- change

hey,

thanks Darren. lol.
Read that a way to forget or get over stuff is to change yourself.
but Thanks to Darren, he knocked me up.
i feel like shit acting the changed me. haha.

so thus, no change.
back to old me.
but the "changed" me was kinda fun in a way.
but i feel uncomfortable with it.

blah. just want to note down.

hmm... lets see. suppose to blog. but I guess I finally find time now?
been practicing guitar over and over and over and over like there's no end for the past weeks days hours munites. haha.
Pfff...
I'M ABOUT TO START SCHOOL SOOOOON!
SUNWAY COLLEGE! you look like prison wey. so gloomy =. =
kinda wonder what kinda pple i'm gonna meet there. It's kinda like 50% of the population is from SMK Sri Tebrau. well Kinda. haha. NEW School! New and OLD friends to meet!
well I know adrian, sarah, tyrone's there. and erm... emmanuel, arthur, erm... yu jia too.
lalalala.
MUKYAA!!! abt this!
NODAME CANTABILE is NICE! haha GYABOO!!!
got addicted watching it. It's abt Music and stuff. haha. CUTE!



SCREENSHOTS!

haha show's super cute larh. for more screen shots! got to this link!
http://www.sars-fansubs.com/forum/viewtopic.php?p=7883
haha.

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hmm... life's normal I guess.
left right up down center.
still trying to catch up with stuff.
kinda like 3 weeks edi.
don't really know what's going on man...
sigh, ever feel the way. like, things shudden have happened. you shudden have met certain people. you shudden have even entered certain people's life? then at this one spec moment. that people could just say. things changed. then everything you had between each other just disappear.

worst of all is that people just shove things up your mouth and brains telling you it never really happened. saying this and that to get themselves out of the trouble. then you just accept it without fighting back knowing they are being immature all over again. whatever.

then there's this other shit.
you trust someone. to help you with something.
in turn, they just took advantage of it.
for example, you have to leave for an important assignment.
you entrust someone to take care of things you love.
then in turn, they took advantage of you not being there and all. they just take away everything you have and everything you love. leaving you nothing at all when you're back.
then at the very moment you're back filled with hopes and happiness. to come home to a place you know things would be alright again. to relax.
only to find that it's all gone.
the one you trusted betrayed you. laughing away with what they got from you.
you just stand there unable to do anything because you have nothing to work on.
you fight back but gets pushed away or pushed back every single time.
worst of all is by the things you cherished and long to go back to.

you spend every single day missing that moment when you're away.
not being able to even communicate with it.
thinking and trusting and worrying if it's going to be okay when you're back.
you were assured it will be.
but when you come back. it just spits at you.
you're lost in darkness, you still want to find it back.
only to know. whatever it is you've spend every night crying for and praying for,
leaves you without a sound.

i don't know what people think about this.
or how are they going to react towards it. and how they are going to comprehend it.
but it's just crap. being betrayed by people whom you trust.
coming back. having to face them.
they are your trusted friend. you try not to believe. but everytime it happens in front of you. you can't help but feel the pain.

well, whatever it is. it is now dead. all you can think of is that the person or thing you are seeing now. is not the existance you once knew. all you can do is just pray to god. to bless the one you know, or rather, knew to be happy and at peace. and that the one you are seeing in front of you is just someone or something that looks like it.

byebye...