- it's more than what meets the eye

hello ya'll
ain't getting much pple reading or talking ard here recently ey?
wonder where everyone went. except for Karyn who frequently have something to say here.
haha.
guess the others are too busy with life.

hmm
where's my life...

it's in my hands! haha. ok i'm huggin mah guitar now and my pencil is in my left and right palm.
i've been using my left hand to write for sometime.
kinda... a lil thing i do for some reasons.
lol.

anyways. what i mean is my music and studies.

i d k man.. shud i pursue music as my career? things aren't really falling in place right now at the moment.
recording have been failing numerous times.
still learning how to perfect the sound engineering part.
any help?
it's very welcomed.

sheetz! school starts tmr.
again. with one whole big line up of topic tests.


hmm went to singapore yesterday!
walked ard orchard rd.
long time since i last been there.
Far East Plaza hasn't change much
to Rachel: your Crumpler is in Wheelock. i think. the shopping center with the glass cone thingy outside. u can see it right outside the MRT station.

got my 1TB hard drive! lol.
time to transfer all my backup files there.
it's called the SAFE Disk now. haha
and i got mah TICKETS!

they are still for you. =]

owh. They extended an Extra day for the concert cause it's too fully BOOKED! haha
i guess pple from all around the world are flocking to SG to watch the orchestra.
it's by the Legendary Nobuo Uematsu. the Master of New Age Classical Music.
as titled by me lah. haha. i just love his music.
not just caused it's from the world's most aweshomest game! but the music itself.


do do dooo~~ do do dooo~~~
well you done done me and you bet i felt it.
~~~~
anyways. have u guys heard Jason Mraz live in Korea? go watch in YouTube.
haha. great performance wey.
srs.

owh. and i'm performing too! on the 27th of March.
come watch if u can get the tickets! haha. it's my school's freshie/prom night.
so yeah. get em from the SSD in Sunway or ask me to help u get if u want. by this week.
i try to get it. haha. koz i think tickets are going to be sold out soon.
RM10 i think. if u come with me... as my date... maybe free.. hahaha.
jkjk
see how lah.

anyways...
life's too short to hold grudges.
a friend once told me.
and another friend also once told me.
"what are the chances you get a second chance in life?"
haha. or something like that.
come to think of it. yeah. maybe for what i've lived thru, it's meant by god for me not to have second chances.
i've never really had one. not till even now.
if you get them. appreciate it to the fullest.
i'm hoping to get my first, second chance.
cause i really don't know how it feels do re-write something
something important to me.
so damn important that i risk anything and everything for it.
it feels like it's slipping away right now.
or maybe it's already slipped away.


but whatever the odds. i know some how if it's true, it'll be right there waiting too.

so... wish me luck? haha.

hmmz...
what else...
i'm stuck. so i think i stop here now. thanks to karyn la. suddenly "msn incoming msg sound"

haha.
see ya'll next time!

what ever his name is
where ever he is from
you are who you are.
say selfish,
i just don't want to let uncertainties,
or some other person
make you smile when i know i can do it myself.

immaturity. screw it.
i've moved on. but have you?

- the raging hell of the nine tailed demon fox

HELLO EVERYONE!
how nice to see you.
i have a point and stand to make here.

GUYS: I'm sure all of you have heard girls saying "omg... good guys in this world are coming to a point of extinction" bla bla bla. am i right?

Hell yeah i'm right.
BUT! have any of you ever thought the other way round?
good guys are everywhere!
EVERYWHERE! in fact i can give you SHITLOADS OF EXAMPLE WHO THEY ARE!
WITH NAMES! [AMERICANS NOT INCLUDED: I"M SORRY NOT RACIST or ANYTHING but CHRIS BROWN TOOK YA'LL IMAGE DOWN] ( and so did Rhianna)
GOOD GUYS THAT I KNOW:
1. TYRONE TANG XI
this idiot is such a nice guy, girls bully him. but hell, go get to know him la. you'll fall in love with this idiot naive boy.
2. Colin Chia
this fucker. cacat. idiotic. lame. cares only for himself AND his girlfriend. he's a good guy. but not a good friend. but he treats his girlfriend like diamond and gold. and seriously. if you get to know him. He's a bloody nice friend. but people just judge him because he smokes, he drinks and he's not that good of an academic student.
3. Nicholas Cheah
wah lao eh. this shitty bastard. he another loyal to gf type. pple think he playboy. but NO! HELL NO!
his attitude may be fucked up. but what the hell? pple are not perfect. NOT PERFECT.
HE's STILL A BLOODY GOOD Guy to be ard with.
4. Teh Kai Hong
this fella too good i tell u. TOO GOOD. sometimes he's lame. but he's tooooo good.
see how he treat his gf la. see how he treat pple la. you may not be able to find him anytime anywhere. but this fella is a real friend when you need him.
5. Diong
another devoted son of a bitch.
sticks to his gf like glue.
afraid he'll loose her if he don't.
does everything and anything for her.
6. Darren Tan
this asshole. this tall MF. this lol. HE may be fooling around. but HE cares for the girl he loves so much that he would sacrifice his sleep and energy anytime. and we all know this idiot needs his sleep. else he'll be so annoying and also very very impatient. he was once an asshole. but look at him now wey. ask his gf how good is he to her la. ASK!
7. Mark Kee
he is also another good guy lo. just that u have to know where the hell he's good at. get to know that fella. and you'll find out.


of course i can go on forever with the pple i know.
i'm sure there's something in every guy that is worth.

but! then!

GIRLS: "ALL GOOD GUYS ARE EXTINCT!!!"

FUCK YOU! HELL NO!
have any of you thought that it was YOU that is the problem?
huh?
i see so many women now. say la guys not treating them good. but padahal, they the ones scandaling.
the guys are the one devoted.
wah.... you pple can scandal all you want and say "he's just a friend"
you know how a guy feels not?
and when a guy talks to some hot chick. the girl will go "who is she? your scandal rite? break up!"
WTF man?
what happen to the values of humanity?
what happen to the fairness and equality?
where's the truth?
i don't know.
where's the love?
i don't know.

i don't have to point or even say names. koz those pple know who they are lo.
yes if i have to spell it out for you.
it's equals to the opposites of the pple above you've read.

it's not that the good guys are being extinct.
it's the good guys being bullied by women who scandals and flirts so much that they missed their eyes on who is good and who is bad.
Women now only see:
MONEY
STATUS
LOOKS
WALLET
HOUSE

materialistic betul.
CONFIRM all the girls who are reading this. will go against what i'm saying.
CONFIRM ALL!
i tell you. search your souls.
deep down. you are.....

Good Guys Finish Last. that's the old saying.
and it's true.
girls drama. put words into good guys mouth.
pple make peace. they make war.
that's what the world is changing to today.
open your eyes and see.

THANKS TO THE FREAKING MEDIA.
THEY MINDFUCKED EVERY GIRL'S MIND by showing bad guys and good girls.
sorry. i mean "GOOD Girls"

agree or disagree.
your pasal.

- it's not enough just by saying thank you

KONICHIWAA!
haven't been cakap jepun in awhile.
how's everyone?
haha.
ok i know i took long enuf to post abt my day at TGIF.
well cause. STONE. and erm... haha. STONE.
now i'm sober and ready. haha

27th of Feb.
the day a very cacat fella was bored.
then again. he's not that cacat.
haha.
invited a few group of people who have been there with me thru think and thin for the past few years.
and people who just knew me and i think is worth inviting. wah... sound so grand. anyways.
with no special order what-so-ever:

Adrian
Ash
Lincoln
Colin
Wai Ling
Victor
ShanLi
Pui Ling
Joanne
Karyn
Hui En
Lawrence
Fiona
Sarah
Tyrone
Nicky
YuJia
Kui Ying
Karen

hahahaha.
we came. we sang. we laughed.

This is The FAN-TAS-TIK Four.
yes.. FAN TAS TIK.

den victor masuk. hahaha COLIN SHUD STOP EATING!
lol.
classic this one.

Not to forget

em cute lil scout jr. of mine... so shweet.
hahaha. Ryn, Hui En and Lawrence.


aww.. look who came too!
Joanne.
ok well she tengah sesat koz....
thattimeitengahhighwannainviteppledenijustcalleveryoneiknowonlywhichd
entada!calledu.
anyways. hahaha.
awesome that u came =]
even tho 70% of the time u were texting =. =
hope u enjoyed the food and booze. =X
i'm so bad... teach u to drink. hahaha.
haha.


and the all time all stars since Secondary 1.
the SMKST gang. hahaha.

we reached there. abt 7.35pm.
went in. sat there.
tried to like... clear the air of sesatness.. and in the end we all started talking.
haha. well.
then came the cake.

which colin chose. =. = very cute... haha
but it was good.

here comes the part where i have to stand on the chair and do stupid stuff
which was kinda awesome

singing I'm Your's by JMraz.

being PUNK'D
[i knew what was coming]

PIAK!
kena gao gao.
the fella look like snoop dawg man. haha the black dood.
but he smack my face macam the plate made of paper
which FYI is not
MY NOSE HURTS!
hahahah. but it was cool.

Partied out late. ok not so late.
den went home.
Colin not feeling good.
waited out at my place.
then went to mamak haha. at abt 1am 2.

after that was so stone and tired for like 2days.

overall. it was an awesome 19th bday. =]
Sarah, Chong, Nick, Tyrong, Adrian, Karen, Yu Jia: Thanks for the Pen! and the Card! haha. which i think it's yujia's idea. haha. awesome pen! i'll use it to sign autographs next time. =P
Karyn, Hui En, Lawrence, ShanLi, Pui Ling, Mouse, Rachel, Kim: Thanks for the Calculator Baju! haha. and the CARD was erm... hahahahha. lame! but sweet. =]
Joanne: no worries for the present. haha glad you were there at the party. =] things might b diff w/o u there.
Ash, Colin, Wai Ling, Victor, Lincoln: you guys know what u did. haha. and i'm really greatful for all that's been done. the Cake, the Booking, coming and having a great time.

THANKS GUYS!
wished that night didn't had to end.

- indecent mind and bad breath. talk abt friends...

yellow!
haha
yellow is the new hello.

okay... this is absurd, 5topic test and one presentation
IN A BLEEDY WEEK!?
what the hell do you think i am?

SHIT!
i ain't going to score well in all of em, i just know it.
esp maths, gawn i hate that subject.
srsly!
shit man.
and now i have to do slides for my english presentation.
SLIDES!
where did you get that idea from?

i'm in the world of complain right now FYI.
yes, complaining till my heart pops out and i die.
=. =

jeeezeees
anyways. i got some pictures i wanna dedicate to.
first of, TEH KAI HONG's memory flashback picture.

i hope he sees this. hahaha.
didn't went all the way there for nothing man.
i do care for my friends. hahahaha.
this will be a laugh when i see the look on his face.
the gate he says he's never going to walk back in ever again
after he went out of there.

well on the roads towards that place. i was freaking out
wondering if i missed the turn or not, cause trust me
the u-turn u have to find. is really hard to get

i see the light when this popped out!
lol

anyways. i was over joyed actually. srsly. hahaha

DARREN went back to NZ edi

this was the last memento we created
we call it, MR Onion.
it's pronounced On-nion
haha.
during the farewell dinner we had.
i have the video. which is uberly lame and all.
you might sleep wathing it. but haha. who cares.



hmm... if you're wondering what the hell this is,
it's kids that came to our school for some "sukantara" thingy.
damn they are so KIUT!
shit!
AARGH.
lol.
i only got to take this pic cause when i finished class, they disappeared. ok went home.
lol.

ok... cutting all the

i hate being in this world at this point of time.
lol.
why?
cause shit ain't going straight.

talk abt friends,
i guess i'll really never find a true "companion" lol
or buddy
whatever u wanna call them.
people who'll stick out for u when u are in shit.
people who save your ass after you save theirs.
grateful pple u know?

damn. what's the use of friends when they just run away from u when u need their help.
and come sobbing at you when they need yours.
i say. SCREW YOU ALL.

shit's on me.
but i ain't gonna take it all.
i have my limits too.

don't make me go all KENNETH on you

cause you ain't gonna like that.
trust me.
you ain't gonna like it.

so now, F the world,
i know who i can trust, and who i can share shit with.
for now, it's no one.
nadda.
and i love it that way.
so don't ask me what's wrong.
cause i'll freaking tear your ass apart.

to hell with you butt cracks and female dogs.

- everything changes but i don't want to

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
the closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
'cuz the wounds never heal

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
through this part of the day

Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
It's more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
It wouldn't matter anyway.
It wouldn't change how you feel

Staind - Everything Changes

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Harrow!
Happy Valentine's People that are reading my blog!
Yes. The Day where every couple would roam the streets like mass Zombies...
the day... that from 12noon till 12midnight...
only HOME is safe for the ones titled - SINGLE.

xD

okay. sheet... dun feel like talking abt today yet. shall talk abt it.
TMR! haha. or when i feel like doing so. =]


aitez... apparently. i am stuck at home too.
"Stuck"
haha.


so... how did u guys celebrate your Valentines?


for me. it's SLEEP! from 12noon till 6! hahaha.

reason?

you'll know... soon.
or not.


i'm kinda lazy to upload pics.
and just blogging to press on the date.
haha.
14th FEB.
OH YA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUS JEE! haha.

He's tha NS friend of mine who is in ROMANIA now
who apparently has TEACHER COMPLEX!
all the lecturers like him there.
WOMAN one
well what to do.
borned on Valentine's
hahahaha. He's known to me as a CASANOVA. but he love his GF alot.
sweet guy,

DAMN today brought back lots of NS memories.

again.
haha. tmr la.

sienz.
i'm still waiting...
wait wait wait wait... all i can do is wait.
everyday. Lord the Father Almighty, Jesus His son, and the Holy Spirits, fate, the devil.
they test my patience
and everything else that they are testing me.

when can i pass this test wey?


damn.
i'll be back.
ciao!

i hope you get it in time today.
it's so important to me that you do.
because it would decide what i would do.
or, not.
happy valentine's day.
xoxo

- why am i standing here with a fake smile

yoo hoo peeps.
yeap.
i know. i'm finally writing again.
hahaha.
shit.
so many things went by, SCHOOL, CNY, SCHOOL...
ok fine. just one things went by.
lol.

gosh i'm tired.
what's up is school's starting to suck.
i d k why.
u shud see my timetable.
den i think you'll understand.

i have a thought. about me and studying.
feel like i ain't build to study.
lol.

hmm...
lets let picture speak i guess.
yeah...
hahaha

January 18th - Dad and Bro's Birthday.
hahaha Look at the smile on Jarvis' face wey.



here's one when he received his b'day present from Me and Kim
owh wait...
hahaha.
after he opened it...
.
.
.

POSER! hahaha
he was overjoyed.
asked me to immediately cut it open so he can play


during CNY i got myself a new toy.
hahaha.
cool toy.
it's a Recon NERF Gun


Jarvis did this just so that he can manja me let him play it.
i d k why but it's so lamely cute.

Okay, Interlude. LOL
my PHONE CAMERA SUCKS!
EVEN THO IT's 3.2mpx.
IT SUCKS!


this was in Wh. with Colin and Yaw Siang.
well... we were bored.
so yeah.


ah... oh yes. i cut BOTAK! lol. okay i think everyone knows that by now.
cool SHADES huh... but ain't mine. haha.

do u know what happens when a dog gets stuck in a cone?
hahaha.
it's damn cute.

KYLIE!
hahaha. yeah. she got into a horrible accident.
koz she ran out from the house.
darn. i shud have dragged her back in.
but i thought she'd go back in eventually.
didn't know it'd turn out like that.


this is random.
the road back towards home from school.

hahaha. so basically life's ain't much to talk abt.
school sucks.
everyday i say

koz i dun feel awake in school.
try to get hyper.
but. not working.
Friends ain't looking good.
had lots of misunderstandings and touble during the hols.
i feel...
i d k.
just hang in there i guess.


that's what i do now. haha
for everything.
koz too much NEGATIVITY in life nowadays.

for other times
i turn to

HAYLEY! lol.
koz she's the coolest ROCKER Chick i know.
haha. admire her voice.

then. at other times...

is what i feel
to

this ugly lil duckling.
haha.
damn i regret so many stuff.
but now you ain't here. and i'm feeling it.
lol.

well glad tho. that we managed to sort things out
during CNY.
for the whole moment we were talking.
i just felt better after.
but it had to be the last day you're back.
now you're in there again.
and i'll have to wait again.


gosh. school ain't really helping to pass time tho.
but now. it's less than 5 weeks till you're back.


ain't long, but ain't short either.
hope things go well for ya in NS.
tho u don't call back. cause of ur "credit" problem.
haha.


jeez. why the emo-ness.
haha.
Why... So Serious?

this guy's my idol

so anyways.

back to erm... life.
it's been going. up. and. down.
mostly down.
cause school really sucks.
dun ask why.
i just dun feel motivated anymore.
koz i dun feel like i'm fit to study.
i wanna be practical.
i wanna do stuff..
but. i ain't doing nothing.

today's mum's birthday!
happy birthday mum!


life's a living hell.
for the time being. i hope.

alrighty den.
smell ya'll laterz
ciao

- just another piece of my mind

an unexplainable silence falls on me;
you walked out of that door and not turn to me;
is this the way you want to reject my presence to be.
disrupted is your image inside of me;
the luster in your eyes seize to be;
if this is the way you want to stray from reality;
i'll take back what's mine tonight.

-----

good day people,
guess what!?
Classes were canceled today due to power failure in the college.
where everyone is abt dying due to the lost of air conditioners.
and i am the only one that is not complaining, cause i don't need one to live.
hahaha. how good is that?!
practically everyone was sweating and uncomfortable.
but i am cool and fine with just the wind blowing.
Miss Wong came into Chem class and said: "GOOD NEWS!"
"class canceled from 2.30pm onwards!"
hahaha. ok. fine it's good news la. but the lucky it's ME and Maths class. so i dun mind. xD

so thus, i have some free time to blog.
lol.
rite. lets see...
can't remember much before the 9th. so i'll start there.

9th January
DARREN's Birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUNDEK!
lol.
brought Pork to bbq.
They LOVED it.
Had a hard time cleaning up the Mess with the BBQ pit. but was worth it.
had a great time.
Knocked off class and went straight over to Tmn Suria for the birthday bash.
ain't exactly a bash. but yeah u get what i mean.
practically tired. and can't wait for the weekends.

10th January.
MinJun's birthday.
wasn't invited to anything tho...
So... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MinJun!
haha.
well... haven't met her for a long time.
hope u happen to read this.
hmm... kinda disappointing day.
due to stupid reasons. which i shall not further discuss.
well, other than that. went to church with colin
and then Dinner with his family.
den went to watch a freaking waste of Money and Time movie
[0 REC] lol. aka [QUARANTINE]
it's SPANISH! i didn't know that.
It's a Cloverfield style Motion Sickness movie. i wonder how Melissa and Colin manage to not feel like Puking
as for me. half of the time of the show. i was busy controlling myself not to puke.
they two was just plain being Shocked all the time. lol
Wai Ling felt a lil uneasy for awhile.
but i was the worst of em
Totally Feel SICK after the movie. not cause of the movie. but the motion sickness.
Movies like that shudden even exist.
damn it.
well it's abt this sickness or disease that turns pple into zombies.
hmm.. lots of the same kind of movies are coming out. all started from I am Legend.
well that show was nice.
but this. PLEASE....

owh abt the Theory of 2012. is like the basis of these movies being produce.
hmm... i wonder.
haha Go Google 2012 then you'll know what i'm talking abt.
it's a conspiracy. which is kinda turning into reality.
dun wanna discuss that here for the moment.
Interested? go Search it up urself.
let me know what u think if u wanna share.

alritey.
11th January
Basketball in the morning.
I feel like i've improved alot.
maybe cause i've been watching NBA more often
nice exercise.
i can pWn any ameture Tall Ass Basketball player.
least that's what i feel. hahaha
BUT! disappointment comes when, i dun feel taller =. =
darn it.
anyways. was kinda happy in the morning during basketball.
wasn't emo. well maybe alil before 9am. but after that i was okay.
den comes a small disappointment in the afternoon.
talk abt karma ey?
idk...
still. dun wanna talk abt it.
maybe it's just me. thinking too much u know?

12th January.
Basically today.
Colin's weird again.
my network of friend's even weirder.
i d k who to trust anymore.
i feel kinda confused on what's going on.
i just need a break from all these.
damn it.
well where am i to complaing but here. hahaha.
the Power got Cut Off during CS class in the morning.
everyone was suffering and i wasn't.
well i was suffering when all the air-conds were working.
lol. again, Karma.
i really can just live w/o air cond.
i feel cooling now. and i'm sure there's billions of pple out there complaining that this weather is hot.
=. =
fyi peeps. it's cause of your Air-Cond that's making u feel this way.
bah!
enuf crapping.

i shall get on with life now.
see you next time i blog.
ciao