i just said something really fucking stupid

fucked up.

damn i don't know what's going on.

fuck it.

this is going to haunt me for the night.

i'm fucked up.

i shouldn't continue doing this anymore.

shouldn't have started.

i'm a total moron. fuck.

- ore! sanjou!

hahahaha...

anyone knows momotaros? lolz

was having fun with steph's mask. lolz.

ORE! SANJOU!

(I have Arrived)

like damn bored only...

so decided to have fun with the mask. hahaha

i know la... i look better with the mask on rite?

xD

more can be found on Facebook. lolz

this is my weapon.

THE SAO BA

(the broom)

use it to sweep the world off evil!!

lolz...

and this is one that will scared the shit out of u

if it's the chinese 7th month.

hahaha.

be afraid...

be very. afraid...

hahaha.

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can't make my own decisions; or any with precision

...

...

...

if god's the game you're playing

well, we must get more acquainted

because it has to be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy

...

...

...

you don't have to believe me

but the way i see it

next time you point the finger

i might have to bend it back and break it off

next time you point the finger

i'll point you to the mirror.

- Playing God by Hayley Williams

i'll see u around yea!

leave a msg! =]

- this has been a pretty long weekend for me

ORE-SANJOU! lol.

hah! i'm back in JB for a week or two.

aaah... have lots of pics actually.

but most of em are in Dick's camera

which he FFK me for a girl.

bloody bastard.

a cute chick at steph's bday party caught my attention!

lol!

too bad we didn't manage to talk much.

but might have a chance.

or not. LOL!

yeap! random pics ard for today.

hahaha

anyways.

it's so damn boring in KL i started taking pictures of

Myself. = =

which i don't normally do.

jeng! this one i call it the HENSHIN pose

to turn into

GUITAR-MAN!

yesh randomly lame...

haha

it's good to be home.

owh have u guys seen this pic?

lolz...

and a couple more randoms

ahh... i have lots to say

but lots cudden make it in words.

i guess i'll just leave with a lil note?

hahaha.

i'll be back to update on the happenings.

just for ur info,

i'm currently working hard with "the band" on the EP

we don't even have a band name yet.

lol.

and we're short of a drummer and bassist.

when the CD's out! be sure to buy em!

thankyousomuch

for that 1hr call on the highway

urspecial;

somehow.

too bad fate doesn't go the right way sometimes

=]

- tour de room?

IMPROV! lol.

anyone seen how my room looks like now?

tada!!

like some ikea show room rite?

this is my office

my studio

my bedroom

lolz

this is where i live in KL

compare!

this is before

and after!

it feels good to shift or add things around.

haha.

not permanently staying here. so have to keep it simple

study and work desk!

hah.

hope u enjoyed the tour.

lolz

for more info.

please visit!!

= =

sighz...

ciao!

- four twenty six A.M.

good morning?

hah. i just finished having drinks with friends

met new people.

lost a few too?

i said that i felt like the past was back to haunt me.

and that maybe it's for me to rewrite the wrongs.

but i guess i guessed wrong.

it's purely back to haunt.

maybe things isn't going well.

i just think it is.

sometimes, thinking positive ain't good enough.

the reality is still there.

just feel insignificant to the people i love.

aargh.

i feel confused.

i feel cheated.

i tried but only few was appreciated.

there's just so much to say

yet only few made meanings with words.

doesn't matter anymore i guess.

i don't anticipate it any longer.

- this has nothing to do with anything

The All-American Rejects!

lol!

yesh i know!

awesome rite?!

hahaha.

sigh... ANGELALALALA! so sad you're not there!

despite this crazy queue.

which we didn't bother to queue anyways.

hahaha

see how crazy these ppl are?

we still got in in the end. and got a nice spot too.

so...

this was how i celebrated halloween.

despite the exams. =X

this is colin still trying to rock out even tho he's abt to get killed

and me just plain acting like and idiot

the guy's palm is huge btw, and he has long fingers.

wonder where they found him

grim reaper was happy to see us. so yeah. hahaha

aww steph's on the camera.

nvm. here's a picture of u with us. xD

blah. i'm pretty lazy to caption the pictures.

but i just feel like typing.

......

that was an awesome night.

then it was back to studying..... = =

and, i guess it didn't work out that well.

cause, as u can see

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.......

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..

.

btw, this is what you should not do, when studying.

drawing doodle arts. lol.

check out the monster lizard thingy.

hahaha!

= =

anyways. was at the car wash

when i saw this

lol.

i miss JB

this Syed reminds me of the Syed back at home.

which is so much better

hahaha.

okay! QUESTION! :

so how did you celebrate halloween?

i know someone kena Got'cha! haha =X

and she's hating me for that.

of which i'm proud of.

xD

ahh can't wait to go catch a movie.

it's been so long since i've done that.

where my movie buddies went?!

fun will come back after the exams!

(which is next weeeeeeek!!!!)

holla me if u have plans! =]

i'll see u around!

- reflected at the last minute

woosh. today's the day i realized what i should have realized months ago.

i shouldn't bite off too much than i can chew.

ever feel like you know how to answer your exams

but when u sit down in the hall

prepared and confident.

but as you start doing the questions

you just find yourself losing your confidence

and then soon you lose everything else in you head and you go blank

that's the shit that has been going on over and over again

and it took me only now to realize.

it's FUCKED UP!

now i'm facing the fear of failing everything and getting thrown out of the uni.

just because i wanted to "try" engineering.

it's like the whole world is crumbling down on you.

and plus when i went to talk to the lecturer.

i could see from his speech and expressions

"sigh... another guy who wants to quit at the last minute"

and i'm scheduled to meet him tmr afternoon.

gonna call my parents soon.

have to tell them now.

and just pray that i don't get shit all over me

aaarrgh!

why didn't i just follow my plans?

stop for a sem.

start out everything next year.

kan i've already told myself to take a break.

and now... see what happens?

just pray that i can still continue my studies next year.

all this striving for nothing.

and i just wasted a ton of money.

i feel like shit.

why?

is the only question i have right now.