- bug attack and stuff

hey...

i can't sleep.

lol

don't know why

just can't.

i'm wondering who's reading my blog seriously.

don't really have feedbacks

but not important.

umm... people who read and run

haha.

thanks for viewing.

man... i am really darn bored and unable to sleep.

let me tell you what's going on in my mind then!

BUGS! they like to fly into my room.

= =

especially moths and jumping flying crickets

i'm like immune and lazy to bother them anymore.

i had a beetle visiting me in the morning too. lol

i so need to sleep else i'll be a zombie tmr morning in class.

jeez...

life's getting boring in KL

in fact, there isn't a life.

gotta do somthing about it.

else i'll die.

anyways, i think the main reason why i can't sleep now

is cause i'm being bothered by unnecessary comments by unnecessary people.

lol.

i don't know why am i being bothered.

i hope it could just go away.

and i guess by blogging it out.

i can get it to go.

which i hope it does work.

hahaha

if all else fails

i guess i'll subject to sleeping pills.

lol

insomnia........

hmm....

i just don't feel comfortable when i see others comment or criticize others when they don't look at themselves in the mirror.

it's sorta... irritating.

i wonder how this sort of people live...

you gotta know, it takes a lifeless person to know another lifeless person. hahahaha. if you get what i mean.

so why criticize what others do or say?

can't they have their own opinion? must everybody be like "YOU"?

it's just stupid and unnecessary.

ugh... yea it's stupid to feel like that. haha

but what gives.

i'm just being bothered by it and i wanna talk it out.

i'm sure there are some people who are reading this and already starting to give comments in their heads.

that's just their rights.

i can't do anything about it now can i?

so what i'm trying to say here.

let the people who enjoys their games enjoy their games;

let the people who loves their job love their job;

let the people who talks talk whatever they like;

let the people who has chosen their way of life live their way of life.

you are in no place to command them and criticize them on how they choose to be.

it's their human right.

i don't get what is the problem with you wanting to say such things about others.

sigh...

i am losing my respect to you.

such... never mind.

hahaha.

anyways...

we all can't be the same.

that's what makes us human.

bla bla bla.

i hope this will help me feel less irritated.

lol

should i say

or should i don't.

what good does it make

when i've lost all my trust in you

what good does it make

when what i've done

is never appreciated by you.

i'm back in my shadows

i'm wearing my mask once again

because i cannot stand

this reality where everyone's just ass licking

their way out of this.

why do i still care

why do i still think

months it has been and i can't forget what a fool i've been

thanks to such a memory

i tend to play my own game once more and no one can tell me what is wrong and what is right.

i owe my gratitude to the past

not the present one i see right in front of me.

all i can say is that i really have had such a feeling

but now i don't f*cking care

what will happen to you

i won't try and make things better

i will let you suffer

just like how fate wants you to

should i say or should i don't

that is the one and only thing left i have to choose between making things better or not for you.

you have to open your eyes soon enough

before you get deceived by your own illusions

and regret the path you have chosen

for eternal

and for life

- Should I Say or Should I Don't

copyright and all rights reserved

some new lyrics =]

hope it has a meaning to you.

have a nice day!

- what the hell

yes, what the hell...

this month of august is just a series of shit and more shit.

sigh... am i cursed during this month?

am i seriously cursed with everything august?

god knows.

well... for those who know,

my uncle passed away really sudden just last week.

i rushed to singapore as soon as i got the news.

it was damn sad.

i cried non stop.

yeah... cry baby... whatever

although he's my aunt's husband,

although he has no blood relation to me,

i grown up with him.

he's very heartwarming, very nice person.

he can make friends with anyone and everyone.

his jokes... may be a lil hard to catch.

but once u get it. it's so darn funny

and of course, his jokes are always in Hokkien. haha.

since young, i often visit them and stayed at his place with my cousins during holidays.

and he got strucked with a heart attack.

just like that.

he's always happy and not wanting others to worry about him.

yet god had to take him back.

i know he's in a better place now.

really miss him alot.

i'm worried for my aunt. i pray and hope she's doing fine.

sigh....

other than that;

was doing this assignment.

and turned out my group didn't use the report i typed at all.

he/she just changed everything that i did and passed up a totally different report.

i don't know what's that suppose to mean. and i wasn't told why.

what the hell man.

i rushed the report and corrected it over and over again.

and this is what it turned out to be?

wtf man...

and there are other stuff...

like for instance today;

suppose to go for MTV World Stage.

i went for the interview, and i was so excited i got the job.

went there in the afternoon;

walked to the gate. and my name wasn't in the list.

WTH?!?!?!

they asked me to come. and i came

and they told me my application was cancelled and was sorry they didn't call to tell.

i can say...

FUCK YOU!

fucking disappointed man.

i even went and get the shoes i needed for the job.

cause i didn't have black shoes

and this is what they tell me?

i was too tired to argue.

i asked if it's possible i can still work and they said N-O

spelled so big i don't know how else to express.

and now i'm here while some other guy/gal got my job.

pissed off i am.

very pissed off indeed.

i'm done and lazy talking about all these shit.

FUCK THE WORLD MAN!

god knows how many more bad luck i have coming for this august.

and don't try and remind me any.

just shut the eff up.

- Hitz RM5000 Says It's ME

hello!

i'm back at JB now...

okay... that's old story.

new story,

i'm going back to KL tmr.

*the horror*

hahaha

yeah... back to the busy life...

yet, interesting.

but still, nothing beats home...

sigh...

wish i cud stay longer.

i sorta need to finish some assignments and stuff but i dun think that's possible

hahaha

cause i've totally forgotten about it as i'm back here in JB.

that wud lead to some problems...

*SHIT!!*

i guess i better do some or else i'll be killing myself tmr.

aahhh....

how i hate to continue my studies.

it's just so hard to cope.

god, or someone, anyone.

save me?

- event update

hey.... reporting in from McD again! haha

this time it's in the morning.

having breakfast here. =]

with the cheap meal coupon. hahahaha.

hah.

anyways. as i said b4. i'm going to update with some pictures.

so... TADA!!!

lol.

anyways.

last week. i went for this F&N contest event thingy to work.

haha.

had lotsa fun.

and earned some big bucks in short time. how awesome.

best part of all.

didn't do much work.

was rather playing...

the event was the finals and the winner walks away with RM500K!!!

i can buy 3 or 4 cars edi wey!!!

our "football" team went out to work

haha.

basically it's 3 stages of games

and we're the timekeepers aka game masters.

haha.

just hanging ard having fun and earning money. how nice rite??

hahaha.

owh and the best part.

we got to meet the TEH TARIK KING from malaysia

hahaha. lame i know

and guess what...

he lives closer than home.

he's from JB!!

and he lives near CS

hahaha.

we got to become friends.

and no he doesn't work at a Mamak stall.

hahaha.

we'll go cari him when we go back.

haha.

those who are interested to meet him...

join along lo.

=]

his teh tarik skills awesome sial

can spin ard wan.

haha. nice....

after the event.

as usual we took pictures on stage.

hahaha

keep memories

waiting for free kick from Messi.

hahaha.

and the RM500K tidak di-menang.

cause the guy cudden get thru the last round

and he won 25K

so the 500K nobody take... so who take??

US LA!!

hahaha

i know what you're thinking... YEAH RITE...

memang la.. siao mer... so nice den we dun need to suffer now lo...

haha... work so much...

anyways... have to thank Auntie Jo and You Xian find us that lobang.

there's more to come. looking forward to more.

hahaha

this job is FUN!

darn... sitting in McD to use the net is so weird.

but luckily here not many pple. haha.

heading to school later.

starts at 2pm.

lectures are quite hard to understand.

esp Maths.

sigh... dunno can keep up or not...

have to give it a try this sem.

arrrgghh...

i'll trade everything to go back to sec school life now...

damn it.

i gtg i guess...

miss the peeps at JB.

ciao

- an angel in hell

hey peeps!

guess what?

there's an awesome chunted teenage chick

giving tuition here at McD to some kids.

hahaha

and i have an awesome view of her from where i'm sitting.

xD

okay fine. not here to talk abt her.

lol.

but she's damn pretty and cute.

her smile...

omg stop.

lol

okay. guess what.

something to blog today!!

after living in KL aka Hell for the past few days.

today. was kinda suey for me.

my car battery died.

and yeah it's koz of my dumbness to not turn off the headlights again.

well was kinda hungry like mad.

and Chingy was with me.

and the hunger made the headlights slip off my mind.

hahaha.

so sorry to trouble Ching.

and i'm here to Thank a very very kind Lady

i shall call her...

MAP 1636 or MAT 1636 lady.

lol. koz i kinda got blurred of her car's number plate.

story's like this;

i'm effing hungry,

found a cheap place to eat.

didn't realize i didn't off my headlights.

makan and chat till very happy.

luckily wanted to go 7-11

walked to car.

saw headlights on

and "F**K" came to mind.

car can't start.

1st Try, asked a guy in a Persona.

well yeah... he said he need to rush somewhere.

fine... okay....

dun need your help...

den nvm...

the BMW parking beside my car

just nice wanted to leave.

so i asked for the auntie's help.

she FREAKED OUT! and DROVE OFF like so fucking fast.

i was like... WTF....

not like i'm going to rob u right...

freaking cheapskate auntie... drive BMW but go cheap food place to dapao...

= =

pek chek edi.

den after she left,

this Kind Lady in a Wira drove in to park at the evil BMW woman's place.

i waited for her to come down of the car;

tried my luck and asked extra politely.

BINGO!

she's awesome. she didn't ask. and she said yes.

she even asked her friend to help out.

man... she's awesome...

just the sad thing.

the pass 2 drivers were KL pple. she's from Melaka.

proves that KL pple are assholes like they always are.

and pple from other States are more kind that them.

lol

what to do... statistics.

xD

jump started my car and i can't thank her enough.

THANKS to Ching for helping pushing the car too. and the Lady's Friend.

if MAP1636 Lady or MAT1636 Lady. (really sorry can't remember clearly the letters)

if you're reading this.

I REALLY REALLY THANK YOU ALOT.

YOU ARE SO KIND.

if you need any help ever, please let me know.

kinda slipped my mind to get her contact so that i cud treat her a meal one day.

darn it.

but she's kind.

and kindness will be passed on and on...

so i guess i'll help others one day too.

when the chance comes.

=]

okay... that chick's still catching my eye... if she's not giving a tuition,

i'd go over and chat her up.

hah....

darn...

*i think she saw me looking at her*

hahahaha.

k man...

gotta go.

there's another story for another chapter.

haha.

when i get the pictures, i'll post them up.

in the meantime

take care and please do leave me msgs.

i miss everyone that i can't contact now.

Juls, Dick, Joyce, Ash, SMKST peeps, Rone Rone, Teh, Darren, Sarah and gang... Karyn, ShanLi.... list goes on and on. haha.

ciao

- finally some light

hah! in case you're wondering...

yes i'm online!

but guess where!!

non other than the usual hometown...

McDonalds!! lol.

right.

still don't have my internet connection at home.

been going to places with free WiFi to keep in touch.

i got my father's device to go online with a phone modem.

but it seems like it's not working.

i think i'll have to pop back home soon to get my cable,

use the Sim Card from my dad's device,

and go online with my phone's modem.

haha.

so what's up peeps?

i know i ain't chatting much recently.

i need to freaking find a WiFi area to go online.

what gives?!!

i'm effing bored at home as the place i stay is like thousands of miles away from all my friends.

and i'm lagi effing bored at home as i'm super de duper

OUT OF SHOWS TO WATCH ON THE HARD DISK!

= =

damn.

haven't been blogging much.

school's starting next week.

timetable's a mess.

having classes like 5 to 6 hours a day.

talk about draining my life...

btw, did i say that i was sharing a table with someone here?

hah.

not that awesome of a chick. i think she's older than me.

lol.

okay. i guess i'm gonna stop here.

nothing much to say at the moment.

stay safe,

see ya'll next time yeah?

ciao

- back so soon

yo.

umm...

hah. i know. fast update

back from KL.

saw the place i'm going to stay edi.

kinda far from sunway.

darn it.

have to wake up early again for classes.

as usual

i think i might shift out with my friends after everything's stable there.

lol

hmm...

feels a lil diff over there.

there's a pool tho.

lol. which is awesome.

cause i have a nice view of it.

slack part. no chicks there to see.

lol.

i think pple hardly use that pool.

it's clean. just the surrounding kinda slack.

haha.

jeez.

don't know when i'll blog again after this.

maybe soon

or not so soon.

ain't in the best of moods

maybe cause i'm leaving.

maybe not.

just a mixture of diff stuff

i'm sure gonna miss life in JB.

but,

i'll get to come home when i feel like it.

hah.

that's why i don't know why i'm feeling so...

i don't know how to explain.

and i'm sure it's not what you think it is.

haha. don't try to talk to me abt it.

got some grad day pics at my FB acc

for those whom i know and don't have me on Facebook:

look for my name!! haha.

i don't think you need my email.

it's not friendster.

let me know if you need help adding.

going to be a lil busy week this week.

have some things to do.

buy.

get.

and prepare.

accompanying my friends here in JB

for those who i can't fit the time in. i'm so so so so sorry.

school days what... how...

but i'll be back in weeks. hah.

so no worries.

i don't think anyone will miss me much.

xD

well...

i guess it's just like that gua...

anyone have any plans PLEASE!! let me know.

i don't wish to plan anything as i'm already busy enough.

but i'll join your plan if it's not clashing.

promise!

gah...

just to announce that the annoying fella is leaving JB.

other than that.

yeah...

a lil mood swing here and there.

ciao then.

take care

and see you peeps when time allows me to.

=]