- the beginning of a dream

DREAM!!

haha. yeah. we all dream.

but i feel the need to make it come true.

and patience is virtue.

i'm sure everyone's waiting to be rich.

but just waiting will never cut.

i will not wait.

NO. I. WILL. NOT.

currently,

hah

i have big big dreams.

seriously big.

but i'm starting small.

really really small.

i've been waiting for a chance.

a time.

and a bunch of trustworthy friends.

i feel like i've found them.

but it will still require time.

lots of time.

some may already know what i'm talking about

and most will not.

haha.

it's got everything to do with the picture below.

yeah.

have you heard of DUSTY ATTIC?

you may not now.

but, give me 5 years.

i will make sure u will hear about it.

then

u will know it

then

u will admire it

that ludicrous dream that i had since i was 17.

now it's bigger than ever.

i just can't wait till i see it start to grow.

i hope the people i wish to work with

would love to work with me too.

the road ahead will be a rough one.

given it is Malaysia for one

but i will not let this stop me.

it's time to do something.

instead of waiting for the apple to drop from the tree

in this case,

the DURIAN.

HAHAHA!

i believe within negativity

there is always a breakthrough.

you will never know until you risk it and make it.

aargh!! this adrenaline running through me.

i'm just so into it right now.

it's all happening.

i can't believe it is happening.

but IT IS!! =D

Indie DUSTY ATTIC co.

- insomnia people

wassup! wassup! wassup!

NEWS! have u heard of the song

"Pants On The Ground"

haha

it's a new hit! xD

gotta love that guy.

anyways.

i've been doing good for the past few months not being EMO shit.

and i guess i'm doing real fine right now!

haha.

yet,

i don't feel complete.

why?

cause the people around me all seem to be as EMO as always.

sigh...

well u can't save everyone yea?

the only way out of this.

is yourself.

so... go people! hahaha.

R.I.P Sultan of Johor.

you're a great guy but your offsprings are not so good.

lol!!

i hope i don't get caught for this.

but it is true.

freedom of speech people!!

today, miss debby came to play the Wii.

cause she had nothing better to do already

and she was playing facebook and slacking at work all day.

wtf? and complain tired. = =

goin up KL tmr to ask abt my application for transfer.

ish.

troublesome bloody uni.

unreliable admins.

what more cud i say?

today. i learn something new.

or rather rediscovered something new?

how we wish life has a "SAVE" and "LOAD" function.

where one moment where we find out we did something we shudden have done.

we cud just pause, go to "GAME" and click on "LOAD"

then we're back to the save point where we can redo something or choose another path.

wonder life would be like huh?

in a way,

if you thing about it,

life would, just still be life if everyone can do it.

makes no difference.

but if only you are the only one that can.

that would surely make a huge difference.

don't you think?

anyways.

i can't wait for uni to start.

but in the meantime.

i hope i can get into the course in time.

shit.

gotta do something man.

argh. not in the mood for deep thoughts.

just wanna go to bed now and wake up tmr heading to KL for some FUN.

haha.

see ya'll around.

January's coming to an END so fucking fast.

one moment ago

it felt like we were just counting down to 2010

and now it's already going to February 2010.

one month gone just like that and 11 more to do.

hah.

irony.

i'll post more pics up.

when i have the time and mood!

- said it was an afternoon

year twenty ten.

rough start?

yea...

big time.

wonder what's gotten into people huh...

some chooses to ignore you out of a sudden.

some pushes the blame on you for convenience.

some stood you up.

and some just plain being an asshole.

well

what could i say?

a rough start is a good start for a smooth sail ahead?

definitely hope so.

the bloody world is still spinning even if you're sobbing and dreading.

so what gives?

i say. wake up the next day

forget about yesterday

and give someone a break.

the world would stop hating each other.

when we accept the differences we have

and see them as something to learn or adapt.

after all

the only easy day, was yesterday.

i sit alone yet i feel like i'm not alone anymore.

if you really take a look around you.

everyone is a friend.

the only missing link is the engagement.

the engagement of speech.

a simple hello could start a conversation.

given that you are not an anti-social prick.

am i wrong?

random stuff:

my left eye's been twitching non stop for 3 days now.

not superstitious.

but i feel something bad is gonna happen or already happening.

ah.

anyways.

whatever.

like i said.

rough start = good start

hahaha.

optimistic aren't i.

yet i'm actually a pessimist.

hmm... parking ticket's gonna get expensive.

i guess i betta go now.

bloody CS.

money sucking machine.

but not after 6pm till 4am.

yeah.

shud have came at 6 instead.

haha

what the heck.

see ya'll!

- JA-NUA-RY

yo!

NEW YEAR!

i know i know. it's already the 2nd day!

hahaha.

fast huh!?

damn. i can't sleep.

lots of stuff going thru my head.

mostly guitar leads...

damn!!

i hope the instrumental demo would be out soon for u guys to listen!

haha.

anyways.

i'll be updating soon!

so...

see ya'll!

shitty friends aside,

life's better already!

- one last day before twenty ten

what's up...

finally caught a break

and finally caught my sleep.

yes... i did complain i was bored.

but it was because i was having too much fun;

a sudden stop was boring. hahaha.

anyways. new years eve party??

lol.

ahh...

life sucks as usual.

had a couple of friends stood me up

and acted like nothing happened.

well.. they "forgotten" again i guess..

whatever.

bunch of useless wimps.

and... a couple of "friends" that labelled as "friends" yet treated it like shit.

ugh! blah.

screw those people.

the new year's coming.

and like every new year.

i throw away the good, the bad, and the ugly.

hah.

who gives a shit anyways.

band's concept logo's out!

post it up next time. or check out the band's blog soon.

well, technically it's not band yet.

i'm still working on it.

songs would be posted next year.

ugh! it's not easy having to do things yourself.

anyways.

screw 2009

twenty ten. here i come.

btw, the bloody letter for enrollment better come quick.

before i go berserker on the PSO.

god damn.

enjoy you last few days of 2009 peeps

i know i would.

- all i want for christmas

WHO GOES THERE!!?

haha. what's up what's up?

i'm officially back in JB!

for abt a month or so.

damn i miss home!! =]

Darren's back fom NZ too!

year end baby! everyone's ard.

that's awesome.

freaking awesome.

most probably going up KL to celebrate on the 28th till new years eve.

still planning.

going to hang out with Karyn too!

ahh!! haha...

what else... peeps from sec school.

then hopefully peeps at KL.

pop!

1 month while waiting for my letter from Uni.

to transfer.

yes people. i'm dropping boring engineering.

okay fine. it's boring to me... i'm not interested in building WMDs.

leave that to the geeks.

not Tony Stark tho. he's awesome. but i doubt u can find ppl like him.

xD

people of mass communications.

here i come.

ore... sanjou!

nah! finger to u.

ji eh imissher

it's too bad for the distance

but time will fly eventually =]

muahahaha...

anyways these are all i want for christmas.

goodtimes;

goodtimes.

alrighty... anyone wanna go out to chill just give me a ring.

do it fast! cause before u know it... i'll be back in KL again = =

see ya'll soonz.

take care!!

despite what i think will or might happen

i dontgiveashit unless it's already the end

i just want things to be fun and easy;

not serious and complicated.

- misspoken

damn the bastards that cheat

damn the bastards that hit on their loved ones

damn the bastards that never cared and played

i've never felt such a way before; until i saw her cried

right in front of my eyes

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