- was i born to be a screw up?

lol.
i screwed up 50% of my performance.
i felt so shitty but slightly better when pple come to me and said it was nice.
but i didn't feel it was nice at all.

colin knows,
i know,
some other pple know too.

cause i cud have done so much better.
but i don't need to explain why i screwed up.
cause it ain't explainable...
there's just no excuse.

i'm tired,
i wanna sleep now,
oyasumi.

- katy perry has some awesome songs. lol!

mucho gracias.
i know i've been lazy.
but i'm sorry i can't help it.

HELL NO!! another assignment and i'll die!!
PHYSICS!
why?!?!?!?!?!??!
lol.
actually sounds quite fun la. but i feel like i have no time wey!
cause i've been sleeping damn early. waking up to another school day.
weekends just jam packed.
macam mana nih!! haha.


siao liao lah i tell you lah.
wanna be cina beng edi...
nono cannot. lol

okay. so this friday is the freaking fresh-y night.
and i'm suppose to sing?
but i don't feel like singing anymore........
but i still have to sing.
=. =

hmmz... i'll be out teaching col his stupid brain how to do CS for tmr now,
i think i'll just update bitss and pieces.
lol.
cause i know got pple reading edi!! hahaha.
no lah...
just cause i scared i forget what i wanna say the next time.
heeee...
and i think won't have much time to blog long long next time.
so sikit sikit, lama jadi bukit.

dan mungkin bila nanti...
kita kan bertemu lagi...
my moral teacher liked it when i sang this
haha.
ciao

- please replace the "c" with a "k"

cause K is kooler than C. hahaha
lol.
pple with K as their Initials! BE PROUD! cause we're KOOL!
Mat Kool! hahahahahaha.

hey!
guess what. i think i might pick up some classes to be a Radio DJ! lol
cause i know i need to learn how to talk more to pple.
so... THIS MIGHT ACTUALLY HELP!


argh! FRIDAY!
damn malas wanna perform edi.
my mates won't be ard.
but i'm kinda cool with the noobies now.
haha.
although they are still annoying to me.
srsly. but i'm getting used to it. they seem fine/better now. haha


jeez. just one year diff and we have generation gap edi.
kinda cacat.
hmm... i'm kinda suppose to do my english assignment now,
but,
as usual, i'm lazy.
i just think studying ain't my thing u know?
i've thought of dropping out of school and start some job or career in something.
like dunno how many hundred times edi.
but i know my parents would FLIP!
i'm doing it for the sake of them i guess...
jeezzz...

i hate it when pple assume i'm smart?
cause I AM A DUMBASS man... srsly....
ask me anything, and i'll have to look thru the books to give you an ans.
else i'll just crap stuff to you.
haha.


eeeesh.
this week got so many deadlines.
CS practical... Moral Assignment...
English... Maths...
OMG! GIVE ME A BREAK MAN!
break is two freaking months away... =. =
gotta work towards it!
else i'll be skinned alive.
srs.

ahh.. nothing special up other than this Friday's Freshie Night.
got some rehearsal going on tmr night.
hope i'm up for it.


nothing much to blog abt.
just wanna blog.
don't know why? haha

enjoy. hope i'll have some interesting stuff next blog.
ciao

- peace... and quiet...

ahhh the serenity.
i know i've been erm... haha. overreacting for quite abit.
lots of factors.


but i love my friends,
they helped alot.
just by being ard them helped alot.


i take back everything i've said.
and, i will change for you. =]
things will never be the same again...

haha.
ahh.. life...
i think i'll die for tmr's chem exam.
ORGANIC CHEMISTRY IS A CRAZY SUBJECT TO TAKE!

"what a beautiful mess... this is....~~"
PERFORMANCE!
CB! COLIN BRANDON! haha. idiot backing out on me.
i want to kill him

- awesome quick quiz from Adrian

hey...
got something to share

me taken a quiz.
it sounds so chun. lol.
i wonder how pple come up with this stuff.
or they do this which make you believe it is you? hahaha
idk
but it feels... hmm... haha.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


go try for yourself and post them up in your blogs!
haha. IT's A TAG!
to anyone who is interested to find out
CLICK ON THIS! to go try it out!

laterz!

- open opportunities, open doors, open heart

haha,
whaddap?!

today, is a very good day. haha
went to school for only one classs!!! woooweee!
awesome man.
okay den erm.. haha. den now bored lo.
dunno what to do. wey!
after makan jer.
haha

so... that explains why i am here.

anyone wanna lepak pls cari me!
i'll fetch you! lol.
not your ahmad tho.
just i can fetch you. haha.


hmmz... k la. come back later after i'm done with the day.
stay tuned!

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part 2! lol
erm.. kinda just got back.
haha. it's like 3.16am now!
wtf?
woken up by ash and col and dickson at abt 9 plus
den we went out to yumcha.
met up with danbob.
den went to uncle Leslie's CC to have a game of L4D.
it's been like 5 years since i stepped into a CC. haha
this one's nice. koz they all have 22 inch monitors and it's not dark and smelly. hahaha
it's in Perling... lol.

in the morning...
i had a sudden burst of adrenaline.
hmm, i guess, not being appreciated got the better of me.
sometimes, it's better to just eff the stupid feelings you have for pple.
haha.

a relationship is a responsibility, not based only on the feelings you have for another person.

based on that, i think i've already done enough of my part.
you need both hands to clap
you can't always do things according to your feelings,
because feelings do fade away sometimes.
you gotta consider what responsibilities you are holding when getting into stuff like that u know?
well, having experiencing it so many times,
i guess i only want this to be the last?
or... i hope it will be the last.
just go for real, mature people next time. haha!


haha.
haih... i'm an idiot.
what's the use to suppress all the emoness
and when night comes and you have nothing left to keep your mind away from it,
you break it out and it hits you twice as hard.
so,
i've gotten rid of it.
but it seems like the roots are still intact.
dig deeper?
lol.

what.am.i.to.do.with.the.tickets.now?

ciao peeps. =]

- it's not what you think, it's just infatuation

your actions show that you are just afraid,
your so called friends, teased you with words,
when you where at the edge of falling,
you don't want to feel left out, you choose the easy way out.
you let in a person, who you barely know. yet you think you are in love.


you left the past one alone, suffering from what you have earned.
it's easy for you to go along with another,
because you are just like all the other,
immature, childish and running away for some cover.
you would rather be a flirt, than to commit to something
where you think you might get hurt.


is it really love? or are you just infatuated.
by another who hasn't gave you hurt?
you are locked in the illusions, of thinking that someone else,
is the one you are in love,
when the real true love, was the one you left
undertaking all that hurt.


think of what you have really done,
before a new page has begun.
think of what you have really felt,
before more pain, you will be dealt.
to solve a relationship, is not by ending it and looking for another.
but to find closure for both, and still love one another.

=] i hope this will bring many people some closure,
and to work out your problems,
instead of sentencing it,

as a dead end.

i guess sometimes, you just have to wait for the storm to be over.
before you can see true light upon the skies.
i wish you only the best. if you think that it's right.

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SHIT! didn't see no HOT chicks at all in this new intakes.
Aaaarrggh... boring sem again i guess...
hahaha.
just kidding.
i'm ending my semester and graduating soon!! wahahahahaha. awesome!
malas to blog right now.
so... LATERZ peeps!

[BACK!]
lol...
okay... now i'm free. not.
anyways.
i feel awful for me, myself, and my friends.
haha.
ok well it's just me and colin.
freaking lame shit.


i hate those buzzers
they buzz too much. can't they just live their own lives?
can't they just buzz off?
they make other pple's life miserable without thinking of the 2nd party...


if you don't know what is really going on, please don't infatuate your friends.
please do think abt the other party.
please, grow up.


anyways... there's a whole line up of topic tests and quiz coming up!
and Freshie Night don't seem to hold any hopes.
lol.


okay. i'm back to my malas mood now. if anything, i'll come back. haha. ciao!

infatuations don't last... google it! haha. i'm sure u can find what it means.