- left it on that side of the bed

shit...

i woke up this morning

to a dream that felt so real...

i woke up finding myself really in tears and

i felt dumb

it was one of those dreams where it felt like it's reality

i was sitting in a room

a class

and i walked out as i saw her sitting in the same class

and my friends told me that she's there

i went home and change to go elsewhere

i walked out of my house,

the class ended

i could hear people shouting

happy the exams are over...

and i saw her walking out with her friends

i went to greet my friends

and she came trying to talk to me as if nothing had ever happened

as if nothing ever was

it's like she has no memory of what we were

and i ignored her

i went back home

i sat in my room thinking

and as i went to grab my stuff on the table

there she was at my door

with a sad look on her face

i looked at her and she looked at me

tears started to roll down from my eyes

and i woke up to feel alright.

i walked out of bed. to see the time

and as i turned back

i saw something that made me cry...

a tear hit my pillow and formed a shape of a heart

what odds does that happen ever in life?

hah... i don't know

and i left it on that side of the bed

it's just so stupid...

9 months i've tried

and this just tears that all back down

i even dreamt that i already turned off my fan

when i woke up

i realized i didn't.

that was how real it was. hahaha.

i never should have answered...

- hmm... i think i've forgotten something

gooooood morning!

i'm stuck with maths.

MATHS!

WTH

engineering maths is not for the fainted heart.

so please,

if you wanna live long...

don't study engineering!

it's for lifeless people

LIKE ME!

hahaha

maaaaan...

i dunno why i'm still awake

maybe cause of the trauma maths has given me

have i told u that I'M HAVING MY MATHS MID TERM THIS SATURDAY?!

good now u know.

basically i'm nowhere near the range of a PASS not to say Credit.

i'm so D.E.A.D

and i still can come online and crap with people and stuff...

geng rite??

hahaha

anyways. random picture,

THE SATANIC NASI PATAYA

okay, i did not put that star there,

it came like that

and i was like... "WOAH.... this is cool shit..."

hahaha

ask me where i got it.

XD

okay... i still got lots of maths to cover.

and a whole day in front of me.

have to wake up to makan before Puasa...

to my Muslim friends...

SELAMAT RAMADAN.

and to my beloved country...

MERDEKA!!!

31st August coming soon. weeee!!! which means i'm closer to PSA test also

which i also don't know anything but peanuts about it.

owh... and Karyn's bday's coming up.

lol!

who else... don't know.

blah.

gtg.

i still can't remember what i've forgotten. hmm...

-so many titles to choose from

haha

what's up...

so i've missed out on my scout troop campfire.

damn it.

today i'm kinda happy.

i'm so happy

cause today i found my friends...

haha.

no la... just happy cause i get to slack at home the whole day.

and i got my table and my room looks more like a room now than a garbage dump.

haha.

cool huh?

tmr got plans for dinner!

meeting up with my long lost friend from NS

MARCUS JEE. lol

apparently he's going back to Romania on tuesday. and sunday was the only day he's free.

i miss my ex-camp-mates.

i wonder how they're doing.

wira-wira Dahomal 2 Kem Tasik Chini.

hahaha.

did i tell u guys how marcus gotcha call me?

lol!!

damn... weekend is going to end just like that.

i can't wait for my bed to come.

my nose already killing me telling me to sleep higher above ground zero.

yes. the old nemesis - sinus

hmm... haven't been very free lately

i wanna go back jb and meet up with my mates.

not easy for that to happen for the next 2 months.

i will however...

meet them up during the long summer break!!

so WAIT FOR ME! and leave some time for me!! haha.

okay....

with that said.

i guess my purpose for this blog is done.

haha.

going to bed now.

UPDATE ME ON LIFE 09 PLEASE!!

i wanna know what happen and i wanna see pictures!!

ciao

- bug attack and stuff

hey...

i can't sleep.

lol

don't know why

just can't.

i'm wondering who's reading my blog seriously.

don't really have feedbacks

but not important.

umm... people who read and run

haha.

thanks for viewing.

man... i am really darn bored and unable to sleep.

let me tell you what's going on in my mind then!

BUGS! they like to fly into my room.

= =

especially moths and jumping flying crickets

i'm like immune and lazy to bother them anymore.

i had a beetle visiting me in the morning too. lol

i so need to sleep else i'll be a zombie tmr morning in class.

jeez...

life's getting boring in KL

in fact, there isn't a life.

gotta do somthing about it.

else i'll die.

anyways, i think the main reason why i can't sleep now

is cause i'm being bothered by unnecessary comments by unnecessary people.

lol.

i don't know why am i being bothered.

i hope it could just go away.

and i guess by blogging it out.

i can get it to go.

which i hope it does work.

hahaha

if all else fails

i guess i'll subject to sleeping pills.

lol

insomnia........

hmm....

i just don't feel comfortable when i see others comment or criticize others when they don't look at themselves in the mirror.

it's sorta... irritating.

i wonder how this sort of people live...

you gotta know, it takes a lifeless person to know another lifeless person. hahahaha. if you get what i mean.

so why criticize what others do or say?

can't they have their own opinion? must everybody be like "YOU"?

it's just stupid and unnecessary.

ugh... yea it's stupid to feel like that. haha

but what gives.

i'm just being bothered by it and i wanna talk it out.

i'm sure there are some people who are reading this and already starting to give comments in their heads.

that's just their rights.

i can't do anything about it now can i?

so what i'm trying to say here.

let the people who enjoys their games enjoy their games;

let the people who loves their job love their job;

let the people who talks talk whatever they like;

let the people who has chosen their way of life live their way of life.

you are in no place to command them and criticize them on how they choose to be.

it's their human right.

i don't get what is the problem with you wanting to say such things about others.

sigh...

i am losing my respect to you.

such... never mind.

hahaha.

anyways...

we all can't be the same.

that's what makes us human.

bla bla bla.

i hope this will help me feel less irritated.

lol

should i say

or should i don't.

what good does it make

when i've lost all my trust in you

what good does it make

when what i've done

is never appreciated by you.

i'm back in my shadows

i'm wearing my mask once again

because i cannot stand

this reality where everyone's just ass licking

their way out of this.

why do i still care

why do i still think

months it has been and i can't forget what a fool i've been

thanks to such a memory

i tend to play my own game once more and no one can tell me what is wrong and what is right.

i owe my gratitude to the past

not the present one i see right in front of me.

all i can say is that i really have had such a feeling

but now i don't f*cking care

what will happen to you

i won't try and make things better

i will let you suffer

just like how fate wants you to

should i say or should i don't

that is the one and only thing left i have to choose between making things better or not for you.

you have to open your eyes soon enough

before you get deceived by your own illusions

and regret the path you have chosen

for eternal

and for life

- Should I Say or Should I Don't

copyright and all rights reserved

some new lyrics =]

hope it has a meaning to you.

have a nice day!

- what the hell

yes, what the hell...

this month of august is just a series of shit and more shit.

sigh... am i cursed during this month?

am i seriously cursed with everything august?

god knows.

well... for those who know,

my uncle passed away really sudden just last week.

i rushed to singapore as soon as i got the news.

it was damn sad.

i cried non stop.

yeah... cry baby... whatever

although he's my aunt's husband,

although he has no blood relation to me,

i grown up with him.

he's very heartwarming, very nice person.

he can make friends with anyone and everyone.

his jokes... may be a lil hard to catch.

but once u get it. it's so darn funny

and of course, his jokes are always in Hokkien. haha.

since young, i often visit them and stayed at his place with my cousins during holidays.

and he got strucked with a heart attack.

just like that.

he's always happy and not wanting others to worry about him.

yet god had to take him back.

i know he's in a better place now.

really miss him alot.

i'm worried for my aunt. i pray and hope she's doing fine.

sigh....

other than that;

was doing this assignment.

and turned out my group didn't use the report i typed at all.

he/she just changed everything that i did and passed up a totally different report.

i don't know what's that suppose to mean. and i wasn't told why.

what the hell man.

i rushed the report and corrected it over and over again.

and this is what it turned out to be?

wtf man...

and there are other stuff...

like for instance today;

suppose to go for MTV World Stage.

i went for the interview, and i was so excited i got the job.

went there in the afternoon;

walked to the gate. and my name wasn't in the list.

WTH?!?!?!

they asked me to come. and i came

and they told me my application was cancelled and was sorry they didn't call to tell.

i can say...

FUCK YOU!

fucking disappointed man.

i even went and get the shoes i needed for the job.

cause i didn't have black shoes

and this is what they tell me?

i was too tired to argue.

i asked if it's possible i can still work and they said N-O

spelled so big i don't know how else to express.

and now i'm here while some other guy/gal got my job.

pissed off i am.

very pissed off indeed.

i'm done and lazy talking about all these shit.

FUCK THE WORLD MAN!

god knows how many more bad luck i have coming for this august.

and don't try and remind me any.

just shut the eff up.

- Hitz RM5000 Says It's ME

hello!

i'm back at JB now...

okay... that's old story.

new story,

i'm going back to KL tmr.

*the horror*

hahaha

yeah... back to the busy life...

yet, interesting.

but still, nothing beats home...

sigh...

wish i cud stay longer.

i sorta need to finish some assignments and stuff but i dun think that's possible

hahaha

cause i've totally forgotten about it as i'm back here in JB.

that wud lead to some problems...

*SHIT!!*

i guess i better do some or else i'll be killing myself tmr.

aahhh....

how i hate to continue my studies.

it's just so hard to cope.

god, or someone, anyone.

save me?

- event update

hey.... reporting in from McD again! haha

this time it's in the morning.

having breakfast here. =]

with the cheap meal coupon. hahahaha.

hah.

anyways. as i said b4. i'm going to update with some pictures.

so... TADA!!!

lol.

anyways.

last week. i went for this F&N contest event thingy to work.

haha.

had lotsa fun.

and earned some big bucks in short time. how awesome.

best part of all.

didn't do much work.

was rather playing...

the event was the finals and the winner walks away with RM500K!!!

i can buy 3 or 4 cars edi wey!!!

our "football" team went out to work

haha.

basically it's 3 stages of games

and we're the timekeepers aka game masters.

haha.

just hanging ard having fun and earning money. how nice rite??

hahaha.

owh and the best part.

we got to meet the TEH TARIK KING from malaysia

hahaha. lame i know

and guess what...

he lives closer than home.

he's from JB!!

and he lives near CS

hahaha.

we got to become friends.

and no he doesn't work at a Mamak stall.

hahaha.

we'll go cari him when we go back.

haha.

those who are interested to meet him...

join along lo.

=]

his teh tarik skills awesome sial

can spin ard wan.

haha. nice....

after the event.

as usual we took pictures on stage.

hahaha

keep memories

waiting for free kick from Messi.

hahaha.

and the RM500K tidak di-menang.

cause the guy cudden get thru the last round

and he won 25K

so the 500K nobody take... so who take??

US LA!!

hahaha

i know what you're thinking... YEAH RITE...

memang la.. siao mer... so nice den we dun need to suffer now lo...

haha... work so much...

anyways... have to thank Auntie Jo and You Xian find us that lobang.

there's more to come. looking forward to more.

hahaha

this job is FUN!

darn... sitting in McD to use the net is so weird.

but luckily here not many pple. haha.

heading to school later.

starts at 2pm.

lectures are quite hard to understand.

esp Maths.

sigh... dunno can keep up or not...

have to give it a try this sem.

arrrgghh...

i'll trade everything to go back to sec school life now...

damn it.

i gtg i guess...

miss the peeps at JB.

ciao