- creep

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

- Radiohead

- the last butterfly

have u ever wondered, that if you had the ability to go back in time,

you'd want to change something that happened in life so that you can live better

right now?

have you thought about the consequences that come

from taking the steps you make the next move you make.

it is rather normal for a person to want to change something

in the past

so that they could live better in the future.

but it is most of the time, when you change something for someone else

but not yourself.

you save and help more than just yourself.

given a choice,

making that decision,

losing the person one loved so much.

was the only way to allow her to live.

a small sacrifice

changed everything.

i stepped on the wrong butterfly once.

i was given the chance to change things.

it doesn't matter if it doesn't make sense to anyone at all.

but my life has changed.

it is never the same as before.

the images flashed by me,

i had to choose what's best.

even though it's not what's best for me.

in order for a happier future for her.

what needs to be done, has been done.

i can't help any longer.

that was the last butterfly to pick.

remember those days

i used to talk about my purpose in life?

i think i've finally found my purpose.

not just as a tool.

but also, a human.

it doesn't really matter if you remember or not.

or if u even see this.

nothing is the same again.

i just hope that everything is worth it.

my last wish on the last butterfly

- the butterfly effect

be happy with what you have.

- frozen

yo!

haha. what do u think of the ambigram above?

i drew it myself! xD

anyways. for the past few days have been tiring!

but at the same time awesome!

and spontaneous. lolz

Ash came up KL.

hung out and did shit.

and at 4am one morning after chillin out.

we decided. to go Genting.

hahaha

here's all our stoned faces at starbucks

ash.

Matt.

Colin

and I.

after a couple of latte and espressos.

we're back on track.

ash and matt loss in the casino.

we spent the day up in genting chillin till 12.

went to the temple.

and got our asses frozen till we can't feel our balls itch.

btw, it was raining from the moment we went up till we came back down

thus, these crazy shots were taken in the cold rain

from the mist, and the wind that was blowing on my hair.

hope u realize how cold it was.

we were totally drenched.

hahaha.

awesome wake up call.

didn't sleep for 2nights in a row.

came back next night.

we're all dead on the bed.

till 18hrs ago,

we met up again at laundry bar

and continue our shit session.

hahaha.

met up with macha abel!!

stoned till 7am.

reached home at 8 and finally some proper rest.

LOL!

okay, before i leave,

here's what's going on at home

bloody parasite mushrooms are growing in my toilet.

FUCK!!

someone tell me how to kill these things permanently!!!

damn!!

disgusting i know... hahahahaahhhahahaha...

goodbye.

- situation out of sight

i hate being kept in the dark.

so stop doing that.

- five forty P.M.

i have nothing to say actually.

i don't know what i'm doing actually.

i can't explain it actually.

i am confused actually.

i don't know what this means actually.

i know what it seems actually.

i can't deny the fact actually.

i brought this upon myself actually.

i wished it never happened actually.

i know i'm always a step behind actually.

i realize it too late actually.

i denied my feelings actually.

i felt it was actually.

love, actually.

- livefree or diehard

hey i hope u enjoyed the cockroach story.

haha.

i'm back in KL again

yup. i know you're wondering why.

despite how much i dun like it here.

haha.

well i gotta be back to finish up some unfinished business

you will know what it is soon enough.

haha.

i'm keeping it private.

=P

i have something to share tho.

i never knew, that someone could hate you so much?

as to delete u?

haha.

i thought we were still friends.

i thought, it just needed more time.

but i guess not.

a bitch is a bitch.

hahaha.

well safe to say now, i'm totally free from it.

and i'm ready to love someone else.

i just hope that someone else have just the slightest feelings back for me

u can't decide who to love now can u? hah.

well... it ain't a straight road for certain.

and i'm up for the challenge.

i've been through alot. i believe the experience counts.

not that i'm full of myself.

but i'm ready for more now.

so i say BRING IT ON! haha.

if there's one thing i've learnt in life

is that no experience is enough.

because every experience is different.

different people, different situation.

we should not think that we are better, but to think we are not.

that we need to continue gaining that experience.

never think, you are the best.

haha. i love these pictures.

lastly; SCREW YOU BASTARDS!

=]

have a good one peeps.

- man vs roach

it was a dark. the night was quiet. it was one fifty one A.M.

a warrior by the name of Ken sets out on his journey to the holy grail of cleanliness

- The Bathroom.

as he proceed out of the chamber door

he looked left and right

in case of passing by lizards

and the hallway was dark

street lights from the outside shown in

just enough to illuminate the walking path.

at the end was the grail.

with no sweat

he swifted towards the shining grail thinking

"this is going to be an awesome shower"

with his half naked body and towel wrapped around his waist

barely showing just a few strands of leg and pubic hair

he hit the lights and moved the slider

only to realize

an uninvited enemy awaits.

it fell out of the gaps.

it seems that Ken had unlocked the seal that was sealing this treacherous creature

called

-The Cockroach

it was black and huge with it's feelers moving up and down

as if it was provoking the warrior

it turned it's back on him

the warrior immediately tighten his towel

and with no armor he decided to take on a tactical move.

he sprung over to the armory

only to find that the only weapon that could kill this creature

has met it's last spray

-Shieldtox

the warrior was in vain

he didn't know what to do next

then, a voice whispered

"the legendary forbidden weapon; use it"

immediately it appeared before his eyes

-The Mother's Slipper

the warrior knew he wasn't suppose to use it

unless at extreme circumstances

THIS IS EXTREME CIRCUMSTANCES

the creature was standing in between his only hope of attaining the holy grail of cleanliness.

he equipped himself with the Slipper

and went on to confront the beast

the beast now aggravated

it's looking towards the warrior

giving signs that it's not going to leave

the face off on the edge of the cliff

was intensely short but felt like forever.

the warrior kept in steady pose

even tho his heart was pumping faster than a Lamborghini's engine

he knew he only had one shot at this

the beast moved forward.

he stepped on step back.

the beast advance with speed and moving it's feelers to further scare it's enemy

the warrior was prepared.

at the final moment.

both feelers and wings clashed with the slippers

in a flash of light

the warrior and roach was left standing

in a classical ending posture

of two samurai clashing blades

the roach twitched

and it fell flat under the Slipper's ludicrous force.

the warrior won the battle.

he had to bury the body.

to honor the death of the creature.

water from atop the grail was used to wash the body down

into the river of organic disposal residue

the epic battle ended between the two

and peace was once again upon the warrior.

finally

he attain the ultimate refreshment.

-The End-