- after disappearing for god knows how long

waddup peeps

how's it going for you guys?

hah.

god knows if anyone's still reading this old blog.

apologies for the ones who constantly check for updates.

and HELLO! to those who came by for a short visit.

what am i here for??

lol. i don't know.

just feel like typing.

looking at the keyboard and realized i haven't touched on my typing for ages.

and figured out the best way to do so.

which is... BLOG.

so guess what...

i'm graduating from Sunway JB!

kudos! woohoo!!

wow.

what news ey?

and i'm heading to Monash U in KL...

which is still within the borders of Malaysia

not out of country yet for me i guess.

most probably taking the Engineering Course if i'm able to get it.

okay.

total Random blogging

since i haven't typed so much crap in awhile.

lets read up some crap shall we?

hahaha.

right.

i'm just in a state of dilemma recently.

i think i've lost my identity

i used to know who i am and what i want.

and i don't give a shit what other pple say abt me

whether in front or behind me

until recently...

i guess it's because of going to Uni.

that made me feel like i've lost myself.

i begin to wonder...

when someone asks "everyone around you smokes... why not you?"

i ponder.

and i just smile with the ans "i don't get influenced easily"

then i thought: "that was kinda naive. what's the real reason i don't smoke at all"

yeah i know.. it's stupid... to think abt something like that.

but i guess. it's just the ol weird ken.

hah.

and i know that the 1st impression people get from me is that i'm a

quiet, steady, serious

type of guy.

hmm...

i feel like i'm being judged.

and i get this awkward feeling when people talk abt it in front of me.

and when they say "i didn't know you're this this this and that that that"

i get this stun-moment where i don't know how to react.

and i just totally stay quiet.

but come on. how are you going to react to this kind of situation?

den i just cover my self thoughts with a sentence

"well... now you know not to judge a person by their appearance?"

or

"that's cause you don't even know me from the beginning"

"yeah so now you bitches know what i am like; and i know you love it"

hah! ;]

yeah i know... randomness...

just some thoughts.

wonder if there are people who have such experiences.

well i get this sorta reaction from others all the time.

and another popular one:

"WOW YOU CAN SPEAK CHINESE!"

that's my favourite

and

"engkau nih orang melayu ke?"

hah.

moving on.

i guess i'm having issues.

lol.

with myself.

which explains some recent up and down random mood

i don't know.

i think people ard me feel so too.

i get hyper at a moment.

then i'm quiet and silent for a period.

it's like... i have stuff running through my head.

and it comes and goes at weird timings.

haha.

when i go into deep thoughts. i don't voice out anything at all.

i'll just listen and observe

i don't even give a comment.

then when i'm hyper and all...

things come out.

things get revealed.

things are shared.

i know some friends ard me are already used to it.

just curious how others that just got to know me

feel abt this.

after all.

i am unpredictable.

it's sorta my shield.

an armor.

protecting and defending against something.

against intruders to my own little wonderland.

where i have peace and serenity.

and i do what i want. when i want.

and this

contributes to another factor and reason why

i'm the perfect subject to be

a one-night-stand partner.

lol

call it commitment issues or whatever.

but it's just how i feel comfortable.

reason?

the characteristic of being unpredictable and weirdness i guess.

and of course past memories; bad bad memories.

nope, not that i could not leave them behind.

it's long gone.

but what's left. is the path i've chosen to take;

for the time being.

anyways,

you only have one life,

why subject it to an end?

when you haven't even explore the world.

JB? KL? Malaysia?

that's only like 0.01% completion of your Global Progress.

hah!

okay... i think about 45% of the things i typed above

are things that i don't know what i'm saying.

it's just random stuff that comes to mind.

after all.

this is just a session for me to feed my hunger to type.

and it is well fed.

have you any idea how nice it is to type on a mac keyboard? LOL!

alrighty.

no offense peeps!

like i said.

random thoughts.

keep it alive.

(please excuse all sorts of errors. i'm lazy to review this)

loves

and whatevers.

hah! peace out.

- walking towards the Distant Worlds

hey!
okay, no way in the world i'm going to miss talking abt this.
LOL!

KUDOs! to Arnie Roth and Nobuo Uematsu for coming to the Esplanade Singapore!!

why?

i'm sure you know why!

Distant Worlds: music from Final Fantasy Orchestra

okay 1st up! Pictures!
LOL!

getting seated and ready for the show

Nobuo Uematsu was like 50M away from where i'm sitting!!

Show time.

the moment we saw Uematsu sensei walking out from the back stage
someone from above shouted
"UEMATSU SENSEI!!!!"
haha.. full of energy

everyone started to shout and applaud..
awesome atmosphere man!!

yeah too bad we cudden whip out the camera anymore that time.
kena caught. haha!

but anyways. i curi curi got some shots later on. haa!

The Conductor - Arnie Roth then came out.
and the music begins.

here's the Song list

FINAL FANTASY VIII: Liberi Fatali
FINAL FANTASY X: To Zanarkand
FINAL FANTASY VIII: Don't be Afraid
FINAL FANTASY VII: Aerith's Theme
FINAL FANTASY I - III : Medley
FINAL FANTASY V: Dear Friends
FINAL FANTASY IX: Vamo' alla Flamenco
FINAL FANTASY XI: Ronfaure

in between every two songs, Arnie would talk to the audience.
and he'd intorduce the next piece.

so before the intermission

FINAL FANTASY series: Main Theme

went for a rest.

came back

continued with the next part

FINAL FANTASY VII: Opening - Bombing Mission
FINTAL FANTASY VIII: Fisherman's Horizon
FINAL FANTASY XI: Memoro dela Stono- Distant Worlds
FINAL FANTASY IV: Theme of Love
FINAL FANTASY series: Swing de Chocobo
FINAL FANTASY VIII: Love Grows
FINAL FANTASY VI: Opera "Maria and Draco"

and that was like the last song on the list. and yeah... everyone in the room was quite dissappointed.
why?

WHERE THE HELL IS ONE WINGED ANGEL!!

ARRGH!!

so nvm... at the end of the show...
Arnie gave a speech about how singaporeans like surprises
"so we have a surprise song for you... and i know you think you know what i'm going to play"
"then he said: the next peice would be a surprise piece from.... .... Eyes One Me"
every one was surprised.
then he said
"no we don't have Faye Wong here today i'm sorry"
"but we'll play you an orchestra version"

okay so after that.
every one started shouting again.
"Encore!! Encore!!!"
and the guy above was screaming and yelling
"ONE WINGED ANGEL!!"



den Arnie walked out again...
said: "okay.. i'm not going to leave you just like that am I??"

*people were on the edge of their seats*

they did some poll thing about the next performance arrangements
A: "okay.. here are your 5 choices now... vote.. remember.. there's only 5 and we choose the best 2"
" i feel like i'm in some british idol or american idol or something"
*laughs*
"okay... here we go.. it's your vote.."
"the results are instant"
*laughs*



the vote for the next Orchestra arrangement was
Final Fantasy VI: Dancing Mad
Final Fantasy VII: J-E-N-O-V-A

CAN'T WAIT FOR THOSE!!

then

"i know that you know what i'm thinking to play for the last encore song for you"
*laughs*

"but it is not the one that all of you were yelling at me... haa. i'm sorry"
"here's Terra's Theme"

it was awesome to. and the song was for the credits...
and yeah... felt a lillte disappointed..
but things don't just end like that.

not when it's Final Fantasy;
after another voice shattering session of shouting ENCORE!!
this time, both Nobuo and Arnie walked out.

N: "Ni Hao" (chinese)
*laughs*
A: "ah... Nobuo-san can speak chinese"
N: "I can speak chinese"
whips out a paper
N: "Wo Xi Huan He Pi Jiu"
(i love to drink beer)
*laughs*
A: "okay... so Nobuo-san told me backstage and asked if he could sing for you as and Ending"
N: "haa.. nonono i can't sing solo.."
A: "come on... give it a try"
N: sings a tune lamely and laughs
"I can't sing Solo... nono"
A: "haha... okay so how about one more song?"
*the orchestra stompping their feet*
A: "would you like Nobuo san to sing one last song?"
*cheers*
N: "but i can't sing solo... i'll sing with the chorus behind.."
*walks to the Chorus*
A: "okay.. we'll play one last song for Nobuo san to sing for you... isn't that an honor?"
"and i know that you think you know what song i'm thinking to play and going to play for you don't you?"
" here we go ONE WINGED ANGEL"

**WHOLE CROWD WAS TOTALLY SURPRISED AND CHEERED**

and Nobuo WAS SINGING TOGETHER in the Chorus!!
how awesome was THAT!!

Finished with the whole theater's Standing Ovation to Arnie and Nobuo


The ending was with Sephiroth in the Fiery background
and this is the reason why the change of colour in the logo at the screen.

every song was played with Nostalgic scenes from the game
displayed on the projector screen.


had a dialogue session at the end where we get to talk to them
ask questions and all.


hmm.. kinda wasted that the Black Mages wasn't able to come perform..
due to complications with Square Enix.
two band members are from Square Enix.

but Nobuo already resigned from them...
so i guess... it'll be hard for them to join in future performance.


then was the autograph session

but THIS IS WHERE I GOT DAMN DISAPPOINTED!
(not counting all the other disappointment of the day)
but!

I GOT CUT OFF THE QUEUE!
they said it was at their limit. and i was freaking TWO people away from the CUT!!
i was like WTH?!??!
my cousin and his friend were complaining and all.
but failed...
then more pple complain

AARGGH
den i ran to the front trying to get a picture and this are the best i cud get... sigh...





yeah.. Coke light was ditributed for FREE!! lol!

damn....
DAMN!! NO AUTOGRAPHS!!!
but nvm...
they said they trying to get the performance in KL!!
wahahahhaa
WAHAHAHAHAH I AM GOING FOR SURE!
and THE AUTOGRAPHS!!!


bought a T-shirt


Souvenior

damn... it was an experience of a life time...
there isn't a word to describe the feeling
really.
not a word.
i dont' know which to use if there was.
hahaha

AAAH... NICENESS!

lol!

after that.. walked back to JB

-------

okay this is a Funny, lame, yet frustrating experience for me when i reached back.
the place i parked my car.
the freaking person in the booth to pay the ticket was missing
and i was like
"shit.. now i'm stuck here."
then some evil ideas came into my mind.

the side of the booth wasn't closed.
(the exit for motorcycles)
the barricade wasn't long enough.
and i saw my car... able to just fit thru.

it was blocked by some cones and stones...
so yeah.. haha
what i did was i went down
removed them

drove off...


took the parking ticket.
threw it out the window.
xD

i don't know if i'll get caught...
but haha... whatever!
who ask the pple to go skiving ard...

i didn't put the cone back tho...

gosh i feel so evil..
hahaha.

that was the icing on the cake. xD

alrighty
better go study for tmr's test.

still living in the moments of the orchestra.
aaah...

those who didn't get to go...
you don't know what you've missed...
and i feel wasted for the pple i invited but cudden go in the end.
Dickson.. yea... he was utterly disappointed with his mum.
and so was Estella with her mum...

damn.. i'm sorry wey... =/

we'll go together the one in KL when it's confirmed!
=]

gtg
smell ya'll laters!

- true and false

do you have a friend,
who'd drop whatever they are doing,
just to give you a hand when you need help.

do you have a friend,
who'd sacrifice time spent with his/her partner,
to be around to talk with, when you needed a listener the most.

do you have a friend,
who'd sacrifice his entertainment,
just so that he/she could entertain you.

do you have a friend,
who'd get you out of trouble,
who'd go the extent,
who'd even take your place in hell.

maybe,
i've done too much,
to find a real friend.
maybe,
i should not,
have done so much at all.

after all,
"you are just a friend, there is nothing much i can do for you"

i'm naive.

in the end, it is still just you alone in this world.


i did it all for nothing.


i have trust in no one at all,
or maybe just


some"one"

- the fray

I found God,
On the corner of first and Amistad
where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said where you been?
he said ask anything.

Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
All i needed was a call
that never came
to the corner of first and Amistad.

Lost and Insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the Floor,
Surrounded, Surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You Found me, You Found Me...

In the end, Everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
who i am, who i'm not, who i want to be
no way to know how long she'll be next to me

Early morning, City breaks
I've been calling for years and years and years and years
and you left me no messages
you never send me no letters
you got some kind of nerves taking all i want


Lost and Insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the Floor,
Surrounded, Surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You Found me, You Found Me
Why'd you have to wait
to find me, To Find Me...

The Fray - You Found me

I've GOT NOTHING,
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT RECENTLY
THAT IT FEELS SO EMPTY HERE!

THAT's WHY I'M USING CAPS AND BOLDS! LOL!

life's not being interesting recently,
maybe... it's because of the finals.
haa.
i'm flunking...
death upon me.

great. gtg...
i'll be back.
=]

anatawo.... mistuketta!!
heee

random sheeeeetz again. haaa!

haaa i finally have some extra time to burn to blog.

cause it's an OFF DAY for me today!

WOOHOO!!!

Tmr's my last Trials paper. damn how time flies. lol

jeez...

Physics tmr...

malas wanna study edi.

actually i langsung didn't study at all for any of my papers. LOL!

sssssshhhhh. dun tell anyone. haaa!

okay wait. ain't i telling the world now? lol!

okay! 1st off some random pics!

see if you can identify what are they! hahaha.

okay this not that hard. heee

here's school...

and my 3 year old shoe

went out with Juls and Dick the other day.

that's when all the random pics were taken. haha!

guys guys guys!

you gotta see this. haha

muahahaha CUTE RITE?!

look like little teddy bear wey!

his name's Hersheys! hahaha.

it's a friend's dog.

OMG so little, can carry with one hand lo..

uber cute.

played with it. haha. it's like so quiet.. and cute...

and sweet...

hahaha.

yeah.. that abt all the random stuff...

yesterday,

had some trouble in school. those who were in school

and who i've told about, shud know what happened.

sigh...

i d k what to say, but i don't wanna judge.

from what i've seen and what i've heard.

and what i've been thru, i have my own opinions.

not going to tell it here, but

sometimes, i still know that what i predict would be correct.

i'm not speaking statisticly here. but, believe me or not it's up to the person.

i have my reasons to stand by the things i said.

i haven't seem to be wrong.

not that i'm assuming.

of course assumptions are part of life,

it's also part of fact finding.

but it's just a gut feeling. a voice i hear. everytime i go thru stuff like that.

not judging a person, not profiling them.

things just come to my head for some reason.

and it always proves to be right.

it bothers me

but i tend to use it for a greater good.

i hope people cud stop being such hypocrites sometimes,

saying something and doing another thing.

it's just so....

annoying and disturbing...

it makes people loose their trust in you.

you feel me?

be who you are,

and don't force yourself to be better or worse.

you don't have to please others,

you just have to let others accept who you are.

i hope my friends would understand this.

esp my buddies.

i just hope things didn't have to be like that right now,

yesterday was really an eye opener.

and i hope it opened his eye.

we hang ard each other almost all the time.

you're my bro man...

i'm not doing it to hurt your feelings.

or to tear your life.

i'm telling you cause i don't want you to go back to square one.

like you always do.

i know i can forgive you,

and i was happy that you chilled yesterday before looking for me again.

i ain't gonna lie to you,

there's just things that you don't see going on behind your back.

gaaah, anything else we'll talk about it.

haaa...

and for you readers...

just try to keep a look out,

identify you friends and loved ones,

don't be kept in the dark.

sometimes, the people around you see the bigger picture than you.

and when they tell you about it.

it means something somewhere might be going wrong.

try to accept their advice and work on it.

instead of regretting it later on.

i'm sure true friends want the best for each other

and wanna help each other look out for each other.

take care guys.

gtg now.

=]

imissyou

and i miss hersheys! hahahaaa!

and i miss 3 other bitches! lol =X

amber kylie and stuffy.

owh owh! and i hope to meet WANG WANG~~ soon.

xD

smell ya'll laterz

- system breakdown, again

directions anyone?

HARROW HARROW!

darn it.

my com just died again. and i'm blogging with a lappy.

lol

this is how it all went down,

Friday, labour day, turned off the com after i checked out some stuff online,

Lok Li Jen

my NS friend from Kluang came to JB! haha

brought her ard JB!

went to Larkin bus station to pick her up.

met at Macs there, haha.

after that, went for brunch at the Noodle shop.

later on after makan, went to look for Wicky and gf,

haha.

den off we go to Jusco and met up with Dickson and his gf.

lepaked ard Jusco, doing stuff and intro-ing stuff to them what we usually do there.

hahahahahaha.

those who knows, would laugh their asses off now,

"Wanna earn some quick money??"

hahaha.

then later on send Wicky and gf home.

den went to CS to drop Evangeline's phone to her.

rounded JB not knowing where to go, decided to bring her sightseeing,

with Dickson as the tour guide giving a tour guide speech to everywhere we go.

hahaha.

of course making up stuff on the way.

den i remembered a place which is now 70% completed. lol

Taman Merdeka! haha. nice place to go walk ard actually.

haha was walking down this path with lots of wall carvings of the history of Malaysia,

den came to one wall with nothing on it. den as the usual Dick,

he did this:

and said: this wall is for "this"

hahahaha

den we continued walking

here's some pics,

peeping tom! lol

hahaha

then after that, felt warm

and BOOM! we ended up at Serene Park's Ice Kacang Stall.

hahaha.

yeah, i smiled like that on purpose... lol

den woosh! time flew, it was like 5 6pm edi.

went to CS after that,

wanted to look for Juls, but she knocked off edi.

too bad. cudden offer her a ride.

so we walked ard for abit. 

had some more lame fun

den sent her back to the station.

later, went home, colin called, ask wanna go SS look for Calven and the gang not,

so i said ok, but wanna go back to on my downloads.

need some NCIS to watch.

mana tau!!!

WAHLAO EH! PC CRASHED!

the Restarting Sound of Death *beep*

like every 10 seconds, cause i cudden load to windows,

i suspect the Motherboard again.

and it's out of it's warranty time!

NO!!!! repair will take a month or so,

buyin a new one will cost me a BOMB!

and argh!!!

AAARRRGGH!

no com to use, no shows to watch to pass time =/

DARN IT!

sigh... and so i'm here ranting all about it.

it just crashed for no good reason!

my mum said she unplugged to plugs when it rained,

and still it rosaked! how did the lightning strike the com when it's not even plugged in!!!

HOW?!?!?!

GOD!! TELL ME HOW?W?W?W?W?W?

=[

sighs...

it's Trial's week.

so nice Sunway KL no trials one.

sheeshkebab.

rawr. gotta study,

it's freaking 10%

and i think i'm failing my Chemistry, =/

sigh... cause it's kinda like a taboo subject now.

god knows why.

update ya'll when i'm free.

for now, i guess i'll have to stick to the lappy or KS if the lappy is used by my bro.

darn...

see ya'll ard yea?

ciao.