the 1st impression people get from me is that i'm a

quiet, steady, serious

type of guy.

hmm...

i feel like i'm being judged.

and i get this awkward feeling when people talk abt it in front of me.

and when they say "i didn't know you're this this this and that that that"

i get this stun-moment where i don't know how to react.

and i just totally stay quiet.

but come on. how are you going to react to this kind of situation?

den i just cover my self thoughts with a sentence

"well... now you know not to judge a person by their appearance?"

"that's cause you don't even know me from the beginning"

"yeah so now you bitches know what i am like; and i know you love it"

hah! ;]

yeah i know... randomness...

just some thoughts.

wonder if there are people who have such experiences.

well i get this sorta reaction from others all the time.

and another popular one:

"WOW YOU CAN SPEAK CHINESE!"

that's my favourite

and

"engkau nih orang melayu ke?"

hah.

moving on.

i guess i'm having issues.

lol.

with myself.

which explains some recent up and down random mood

i don't know.

i think people ard me feel so too.

i get hyper at a moment.

then i'm quiet and silent for a period.

it's like... i have stuff running through my head.

and it comes and goes at weird timings.

haha.

when i go into deep thoughts. i don't voice out anything at all.

i'll just listen and observe

i don't even give a comment.

then when i'm hyper and all...

things come out.

things get revealed.

things are shared.

i know some friends ard me are already used to it.

just curious how others that just got to know me

feel abt this.

after all.

i am unpredictable.

it's sorta my shield.

an armor.

protecting and defending against something.

against intruders to my own little wonderland.

where i have peace and serenity.

and i do what i want. when i want.

and this

contributes to another factor and reason why

i'm the perfect subject to be

a one-night-stand partner.

lol

call it commitment issues or whatever.

but it's just how i feel comfortable.

reason?

the characteristic of being unpredictable and weirdness i guess.

and of course past memories; bad bad memories.

nope, not that i could not leave them behind.

it's long gone.

but what's left. is the path i've chosen to take;

for the time being.

anyways,

you only have one life,

why subject it to an end?

when you haven't even explore the world.

JB? KL? Malaysia?

that's only like 0.01% completion of your Global Progress.

hah!

okay... i think about 45% of the things i typed above

are things that i don't know what i'm saying.

it's just random stuff that comes to mind.

after all.

this is just a session for me to feed my hunger to type.

and it is well fed.

have you any idea how nice it is to type on a mac keyboard? LOL!

alrighty.

no offense peeps!

like i said.

random thoughts.

keep it alive.

(please excuse all sorts of errors. i'm lazy to review this)

loves

and whatevers.

hah! peace out.

- walking towards the Distant Worlds

2009-05-24T12:50:00.016+08:00

hey!
okay, no way in the world i'm going to miss talking abt this.
LOL!

KUDOs! to Arnie Roth and Nobuo Uematsu for coming to the Esplanade Singapore!!

why?

i'm sure you know why!

Distant Worlds: music from Final Fantasy Orchestra

okay 1st up! Pictures!
LOL!

getting seated and ready for the show

Nobuo Uematsu was like 50M away from where i'm sitting!!

Show time.

the moment we saw Uematsu sensei walking out from the back stage
someone from above shouted
"UEMATSU SENSEI!!!!"
haha.. full of energy

everyone started to shout and applaud..
awesome atmosphere man!!

yeah too bad we cudden whip out the camera anymore that time.
kena caught. haha!

but anyways. i curi curi got some shots later on. haa!

The Conductor - Arnie Roth then came out.
and the music begins.

here's the Song list

FINAL FANTASY VIII: Liberi Fatali
FINAL FANTASY X: To Zanarkand
FINAL FANTASY VIII: Don't be Afraid
FINAL FANTASY VII: Aerith's Theme
FINAL FANTASY I - III : Medley
FINAL FANTASY V: Dear Friends
FINAL FANTASY IX: Vamo' alla Flamenco
FINAL FANTASY XI: Ronfaure

in between every two songs, Arnie would talk to the audience.
and he'd intorduce the next piece.

so before the intermission

FINAL FANTASY series: Main Theme

went for a rest.

came back

continued with the next part

FINAL FANTASY VII: Opening - Bombing Mission
FINTAL FANTASY VIII: Fisherman's Horizon
FINAL FANTASY XI: Memoro dela Stono- Distant Worlds
FINAL FANTASY IV: Theme of Love
FINAL FANTASY series: Swing de Chocobo
FINAL FANTASY VIII: Love Grows
FINAL FANTASY VI: Opera "Maria and Draco"

and that was like the last song on the list. and yeah... everyone in the room was quite dissappointed.
why?

WHERE THE HELL IS ONE WINGED ANGEL!!

ARRGH!!

so nvm... at the end of the show...
Arnie gave a speech about how singaporeans like surprises
"so we have a surprise song for you... and i know you think you know what i'm going to play"
"then he said: the next peice would be a surprise piece from.... .... Eyes One Me"
every one was surprised.
then he said
"no we don't have Faye Wong here today i'm sorry"
"but we'll play you an orchestra version"

okay so after that.
every one started shouting again.
"Encore!! Encore!!!"
and the guy above was screaming and yelling
"ONE WINGED ANGEL!!"

den Arnie walked out again...
said: "okay.. i'm not going to leave you just like that am I??"

*people were on the edge of their seats*

they did some poll thing about the next performance arrangements
A: "okay.. here are your 5 choices now... vote.. remember.. there's only 5 and we choose the best 2"
" i feel like i'm in some british idol or american idol or something"
*laughs*
"okay... here we go.. it's your vote.."
"the results are instant"
*laughs*

the vote for the next Orchestra arrangement was
Final Fantasy VI: Dancing Mad
Final Fantasy VII: J-E-N-O-V-A

CAN'T WAIT FOR THOSE!!

then

"i know that you know what i'm thinking to play for the last encore song for you"
*laughs*

"but it is not the one that all of you were yelling at me... haa. i'm sorry"
"here's Terra's Theme"

it was awesome to. and the song was for the credits...
and yeah... felt a lillte disappointed..
but things don't just end like that.

not when it's Final Fantasy;
after another voice shattering session of shouting ENCORE!!
this time, both Nobuo and Arnie walked out.

N: "Ni Hao" (chinese)
*laughs*
A: "ah... Nobuo-san can speak chinese"
N: "I can speak chinese"
whips out a paper
N: "Wo Xi Huan He Pi Jiu"
(i love to drink beer)
*laughs*
A: "okay... so Nobuo-san told me backstage and asked if he could sing for you as and Ending"
N: "haa.. nonono i can't sing solo.."
A: "come on... give it a try"
N: sings a tune lamely and laughs
"I can't sing Solo... nono"
A: "haha... okay so how about one more song?"
*the orchestra stompping their feet*
A: "would you like Nobuo san to sing one last song?"
*cheers*
N: "but i can't sing solo... i'll sing with the chorus behind.."
*walks to the Chorus*
A: "okay.. we'll play one last song for Nobuo san to sing for you... isn't that an honor?"
"and i know that you think you know what song i'm thinking to play and going to play for you don't you?"
" here we go ONE WINGED ANGEL"

**WHOLE CROWD WAS TOTALLY SURPRISED AND CHEERED**

and Nobuo WAS SINGING TOGETHER in the Chorus!!
how awesome was THAT!!

Finished with the whole theater's Standing Ovation to Arnie and Nobuo

The ending was with Sephiroth in the Fiery background
and this is the reason why the change of colour in the logo at the screen.

every song was played with Nostalgic scenes from the game
displayed on the projector screen.

had a dialogue session at the end where we get to talk to them
ask questions and all.

hmm.. kinda wasted that the Black Mages wasn't able to come perform..
due to complications with Square Enix.
two band members are from Square Enix.

but Nobuo already resigned from them...
so i guess... it'll be hard for them to join in future performance.

then was the autograph session

but THIS IS WHERE I GOT DAMN DISAPPOINTED!
(not counting all the other disappointment of the day)
but!

I GOT CUT OFF THE QUEUE!
they said it was at their limit. and i was freaking TWO people away from the CUT!!
i was like WTH?!??!
my cousin and his friend were complaining and all.
but failed...
then more pple complain

AARGGH
den i ran to the front trying to get a picture and this are the best i cud get... sigh...

yeah.. Coke light was ditributed for FREE!! lol!

damn....
DAMN!! NO AUTOGRAPHS!!!
but nvm...
they said they trying to get the performance in KL!!
wahahahhaa
WAHAHAHAHAH I AM GOING FOR SURE!
and THE AUTOGRAPHS!!!

bought a T-shirt

Souvenior

damn... it was an experience of a life time...
there isn't a word to describe the feeling
really.
not a word.
i dont' know which to use if there was.
hahaha

AAAH... NICENESS!

lol!

after that.. walked back to JB

-------

okay this is a Funny, lame, yet frustrating experience for me when i reached back.
the place i parked my car.
the freaking person in the booth to pay the ticket was missing
and i was like
"shit.. now i'm stuck here."
then some evil ideas came into my mind.

the side of the booth wasn't closed.
(the exit for motorcycles)
the barricade wasn't long enough.
and i saw my car... able to just fit thru.

it was blocked by some cones and stones...
so yeah.. haha
what i did was i went down
removed them

drove off...

took the parking ticket.
threw it out the window.
xD

i don't know if i'll get caught...
but haha... whatever!
who ask the pple to go skiving ard...

i didn't put the cone back tho...

gosh i feel so evil..
hahaha.

that was the icing on the cake. xD

alrighty
better go study for tmr's test.

still living in the moments of the orchestra.
aaah...

those who didn't get to go...
you don't know what you've missed...
and i feel wasted for the pple i invited but cudden go in the end.
Dickson.. yea... he was utterly disappointed with his mum.
and so was Estella with her mum...

damn.. i'm sorry wey... =/

we'll go together the one in KL when it's confirmed!
=]

gtg
smell ya'll laters!

- true and false

2009-05-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

do you have a friend,
who'd drop whatever they are doing,
just to give you a hand when you need help.

do you have a friend,
who'd sacrifice time spent with his/her partner,
to be around to talk with, when you needed a listener the most.

do you have a friend,
who'd sacrifice his entertainment,
just so that he/she could entertain you.

do you have a friend,
who'd get you out of trouble,
who'd go the extent,
who'd even take your place in hell.

maybe,
i've done too much,
to find a real friend.
maybe,
i should not,
have done so much at all.

after all,
"you are just a friend, there is nothing much i can do for you"

i'm naive.

in the end, it is still just you alone in this world.

i did it all for nothing.

i have trust in no one at all,
or maybe just

some"one"

- the fray

2009-05-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

I found God,
On the corner of first and Amistad
where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said where you been?
he said ask anything.

Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
All i needed was a call
that never came
to the corner of first and Amistad.

Lost and Insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the Floor,
Surrounded, Surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You Found me, You Found Me...

In the end, Everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
who i am, who i'm not, who i want to be
no way to know how long she'll be next to me

Early morning, City breaks
I've been calling for years and years and years and years
and you left me no messages
you never send me no letters
you got some kind of nerves taking all i want

Lost and Insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the Floor,
Surrounded, Surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You Found me, You Found Me
Why'd you have to wait
to find me, To Find Me...

The Fray - You Found me

2009-05-16T01:13:00.002+08:00

I've GOT NOTHING,
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT RECENTLY
THAT IT FEELS SO EMPTY HERE!

THAT's WHY I'M USING CAPS AND BOLDS! LOL!

life's not being interesting recently,
maybe... it's because of the finals.
haa.
i'm flunking...
death upon me.

great. gtg...
i'll be back.
=]

anatawo.... mistuketta!!
heee

random sheeeeetz again. haaa!

2009-05-07T10:35:00.008+08:00

haaa i finally have some extra time to burn to blog.

cause it's an OFF DAY for me today!

WOOHOO!!!

Tmr's my last Trials paper. damn how time flies. lol

jeez...

Physics tmr...

malas wanna study edi.

actually i langsung didn't study at all for any of my papers. LOL!

sssssshhhhh. dun tell anyone. haaa!

okay wait. ain't i telling the world now? lol!

okay! 1st off some random pics!

see if you can identify what are they! hahaha.

okay this not that hard. heee

here's school...

and my 3 year old shoe

went out with Juls and Dick the other day.

that's when all the random pics were taken. haha!

guys guys guys!

you gotta see this. haha

muahahaha CUTE RITE?!

look like little teddy bear wey!

his name's Hersheys! hahaha.

it's a friend's dog.

OMG so little, can carry with one hand lo..

uber cute.

played with it. haha. it's like so quiet.. and cute...

and sweet...

hahaha.

yeah.. that abt all the random stuff...

yesterday,

had some trouble in school. those who were in school

and who i've told about, shud know what happened.

sigh...

i d k what to say, but i don't wanna judge.

from what i've seen and what i've heard.

and what i've been thru, i have my own opinions.

not going to tell it here, but

sometimes, i still know that what i predict would be correct.

i'm not speaking statisticly here. but, believe me or not it's up to the person.

i have my reasons to stand by the things i said.

i haven't seem to be wrong.

not that i'm assuming.

of course assumptions are part of life,

it's also part of fact finding.

but it's just a gut feeling. a voice i hear. everytime i go thru stuff like that.

not judging a person, not profiling them.

things just come to my head for some reason.

and it always proves to be right.

it bothers me

but i tend to use it for a greater good.

i hope people cud stop being such hypocrites sometimes,

saying something and doing another thing.

it's just so....

annoying and disturbing...

it makes people loose their trust in you.

you feel me?

be who you are,

and don't force yourself to be better or worse.

you don't have to please others,

you just have to let others accept who you are.

i hope my friends would understand this.

esp my buddies.

i just hope things didn't have to be like that right now,

yesterday was really an eye opener.

and i hope it opened his eye.

we hang ard each other almost all the time.

you're my bro man...

i'm not doing it to hurt your feelings.

or to tear your life.

i'm telling you cause i don't want you to go back to square one.

like you always do.

i know i can forgive you,

and i was happy that you chilled yesterday before looking for me again.

i ain't gonna lie to you,

there's just things that you don't see going on behind your back.

gaaah, anything else we'll talk about it.

haaa...

and for you readers...

just try to keep a look out,

identify you friends and loved ones,

don't be kept in the dark.

sometimes, the people around you see the bigger picture than you.

and when they tell you about it.

it means something somewhere might be going wrong.

try to accept their advice and work on it.

instead of regretting it later on.

i'm sure true friends want the best for each other

and wanna help each other look out for each other.

take care guys.

gtg now.

imissyou

and i miss hersheys! hahahaaa!

and i miss 3 other bitches! lol =X

amber kylie and stuffy.

owh owh! and i hope to meet WANG WANG~~ soon.

smell ya'll laterz

- system breakdown, again

2009-05-03T13:49:00.006+08:00

directions anyone?

HARROW HARROW!

darn it.

my com just died again. and i'm blogging with a lappy.

lol

this is how it all went down,

Friday, labour day, turned off the com after i checked out some stuff online,

Lok Li Jen

my NS friend from Kluang came to JB! haha

brought her ard JB!

went to Larkin bus station to pick her up.

met at Macs there, haha.

after that, went for brunch at the Noodle shop.

later on after makan, went to look for Wicky and gf,

haha.

den off we go to Jusco and met up with Dickson and his gf.

lepaked ard Jusco, doing stuff and intro-ing stuff to them what we usually do there.

hahahahahaha.

those who knows, would laugh their asses off now,

"Wanna earn some quick money??"

hahaha.

then later on send Wicky and gf home.

den went to CS to drop Evangeline's phone to her.

rounded JB not knowing where to go, decided to bring her sightseeing,

with Dickson as the tour guide giving a tour guide speech to everywhere we go.

hahaha.

of course making up stuff on the way.

den i remembered a place which is now 70% completed. lol

Taman Merdeka! haha. nice place to go walk ard actually.

haha was walking down this path with lots of wall carvings of the history of Malaysia,

den came to one wall with nothing on it. den as the usual Dick,

he did this:

and said: this wall is for "this"

hahahaha

den we continued walking

here's some pics,

peeping tom! lol

hahaha

then after that, felt warm

and BOOM! we ended up at Serene Park's Ice Kacang Stall.

hahaha.

yeah, i smiled like that on purpose... lol

den woosh! time flew, it was like 5 6pm edi.

went to CS after that,

wanted to look for Juls, but she knocked off edi.

too bad. cudden offer her a ride.

so we walked ard for abit.

had some more lame fun

den sent her back to the station.

later, went home, colin called, ask wanna go SS look for Calven and the gang not,

so i said ok, but wanna go back to on my downloads.

need some NCIS to watch.

mana tau!!!

WAHLAO EH! PC CRASHED!

the Restarting Sound of Death *beep*

like every 10 seconds, cause i cudden load to windows,

i suspect the Motherboard again.

and it's out of it's warranty time!

NO!!!! repair will take a month or so,

buyin a new one will cost me a BOMB!

and argh!!!

AAARRRGGH!

no com to use, no shows to watch to pass time =/

DARN IT!

sigh... and so i'm here ranting all about it.

it just crashed for no good reason!

my mum said she unplugged to plugs when it rained,

and still it rosaked! how did the lightning strike the com when it's not even plugged in!!!

HOW?!?!?!

GOD!! TELL ME HOW?W?W?W?W?W?

sighs...

it's Trial's week.

so nice Sunway KL no trials one.

sheeshkebab.

rawr. gotta study,

it's freaking 10%

and i think i'm failing my Chemistry, =/

sigh... cause it's kinda like a taboo subject now.

god knows why.

update ya'll when i'm free.

for now, i guess i'll have to stick to the lappy or KS if the lappy is used by my bro.

darn...

see ya'll ard yea?

ciao.

2009-04-28T08:54:00.001+08:00

GOD DAMN THE VOICES IN MY HEAD!
ASK THEM TO LEAVE ME ALONE NOW!!

- what in the world

2009-04-26T14:00:00.002+08:00

haa.
what in the world is going wrong man...
basically,
after the last round of B-routine,
the juniors in Sunway got so hooked up.
they went again last saturday. =. =

it's funny. hahaha.
i got dragged along with them, despite the 1001 reasons i gave them.
my car petrol habis in just 3 days.
habis aku.

first was some Haunted house Visiting.
which ended up in smoke cause there was too many of us,
dragged to much attention. had to leave the house alone.
saw some sniffers walking out too.
scary shit.
ain't afraid of the haunted house,
more afraid of the bugs and snakes in there.
shit, you die cause of the spiders, fire ants, and snakes. not cause of the Ghosts. LOL

later on went to susur, undercovers were already there.
plan smoked again. haha.
looking at their sad faces, made me laugh.
geez...
dun really see the fun in looking at the freaks,
half man, half woman.
=. =

chilled out somewhere at anjung warisan.
i ciao after that.
sent friends home,
went home and crashed.

cacat la.
have to stop these activities asap.
TRIALS coming next week.
FINALS in 3 weeks.
habis aku.

JULY! KL! Here I COME! lol.
hope my application passes.

hmm... still deciding to get a Mac or a Mini.
most probably a Mac. wahahhahaa.

gtg.
ok. other than barang barang yang tidak berfaedah, i am studying my arse off.
haha. so it's kinda boring now.
life has just gotten less interesting.
scouts competition coming, urgh, i dunno if i can help much. but i'll try. x.x
ciao.
busy ass week.

- sleeping to dream about you

2009-04-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

hey...
haa.
damn fever and flu is the best combo to die man.
i'm half dead already.
i think i screwed Math today once again. cause i can't think.
Probability needs lots of thinking. but i just can't think.

tmr having physics.
need to think somemore.

i almost died on the way home today.
cause of the whole drowsyness.
damn. people, do not drive when you're sick. lol

reached home and i crashed from 12 till 5.30
lol.
damn, i haven't finish my assignments.

owh god, tolong tolong...
tmr make me feel better.
i can't screw Physics up.
i need to go into U.

I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town

I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down.

darn. i feel so far away.
like, i can't catch up?
no matter how fast i run or walk.
should i just stay put, and look as what i wished for move further and further.
or continue chasing pavement and hoping what's in front would just slow down so i could catch up.

i feel like time is running out.
as a matter of fact it is,
just look at the countdown beside there. lol

argh... i have to continue studying.
else i'll confirm fail tmr.

guys... help me pray for a fast recovery tmr yea?
lol.
btw, watch Shasheen Jafargholi on youtube! lol. another Britain's Got Talent singer.
this time's a 12 year old boy, who... haha. go see for yourself.
=]
link's here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVU4IkzMNIo&feature=channel_page
enjoy!

see ya'll.

- the usual hoohaas with a twist

2009-04-19T10:39:00.004+08:00

before you continue,
go youtube. Search for Susan Boyle
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related
or this link right here.
Let It LOAD!
it's awesome i'm sure you will have your hair standing and tears accumulating around your eyes.
GO!

hey!
whaddap?
been going out and doing work alot.
hahaa.
i know many pple can't catch me.
cause i ain't free all the time.
promise to make time for all. soon.

hmm... so what's been up. well basically need to finish up some Physics project tmr.
making a generator.

well two days ago,
went out with a new group of people.
KC invited to go RedBox.
which erm... sorta got me in a pinch when i was there.
the group was KC, Jason, Calven, Alyssa, Wei Lik, Chris, and Ah Fong. lol.
supposedly some others were to come, but they didn't.
so anyways,
halfway through. the Cacated fella came looking for me and accompanied him to the sinseh.
lol.
Funny guy the sinseh is, the one opposite mary juana. oops i mean Marybrown.
hahaha.
got a video of it.
i'll get it and post it up maybe.

den went back. hmm.. there's a small part.
where i'll write it small small here also. haha
there was a point where wei lik came in and said
" hey KC, i saw ********* just now, wanna ask *** to join us or not? "
and i was like. STONED. and inside i was like " **** what to do now? "
den i was like... okay...
" just stay calm. and act normal. things will go the right way. "
lol.
and luckily it did. and no awkward shit came.. haha.
damn.
Julianna was suppose to join us but she went out with Steph. lol

later we went to Old Town
Ash and Colin joined.
had an awesome laugh with them.
Jason's a bloody joker man.
shit he's just making our asses drop everytime he says something.

later on they decided that it was KC's bday, so we planned to make it a special journey for him.
brought him to Susur. hahaha.
well, for those who don't know where susur is, wait till you're old enough. hahahaha.
HINT: it's some where near Danga Mall going towards Skudai punyer highway. haha
Calven was with us in the same car, and he was erm... ***** all the way. hahaha.
Ash was freaked out, Colin was enjoying the view, and so was I. but yet that place still disgust me.
*shrughs*
KC tried to call for one. hahaha.

ha, awesome!

yesterday was alright.
went out to Jusco but nothing in Topman to buy despite the 20% off.
went to CS and saw more freaks.
man, i dont' understand. Anime characters, should just stay in pictures and in ANIME. not in the real world.
it's so... obscene. it scares little babies and kids la wey!
met up with a friend, Fhana, lol. dont' really know how to spell her name.
later at night went to
LiVinGRooM and met up with Pauline.
den had a nice chat and tricked Dick and her with some card tricks.
haha.

met up with ASH and ********, well they dun want me to go ard telling pple who the starred pple are,
and COLIN and ******, actually i dun really have to Star-kan that name. hahaha.
den...
yea, suppose to meet up with the macha Abel.
but in the end didn't.
sad.
maybe later in the afternoon today.
but i have assignments. SHIT!

today. went to play ball...
had an awesome workout.
and played against some team from foon yew which we won like 40 - 10
hmm...
and that's all. lol

on with the day peeps.
gotta ciao for now, keep me posted yea?
haha.

- panas sial

2009-04-15T21:03:00.004+08:00

Oh Hot Damn,
This is my Jam,
Keep me Partyin' to the AM
ya'll don't understand,
make me throw my hands in the ayer
a ayer ayer a ayer...

Oh Panas Sial,
Inih Gua punyer Jam,
Buat parti sampai pagi...
engkau tak faham,
bikin gua panas.
buang tangan kat angin ah angin,
anging a angin...

hahaha. xD
man,
i've been down with bad flu
due to over stress and lack of sleep.
I NEED A REST!
haha

i just recovered from it. but still feel groggy
and i have 2 ulcers.
man... the weather's to blame, says me
haha.

hmm...
i got mah performance punyer pic

ceeeh. haha. tau lah. performance cacat sikit.
tapi suka juga.

and i'm thinking to get a MacBook.
standard or Air... hmm... hahaha

hmm...
skrg sangat sibuk wo... banyak-nyer kerja.
suppose to take care of Junior's Marching Competition thingy...
den got my Exams... and the Physics project.
rawr!
i'm going bonkers

anyways.
all this gonna end SHOON!
hahaha

gtg. updatesss later
see ya'll

- it feels good to be back

2009-04-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

booyah.
yes
it's good to be back.
haha.

i'm on a roll man.
and by the way. i'm busy. lol! which is GOOD!
got some juniors to take care of, school's Exam and deadlines to meet.
and of course, chicks to entertain. lol.

argh,
damn tak puas today.
kena lepas aeroplane,
missed out on a big chance some more.
bengang wey!

gawd, i have so many deadlines to meet this week.
i think i'm screwed yet again.
BURN!

and out of all the randomness,
this one's the best.
i'm
totally
stone.

haha. don't know why i'm blogging.
basically just to announce that I'M BACK! and
lol
i have an empty space to fill.
less than 6weeks! OMGWTFBBQ WEY!
oh Lord, pls don't let this to waste.
it's a ONCE in a LIFE TIME EXPERIENCE WEY!

hmm... i've been going to church quite recently.
lol. is this a sign? haha
hope not.
i can't believe i attended a mandarin mass.
where i cudden understand much.
lol.

anyhoo...
gtg for now.
i'll update, if there's any update.
currently lazy to upload pictures.
but i have em!
haha. ciao!

smell ya'll around.

- why is it so damn hard this time?

2009-04-09T20:33:00.003+08:00

the last person i want this to happen with between;
you are.
and i didn't expect it to be so hard;
on me.
the silence in between was once experienced;
we both.
yet this time, i don't know if i could patch it back up again;
i tried.

i want to get on with life,
i am struggling at the moment.
don't make me believe anymore,
i just want to be a friend.

- could you at least take good care of yourself when i'm gone

2009-04-08T10:54:00.007+08:00

harrow...
i think i've got back my MOJO. haha

anyways
today's a HORIDAE!!
haha.
means more homework, and schoolwork.
shit.

well,
school yesterday
i was almost basically dying.
was sleepy, drowsy, dizzy, headache and died.
lol.
i jatuh tidur for 30mins in each class.
until Chem. something happened. haha.
i'm still thinking if i wanna tell u all. =p

anyways,
met up with KC.
went for lunch and caught up together.
that fella still the same. still the usual "lao qian" haha.
always using cheap magic card tricks to cheat pple.
hahaha.
but entertaining.
dunno how many pple in college give him cheat edi. esp girls. haha
and also met Andrew.
taking DBA... hmm... DBA... lol
nice seeing my juniors hanging ard again.
brings back some memories too.

erm i'm kinda looking for some weekend decent job.
lol.
if you have Gigs to invite small time singers to do some showcase
please let me know?
yeah me need job. to fill up time. to keep occupied.

bah. dunno what to do now.
be back to blog later. don't seem to have anything i want to say
atm.

- please don't tell her

2009-04-04T13:57:00.002+08:00

I hear she's kicking ass across the board and rock two hundred thousand higher scorer
Just in time to save the world of being taken over
She's a warrior
I couldn't play again because the game it never end it never even landed on the can
And never let me in to spend my quarter
There's no love for me no more

Say it isn't so
How she easily come, and she easy go
Please don't tell her that I've been meaning to miss her
Because I don't

She was the girl with the broadest shoulders
But she would die before I crawled over them
She is taller than I am
She knew I wouldn't mind the view there
Or the altitude with a mouth full of air
She let me down the doubt came out until the now became later

Say that it isn't so
How she easily come, how she easy go
Please don't tell her that
I've been meaning to miss her

Because i don't,
not for her,
it's not that i'm mad, to forgive, forget
what i've said

'Cause she don't really need to know

That I'm crazy like the rest of us
And I'm crazier when I'm next to her

So why after the all of everything that came and went
I care enough to still be singing of the bitter end and broken eras
I told you I don't but
I am only trying to be the best with my intent to cure
The rest is sure to lay me ease the plural hurts of the words of reverse psychology
That's easier said
Easier than done
Please don't dare tell her what I've become
Please don't mention all the attention I have drawn
Please don't bother cause she'll feel guilty when I'm gone

Because I'm crazy like the rest of us
But I'm crazier when I'm next to her
And it's amazing how she's so self-assured
But I know she'd hate me if she knew my words
Do I hurt anymore
Do I hurt, well
I don't

- are you still there?

2009-04-03T08:02:00.004+08:00

hey,
man, my mornings...
damn.
it's why i'm here i guess.
i wake up to very disturbing and mind blowing things.
i wish they would go away.

i try to make every morning better than the last, but
i have failed so far.
and it's getting worse.

how are you doing?
why don't i feel that you are happy?
i am doing my best to keep you out,
yet... sigh.

changed?

- - - - - - -

yo! lol.
just got back from school.
TIRED!
class shifted here and there. made me confused.

damn. this morning.
wasn't really the best mornings ever.

i need to rest more.
sigh...

see ya'll ard.
ciao

- why are you so dumb? doesn't matter

2009-04-02T18:51:00.003+08:00

WHADDDAAAPP!!
lol.
guess what!?
I can't finish an X Meal in KFC! lol
i totally wasted the Zinger Burger!!! arrrgghhh... shud have ate it 1st!
freaking burger left ~~untouched~~.

lol. i guess KFC is more filling than McD wey!

hahaha.
suppose to eat DOMINOS! but then the cacat fella changed his mind.
CB...

okaY! dunno why, usually my thursdays are freaking TIRING!
but today, somehow i feel kinda energetic.
lol
i think i got my stamina back.
hahaha.

APRIL FOOLS! i was freaking studying my arse off.
today i tot we had CS test. mana tau, tak de...
wth. made me waste my time.
cud have spent more time with dear dear... hahaha.
jkjk

hmmz...
basically i'm so energetic right now, i had to post something to cover for yesterday
koz i punk'd Chingy with the Times Square being blown up thingy.
hahahaha.
thanks Sarah for the idea.
sorry Ching for being the victim. who ask you online at FB. hahaha.
and i was bored.
hehehe...

okay... not much hoo haas.
owh, i recieved a weird sms. =. =
wat.da.heck.
lol.

k den. i shall take my leave...
KFC! it's Finger Lickin GOOOD~~
hahaha.

- you are just not worth fighting with online

2009-03-31T20:42:00.006+08:00

Whoever appeals to the law against his fellow man, is either a fool or a coward.
Whoever cannot take care of themselves without that law, is both.
for a wounded man shall say to his assailant
"If I die, you are forgiven; If i live, I Will Kill You"
... such, is the rule of honor.
- Lamb of God; Omerta

hey! it's post ke-100!
hahaha.
took me long enuf.
but looks like i'm posting more and more now. hehe

THANK YOU FAITHFUL RELIGIOUS READERS THAT READ MY BLOG POST!!

haha. i know sometimes it's boring, sometimes it's interesting.

okok once again, this blog contains explicit contents, P A R E N T A L Advisory. hahaha.

hmm...
feeling.damn.messed.up.recently
things just happen so fast wey.
It's like March edi.
sigh... time time time took a toll on me.
everyone else have been.
i've been had. and had again.
who could possibly know what the future holds?
based on my faith, i pray the storm would soon be over.

like these boats lost in the middle of the rain?

school's been hectic. assignment after assignment.
boring classes after boring classes.
just gotta hold on for 2 more months man. then i'm out of this place.
out of this country maybe.
out of this life.
hahahaha. awesome.

yeah man, why should i bother about
about the things that only drags me down;
about people who don't care;
about not being appreciated.
because i know it's better to have one good, than one extra bad.
you don't need a reason to help others.
all you need is faith, and a smile.

haha.
so just forgive and forget, tmr is a new day. start new.
yeah?

this is what you've taught me.
i will keep it in mind forever,
thanks for changing my life.

hope everyone learned something new too
=]
it's not easy to be in this world.
sometimes, i think that we are all just an accident,
chemicals and particles colliding with each other;
accidentally creating and evolving into life.
Life, is nothing but a chain of accidents.

haha. okay. so what's been going on...
well basically this is post ke-100. so i wanna make it slightly...
special.
hahaha.
mix of what is in my head, and what's been going on.

well okay, what's major that happened recently is that ASHWIN got hurt.
lol
well can't discuss it here due to some P&C treaty i've signed.
but come ask me. i might tell you. hahaha.
ok.
hope he's recovering fast. and healing fast.

what else is that the problems that some of my friends were having are being solved one by one.
happy for them. =]
and...
i think i've solved my own too. haha.

then...
lots of homework lorh...
like tonnes.
from Chem, to CS to Maths to Physics to English.
i'm drowned in them all.
cant finish them all in time.
esp moral.
lol. still dragged.

hmm... Topic Tests are falling down on me like rocks now.
trying to do the best i can.
i need to hit my TARGET! haha.

okok. finally, please pray for the unfortunate people,
for the people who are facing problems,
and the people who needs help from prayers.
whether you are Bhuddist, Christian, Islam or whatever other religion there is in this world. hahaha

if you're sweet enough, pray for me too! hahaha
perasan jer...

to WaiLing aka my Sis/Mum/Auntie hahaha
hope your Pops get better real real soon.
may God be with him and bless him.
=]

and lastly...

if you think that you want to live in a world where there's only good;
where there is nice people all around you;
where things are always blissful and happy, i will not stop you.
but if one day, you decide to come back into reality;
come back to the harsh and cruel world;
come back to things that need to be solved and taken care of, i will be there to protect you.

ciao peeps!
jya na

- i love her because she is ugly

2009-03-28T19:05:00.002+08:00

haha.
earth hour earth hour.
it's okay if you don't turn off your lights from 2030 till 2130.
WHY?!
cause...
if you're going to turn it off from 2330 till 0930 the next morning.
it'd be so much better now wudden it?
hahahaha.

anyways. it's just an awareness thingy.
i'm sure everybody in this world is aware of it,
it's just a matter of showing that you know and proving that you know.
don't force yourself to off your lights and use candles to study for 1hr.
it's crazy. lol.
unless you plan to have a romantic bath with yourself/your partner.
a candlelight dinner.
or because you didn't pay the bills and your power is cut off.
then... feel free to do so.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

go watch KNOWING.
it's AWESHOME!!!
srs.

be back soon. ciao peeps.
EARTH HOUR!

- was i born to be a screw up?

2009-03-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

lol.
i screwed up 50% of my performance.
i felt so shitty but slightly better when pple come to me and said it was nice.
but i didn't feel it was nice at all.

colin knows,
i know,
some other pple know too.

cause i cud have done so much better.
but i don't need to explain why i screwed up.
cause it ain't explainable...
there's just no excuse.

i'm tired,
i wanna sleep now,
oyasumi.

- katy perry has some awesome songs. lol!

2009-03-25T21:39:00.004+08:00

mucho gracias.
i know i've been lazy.
but i'm sorry i can't help it.

HELL NO!! another assignment and i'll die!!
PHYSICS!
why?!?!?!?!?!??!
lol.
actually sounds quite fun la. but i feel like i have no time wey!
cause i've been sleeping damn early. waking up to another school day.
weekends just jam packed.
macam mana nih!! haha.

siao liao lah i tell you lah.
wanna be cina beng edi...
nono cannot. lol

okay. so this friday is the freaking fresh-y night.
and i'm suppose to sing?
but i don't feel like singing anymore........
but i still have to sing.
=. =

hmmz... i'll be out teaching col his stupid brain how to do CS for tmr now,
i think i'll just update bitss and pieces.
lol.
cause i know got pple reading edi!! hahaha.
no lah...
just cause i scared i forget what i wanna say the next time.
heeee...
and i think won't have much time to blog long long next time.
so sikit sikit, lama jadi bukit.

dan mungkin bila nanti...
kita kan bertemu lagi...
my moral teacher liked it when i sang this
haha.
ciao

- please replace the "c" with a "k"

2009-03-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

cause K is kooler than C. hahaha
lol.
pple with K as their Initials! BE PROUD! cause we're KOOL!
Mat Kool! hahahahahaha.

hey!
guess what. i think i might pick up some classes to be a Radio DJ! lol
cause i know i need to learn how to talk more to pple.
so... THIS MIGHT ACTUALLY HELP!

argh! FRIDAY!
damn malas wanna perform edi.
my mates won't be ard.
but i'm kinda cool with the noobies now.
haha.
although they are still annoying to me.
srsly. but i'm getting used to it. they seem fine/better now. haha

jeez. just one year diff and we have generation gap edi.
kinda cacat.
hmm... i'm kinda suppose to do my english assignment now,
but,
as usual, i'm lazy.
i just think studying ain't my thing u know?
i've thought of dropping out of school and start some job or career in something.
like dunno how many hundred times edi.
but i know my parents would FLIP!
i'm doing it for the sake of them i guess...
jeezzz...

i hate it when pple assume i'm smart?
cause I AM A DUMBASS man... srsly....
ask me anything, and i'll have to look thru the books to give you an ans.
else i'll just crap stuff to you.
haha.

eeeesh.
this week got so many deadlines.
CS practical... Moral Assignment...
English... Maths...
OMG! GIVE ME A BREAK MAN!
break is two freaking months away... =. =
gotta work towards it!
else i'll be skinned alive.
srs.

ahh.. nothing special up other than this Friday's Freshie Night.
got some rehearsal going on tmr night.
hope i'm up for it.

nothing much to blog abt.
just wanna blog.
don't know why? haha

enjoy. hope i'll have some interesting stuff next blog.
ciao

- peace... and quiet...

2009-03-22T10:55:00.003+08:00

ahhh the serenity.
i know i've been erm... haha. overreacting for quite abit.
lots of factors.

but i love my friends,
they helped alot.
just by being ard them helped alot.

i take back everything i've said.
and, i will change for you. =]
things will never be the same again...

haha.
ahh.. life...
i think i'll die for tmr's chem exam.
ORGANIC CHEMISTRY IS A CRAZY SUBJECT TO TAKE!

"what a beautiful mess... this is....~~"
PERFORMANCE!
CB! COLIN BRANDON! haha. idiot backing out on me.
i want to kill him

- awesome quick quiz from Adrian

2009-03-21T14:43:00.002+08:00

hey...
got something to share

me taken a quiz.
it sounds so chun. lol.
i wonder how pple come up with this stuff.
or they do this which make you believe it is you? hahaha
idk
but it feels... hmm... haha.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

go try for yourself and post them up in your blogs!
haha. IT's A TAG!
to anyone who is interested to find out
CLICK ON THIS! to go try it out!

laterz!

- open opportunities, open doors, open heart

2009-03-20T14:28:00.004+08:00

haha,
whaddap?!

today, is a very good day. haha
went to school for only one classs!!! woooweee!
awesome man.
okay den erm.. haha. den now bored lo.
dunno what to do. wey!
after makan jer.
haha

so... that explains why i am here.

anyone wanna lepak pls cari me!
i'll fetch you! lol.
not your ahmad tho.
just i can fetch you. haha.

hmmz... k la. come back later after i'm done with the day.
stay tuned!

-----

part 2! lol
erm.. kinda just got back.
haha. it's like 3.16am now!
wtf?
woken up by ash and col and dickson at abt 9 plus
den we went out to yumcha.
met up with danbob.
den went to uncle Leslie's CC to have a game of L4D.
it's been like 5 years since i stepped into a CC. haha
this one's nice. koz they all have 22 inch monitors and it's not dark and smelly. hahaha
it's in Perling... lol.

in the morning...
i had a sudden burst of adrenaline.
hmm, i guess, not being appreciated got the better of me.
sometimes, it's better to just eff the stupid feelings you have for pple.
haha.

a relationship is a responsibility, not based only on the feelings you have for another person.

based on that, i think i've already done enough of my part.
you need both hands to clap
you can't always do things according to your feelings,
because feelings do fade away sometimes.
you gotta consider what responsibilities you are holding when getting into stuff like that u know?
well, having experiencing it so many times,
i guess i only want this to be the last?
or... i hope it will be the last.
just go for real, mature people next time. haha!

haha.
haih... i'm an idiot.
what's the use to suppress all the emoness
and when night comes and you have nothing left to keep your mind away from it,
you break it out and it hits you twice as hard.
so,
i've gotten rid of it.
but it seems like the roots are still intact.
~~dig deeper?~~
lol.

~~what.am.i.to.do.with.the.tickets.now?~~

ciao peeps. =]

- it's not what you think, it's just infatuation

2009-03-19T17:58:00.007+08:00

your actions show that you are just afraid,
your so called friends, teased you with words,
when you where at the edge of falling,
you don't want to feel left out, you choose the easy way out.
you let in a person, who you barely know. yet you think you are in love.

you left the past one alone, suffering from what you have earned.
it's easy for you to go along with another,
because you are just like all the other,
immature, childish and running away for some cover.
you would rather be a flirt, than to commit to something
where you think you might get hurt.

is it really love? or are you just infatuated.
by another who hasn't gave you hurt?
you are locked in the illusions, of thinking that someone else,
is the one you are in love,
when the real true love, was the one you left
undertaking all that hurt.

think of what you have really done,
before a new page has begun.
think of what you have really felt,
before more pain, you will be dealt.
to solve a relationship, is not by ending it and looking for another.
but to find closure for both, and still love one another.

=] i hope this will bring many people some closure,
and to work out your problems,
instead of sentencing it,

as a dead end.

i guess sometimes, you just have to wait for the storm to be over.
before you can see true light upon the skies.
i wish you only the best. if you think that it's right.

-----

SHIT! didn't see no HOT chicks at all in this new intakes.
Aaaarrggh... boring sem again i guess...
hahaha.
just kidding.
i'm ending my semester and graduating soon!! wahahahahaha. awesome!
malas to blog right now.
so... LATERZ peeps!

[BACK!]
lol...
okay... now i'm free. not.
anyways.
i feel awful for me, myself, and my friends.
haha.
ok well it's just me and colin.
freaking lame shit.

i hate those buzzers
they buzz too much. can't they just live their own lives?
can't they just buzz off?
they make other pple's life miserable without thinking of the 2nd party...

if you don't know what is really going on, please don't infatuate your friends.
please do think abt the other party.
please, grow up.

anyways... there's a whole line up of topic tests and quiz coming up!
and Freshie Night don't seem to hold any hopes.
lol.

okay. i'm back to my malas mood now. if anything, i'll come back. haha. ciao!

infatuations don't last... google it! haha. i'm sure u can find what it means.

- it's more than what meets the eye

2009-03-15T21:36:00.006+08:00

hello ya'll
ain't getting much pple reading or talking ard here recently ey?
wonder where everyone went. except for Karyn who frequently have something to say here.
haha.
guess the others are too busy with life.

hmm
where's my life...

it's in my hands! haha. ok i'm huggin mah guitar now and my pencil is in my left and right palm.
i've been using my left hand to write for sometime.
kinda... a lil thing i do for some reasons.
lol.

anyways. what i mean is my music and studies.

i d k man.. shud i pursue music as my career? things aren't really falling in place right now at the moment.
recording have been failing numerous times.
still learning how to perfect the sound engineering part.
any help?
it's very welcomed.

sheetz! school starts tmr.
again. with one whole big line up of topic tests.

hmm went to singapore yesterday!
walked ard orchard rd.
long time since i last been there.
Far East Plaza hasn't change much
to Rachel: your Crumpler is in Wheelock. i think. the shopping center with the glass cone thingy outside. u can see it right outside the MRT station.

got my 1TB hard drive! lol.
time to transfer all my backup files there.
it's called the SAFE Disk now. haha
and i got mah TICKETS!

they are still for you. =]

owh. They extended an Extra day for the concert cause it's too fully BOOKED! haha
i guess pple from all around the world are flocking to SG to watch the orchestra.
it's by the Legendary Nobuo Uematsu. the Master of New Age Classical Music.
as titled by me lah. haha. i just love his music.
not just caused it's from the world's most aweshomest game! but the music itself.

do do dooo~~ do do dooo~~~
well you done done me and you bet i felt it.
~~~~
anyways. have u guys heard Jason Mraz live in Korea? go watch in YouTube.
haha. great performance wey.
srs.

owh. and i'm performing too! on the 27th of March.
come watch if u can get the tickets! haha. it's my school's freshie/prom night.
so yeah. get em from the SSD in Sunway or ask me to help u get if u want. by this week.
i try to get it. haha. koz i think tickets are going to be sold out soon.
RM10 i think. if u come with me... as my date... maybe free.. hahaha.
jkjk
see how lah.

anyways...
life's too short to hold grudges.
a friend once told me.
and another friend also once told me.
"what are the chances you get a second chance in life?"
haha. or something like that.
come to think of it. yeah. maybe for what i've lived thru, it's meant by god for me not to have second chances.
i've never really had one. not till even now.
if you get them. appreciate it to the fullest.
i'm hoping to get my first, second chance.
cause i really don't know how it feels do re-write something
something important to me.
so damn important that i risk anything and everything for it.
it feels like it's slipping away right now.
or maybe it's already slipped away.

but whatever the odds. i know some how if it's true, it'll be right there waiting too.

so... wish me luck? haha.

hmmz...
what else...
i'm stuck. so i think i stop here now. thanks to karyn la. suddenly "msn incoming msg sound"

haha.
see ya'll next time!

what ever his name is
where ever he is from
you are who you are.
say selfish,
i just don't want to let uncertainties,
or some other person
make you smile when i know i can do it myself.

immaturity. screw it.
i've moved on. but have you?

- the raging hell of the nine tailed demon fox

2009-03-12T08:38:00.005+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
how nice to see you.
i have a point and stand to make here.

GUYS: I'm sure all of you have heard girls saying "omg... good guys in this world are coming to a point of extinction" bla bla bla. am i right?

Hell yeah i'm right.
BUT! have any of you ever thought the other way round?
good guys are everywhere!
EVERYWHERE! in fact i can give you SHITLOADS OF EXAMPLE WHO THEY ARE!
WITH NAMES! [AMERICANS NOT INCLUDED: I"M SORRY NOT RACIST or ANYTHING but CHRIS BROWN TOOK YA'LL IMAGE DOWN] ( and so did Rhianna)
GOOD GUYS THAT I KNOW:
1. TYRONE TANG XI
this idiot is such a nice guy, girls bully him. but hell, go get to know him la. you'll fall in love with this idiot naive boy.
2. Colin Chia
this fucker. cacat. idiotic. lame. cares only for himself AND his girlfriend. he's a good guy. but not a good friend. but he treats his girlfriend like diamond and gold. and seriously. if you get to know him. He's a bloody nice friend. but people just judge him because he smokes, he drinks and he's not that good of an academic student.
3. Nicholas Cheah
wah lao eh. this shitty bastard. he another loyal to gf type. pple think he playboy. but NO! HELL NO!
his attitude may be fucked up. but what the hell? pple are not perfect. NOT PERFECT.
HE's STILL A BLOODY GOOD Guy to be ard with.
4. Teh Kai Hong
this fella too good i tell u. TOO GOOD. sometimes he's lame. but he's tooooo good.
see how he treat his gf la. see how he treat pple la. you may not be able to find him anytime anywhere. but this fella is a real friend when you need him.
5. Diong
another devoted son of a bitch.
sticks to his gf like glue.
afraid he'll loose her if he don't.
does everything and anything for her.
6. Darren Tan
this asshole. this tall MF. this lol. HE may be fooling around. but HE cares for the girl he loves so much that he would sacrifice his sleep and energy anytime. and we all know this idiot needs his sleep. else he'll be so annoying and also very very impatient. he was once an asshole. but look at him now wey. ask his gf how good is he to her la. ASK!
7. Mark Kee
he is also another good guy lo. just that u have to know where the hell he's good at. get to know that fella. and you'll find out.

of course i can go on forever with the pple i know.
i'm sure there's something in every guy that is worth.

but! then!

GIRLS: "ALL GOOD GUYS ARE EXTINCT!!!"

FUCK YOU! HELL NO!
have any of you thought that it was YOU that is the problem?
huh?
i see so many women now. say la guys not treating them good. but padahal, they the ones scandaling.
the guys are the one devoted.
wah.... you pple can scandal all you want and say "he's just a friend"
you know how a guy feels not?
and when a guy talks to some hot chick. the girl will go "who is she? your scandal rite? break up!"
WTF man?
what happen to the values of humanity?
what happen to the fairness and equality?
where's the truth?
i don't know.
where's the love?
i don't know.

i don't have to point or even say names. koz those pple know who they are lo.
yes if i have to spell it out for you.
it's equals to the opposites of the pple above you've read.

it's not that the good guys are being extinct.
it's the good guys being bullied by women who scandals and flirts so much that they missed their eyes on who is good and who is bad.
Women now only see:
MONEY
STATUS
LOOKS
WALLET
HOUSE

materialistic betul.
CONFIRM all the girls who are reading this. will go against what i'm saying.
CONFIRM ALL!
i tell you. search your souls.
deep down. you are.....

Good Guys Finish Last. that's the old saying.
and it's true.
girls drama. put words into good guys mouth.
pple make peace. they make war.
that's what the world is changing to today.
open your eyes and see.

THANKS TO THE FREAKING MEDIA.
THEY MINDFUCKED EVERY GIRL'S MIND by showing bad guys and good girls.
sorry. i mean "GOOD Girls"

agree or disagree.
your pasal.

- it's not enough just by saying thank you

2009-03-01T00:01:00.006+08:00

KONICHIWAA!
haven't been cakap jepun in awhile.
how's everyone?
haha.
ok i know i took long enuf to post abt my day at TGIF.
well cause. STONE. and erm... haha. STONE.
now i'm sober and ready. haha

27th of Feb.
the day a very cacat fella was bored.
then again. he's not that cacat.
haha.
invited a few group of people who have been there with me thru think and thin for the past few years.
and people who just knew me and i think is worth inviting. wah... sound so grand. anyways.
with no special order what-so-ever:

Adrian
Ash
Lincoln
Colin
Wai Ling
Victor
ShanLi
Pui Ling
Joanne
Karyn
Hui En
Lawrence
Fiona
Sarah
Tyrone
Nicky
YuJia
Kui Ying
Karen

hahahaha.
we came. we sang. we laughed.

This is The FAN-TAS-TIK Four.
yes.. FAN TAS TIK.

den victor masuk. hahaha COLIN SHUD STOP EATING!
lol.
classic this one.

Not to forget

em cute lil scout jr. of mine... so shweet.
hahaha. Ryn, Hui En and Lawrence.

aww.. look who came too!
Joanne.
ok well she tengah sesat koz....
thattimeitengahhighwannainviteppledenijustcalleveryoneiknowonlywhichd
entada!calledu.
anyways. hahaha.
awesome that u came =]
even tho 70% of the time u were texting =. =
hope u enjoyed the food and booze. =X
i'm so bad... teach u to drink. hahaha.
haha.

and the all time all stars since Secondary 1.
the SMKST gang. hahaha.

we reached there. abt 7.35pm.
went in. sat there.
tried to like... clear the air of sesatness.. and in the end we all started talking.
haha. well.
then came the cake.

which colin chose. =. = very cute... haha
but it was good.

here comes the part where i have to stand on the chair and do stupid stuff
which was kinda awesome

singing I'm Your's by JMraz.

being PUNK'D
[i knew what was coming]

PIAK!
kena gao gao.
the fella look like snoop dawg man. haha the black dood.
but he smack my face macam the plate made of paper
which FYI is not
MY NOSE HURTS!
hahahah. but it was cool.

Partied out late. ok not so late.
den went home.
Colin not feeling good.
waited out at my place.
then went to mamak haha. at abt 1am 2.

after that was so stone and tired for like 2days.

overall. it was an awesome 19th bday. =]
Sarah, Chong, Nick, Tyrong, Adrian, Karen, Yu Jia: Thanks for the Pen! and the Card! haha. which i think it's yujia's idea. haha. awesome pen! i'll use it to sign autographs next time. =P
Karyn, Hui En, Lawrence, ShanLi, Pui Ling, Mouse, Rachel, Kim: Thanks for the Calculator Baju! haha. and the CARD was erm... hahahahha. lame! but sweet. =]
Joanne: no worries for the present. haha glad you were there at the party. =] things might b diff w/o u there.
Ash, Colin, Wai Ling, Victor, Lincoln: you guys know what u did. haha. and i'm really greatful for all that's been done. the Cake, the Booking, coming and having a great time.

THANKS GUYS!
wished that night didn't had to end.

- indecent mind and bad breath. talk abt friends...

2009-02-22T13:49:00.006+08:00

yellow!
haha
yellow is the new hello.

okay... this is absurd, 5topic test and one presentation
IN A BLEEDY WEEK!?
what the hell do you think i am?

SHIT!
i ain't going to score well in all of em, i just know it.
esp maths, gawn i hate that subject.
srsly!
shit man.
and now i have to do slides for my english presentation.
SLIDES!
where did you get that idea from?

i'm in the world of complain right now FYI.
yes, complaining till my heart pops out and i die.
=. =

jeeezeees
anyways. i got some pictures i wanna dedicate to.
first of, TEH KAI HONG's memory flashback picture.

i hope he sees this. hahaha.
didn't went all the way there for nothing man.
i do care for my friends. hahahaha.
this will be a laugh when i see the look on his face.
the gate he says he's never going to walk back in ever again
after he went out of there.

well on the roads towards that place. i was freaking out
wondering if i missed the turn or not, cause trust me
the u-turn u have to find. is really hard to get

i see the light when this popped out!
lol

anyways. i was over joyed actually. srsly. hahaha

DARREN went back to NZ edi

this was the last memento we created
we call it, MR Onion.
it's pronounced On-nion
haha.
during the farewell dinner we had.
i have the video. which is uberly lame and all.
you might sleep wathing it. but haha. who cares.

hmm... if you're wondering what the hell this is,
it's kids that came to our school for some "sukantara" thingy.
damn they are so KIUT!
shit!
AARGH.
lol.
i only got to take this pic cause when i finished class, they disappeared. ok went home.
lol.

ok... cutting all the

i hate being in this world at this point of time.
lol.
why?
cause shit ain't going straight.

talk abt friends,
i guess i'll really never find a true "companion" lol
or buddy
whatever u wanna call them.
people who'll stick out for u when u are in shit.
people who save your ass after you save theirs.
grateful pple u know?

damn. what's the use of friends when they just run away from u when u need their help.
and come sobbing at you when they need yours.
i say. SCREW YOU ALL.

shit's on me.
but i ain't gonna take it all.
i have my limits too.

don't make me go all KENNETH on you

cause you ain't gonna like that.
trust me.
you ain't gonna like it.

so now, F the world,
i know who i can trust, and who i can share shit with.
for now, it's no one.
nadda.
and i love it that way.
so don't ask me what's wrong.
cause i'll freaking tear your ass apart.

to hell with you butt cracks and female dogs.

- everything changes but i don't want to

2009-02-14T19:10:00.004+08:00

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
the closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
'cuz the wounds never heal

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
through this part of the day

Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
It's more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
It wouldn't matter anyway.
It wouldn't change how you feel

Staind - Everything Changes

-----

Harrow!
Happy Valentine's People that are reading my blog!
Yes. The Day where every couple would roam the streets like mass Zombies...
the day... that from 12noon till 12midnight...
only HOME is safe for the ones titled - SINGLE.

xD

okay. sheet... dun feel like talking abt today yet. shall talk abt it.
TMR! haha. or when i feel like doing so. =]

aitez... apparently. i am stuck at home too.
"Stuck"
haha.

so... how did u guys celebrate your Valentines?

for me. it's SLEEP! from 12noon till 6! hahaha.

reason?

you'll know... soon.
or not.

i'm kinda lazy to upload pics.
and just blogging to press on the date.
haha.
14th FEB.
OH YA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUS JEE! haha.

He's tha NS friend of mine who is in ROMANIA now
who apparently has TEACHER COMPLEX!
all the lecturers like him there.
WOMAN one
well what to do.
borned on Valentine's
hahahaha. He's known to me as a CASANOVA. but he love his GF alot.
sweet guy,

DAMN today brought back lots of NS memories.

again.
haha. tmr la.

sienz.
i'm still waiting...
wait wait wait wait... all i can do is wait.
everyday. Lord the Father Almighty, Jesus His son, and the Holy Spirits, fate, the devil.
they test my patience
and everything else that they are testing me.

when can i pass this test wey?

damn.
i'll be back.
ciao!

i hope you get it in time today.
it's so important to me that you do.
because it would decide what i would do.
or, not.
happy valentine's day.
xoxo

- why am i standing here with a fake smile

2009-02-05T18:21:00.009+08:00

yoo hoo peeps.
yeap.
i know. i'm finally writing again.
hahaha.
shit.
so many things went by, SCHOOL, CNY, SCHOOL...
ok fine. just one things went by.
lol.

gosh i'm tired.
what's up is school's starting to suck.
i d k why.
u shud see my timetable.
den i think you'll understand.

i have a thought. about me and studying.
feel like i ain't build to study.
lol.

hmm...
lets let picture speak i guess.
yeah...
hahaha

January 18th - Dad and Bro's Birthday.
hahaha Look at the smile on Jarvis' face wey.

here's one when he received his b'day present from Me and Kim
owh wait...
hahaha.
after he opened it...
.
.
.

POSER! hahaha
he was overjoyed.
asked me to immediately cut it open so he can play

during CNY i got myself a new toy.
hahaha.
cool toy.
it's a Recon NERF Gun

Jarvis did this just so that he can manja me let him play it.
i d k why but it's so lamely cute.

Okay, Interlude. LOL
my PHONE CAMERA SUCKS!
EVEN THO IT's 3.2mpx.
IT SUCKS!

this was in Wh. with Colin and Yaw Siang.
well... we were bored.
so yeah.

ah... oh yes. i cut BOTAK! lol. okay i think everyone knows that by now.
cool SHADES huh... but ain't mine. haha.

do u know what happens when a dog gets stuck in a cone?
hahaha.
it's damn cute.

KYLIE!
hahaha. yeah. she got into a horrible accident.
koz she ran out from the house.
darn. i shud have dragged her back in.
but i thought she'd go back in eventually.
didn't know it'd turn out like that.

this is random.
the road back towards home from school.

hahaha. so basically life's ain't much to talk abt.
school sucks.
everyday i say

koz i dun feel awake in school.
try to get hyper.
but. not working.
Friends ain't looking good.
had lots of misunderstandings and touble during the hols.
i feel...
i d k.
just hang in there i guess.

that's what i do now. haha
for everything.
koz too much NEGATIVITY in life nowadays.

for other times
i turn to

HAYLEY! lol.
koz she's the coolest ROCKER Chick i know.
haha. admire her voice.

then. at other times...

is what i feel
to

this ugly lil duckling.
haha.
damn i regret so many stuff.
but now you ain't here. and i'm feeling it.
lol.

well glad tho. that we managed to sort things out
during CNY.
for the whole moment we were talking.
i just felt better after.
but it had to be the last day you're back.
now you're in there again.
and i'll have to wait again.

gosh. school ain't really helping to pass time tho.
but now. it's less than 5 weeks till you're back.

ain't long, but ain't short either.
hope things go well for ya in NS.
tho u don't call back. cause of ur "credit" problem.
haha.

jeez. why the emo-ness.
haha.
Why... So Serious?

this guy's my idol

so anyways.

back to erm... life.
it's been going. up. and. down.
mostly down.
cause school really sucks.
dun ask why.
i just dun feel motivated anymore.
koz i dun feel like i'm fit to study.
i wanna be practical.
i wanna do stuff..
but. i ain't doing nothing.

today's mum's birthday!
happy birthday mum!

life's a living hell.
for the time being. i hope.

alrighty den.
smell ya'll laterz
ciao

- just another piece of my mind

2009-01-12T15:50:00.002+08:00

an unexplainable silence falls on me;
you walked out of that door and not turn to me;
is this the way you want to reject my presence to be.
disrupted is your image inside of me;
the luster in your eyes seize to be;
if this is the way you want to stray from reality;
i'll take back what's mine tonight.

-----

good day people,
guess what!?
Classes were canceled today due to power failure in the college.
where everyone is abt dying due to the lost of air conditioners.
and i am the only one that is not complaining, cause i don't need one to live.
hahaha. how good is that?!
practically everyone was sweating and uncomfortable.
but i am cool and fine with just the wind blowing.
Miss Wong came into Chem class and said: "GOOD NEWS!"
"class canceled from 2.30pm onwards!"
hahaha. ok. fine it's good news la. but the lucky it's ME and Maths class. so i dun mind. xD

so thus, i have some free time to blog.
lol.
rite. lets see...
can't remember much before the 9th. so i'll start there.

9th January
DARREN's Birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUNDEK!
lol.
brought Pork to bbq.
They LOVED it.
Had a hard time cleaning up the Mess with the BBQ pit. but was worth it.
had a great time.
Knocked off class and went straight over to Tmn Suria for the birthday bash.
ain't exactly a bash. but yeah u get what i mean.
practically tired. and can't wait for the weekends.

10th January.
MinJun's birthday.
wasn't invited to anything tho...
So... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MinJun!
haha.
well... haven't met her for a long time.
hope u happen to read this.
hmm... kinda disappointing day.
due to stupid reasons. which i shall not further discuss.
well, other than that. went to church with colin
and then Dinner with his family.
den went to watch a freaking waste of Money and Time movie
[0 REC] lol. aka [QUARANTINE]
it's SPANISH! i didn't know that.
It's a Cloverfield style Motion Sickness movie. i wonder how Melissa and Colin manage to not feel like Puking
as for me. half of the time of the show. i was busy controlling myself not to puke.
they two was just plain being Shocked all the time. lol
Wai Ling felt a lil uneasy for awhile.
but i was the worst of em
Totally Feel SICK after the movie. not cause of the movie. but the motion sickness.
Movies like that shudden even exist.
damn it.
well it's abt this sickness or disease that turns pple into zombies.
hmm.. lots of the same kind of movies are coming out. all started from I am Legend.
well that show was nice.
but this. PLEASE....

owh abt the Theory of 2012. is like the basis of these movies being produce.
hmm... i wonder.
haha Go Google 2012 then you'll know what i'm talking abt.
it's a conspiracy. which is kinda turning into reality.
dun wanna discuss that here for the moment.
Interested? go Search it up urself.
let me know what u think if u wanna share.

alritey.
11th January
Basketball in the morning.
I feel like i've improved alot.
maybe cause i've been watching NBA more often
nice exercise.
i can pWn any ameture Tall Ass Basketball player.
least that's what i feel. hahaha
BUT! disappointment comes when, i dun feel taller =. =
darn it.
anyways. was kinda happy in the morning during basketball.
wasn't emo. well maybe alil before 9am. but after that i was okay.
den comes a small disappointment in the afternoon.
talk abt karma ey?
idk...
still. dun wanna talk abt it.
maybe it's just me. thinking too much u know?

12th January.
Basically today.
Colin's weird again.
my network of friend's even weirder.
i d k who to trust anymore.
i feel kinda confused on what's going on.
i just need a break from all these.
damn it.
well where am i to complaing but here. hahaha.
the Power got Cut Off during CS class in the morning.
everyone was suffering and i wasn't.
well i was suffering when all the air-conds were working.
lol. again, Karma.
i really can just live w/o air cond.
i feel cooling now. and i'm sure there's billions of pple out there complaining that this weather is hot.
=. =
fyi peeps. it's cause of your Air-Cond that's making u feel this way.
bah!
enuf crapping.

i shall get on with life now.
see you next time i blog.
ciao