- glued and stuck

i guess you can say that?
funny how different friends have different ways of helping.
thanks for the heads up guys
but i'm fine without anyone for now i guess?

yes it crawls back into me
everyday i go in and out of memories that just flushes in without warning.
opening the car door, looking at the passenger seat.
walking into a mall, looking the benches.
walking pass shops, looking at the items.
cruising along the highway, passing certain junctions.
getting stuck in the rain, in the car.
looking at my wrist staring at my palms.
closing my eyes

funny how it just comes back when you least expected it.
not a fun feeling i suppose. unless otherwise.
to a certain extent, i don't tell certain people
to others i just let it out.
don't ask me why, it's just personal i guess.

it's not one bit fun to feel betrayal,
it's not even to the decimal place fun to feel the lost.
somehow, this time, it doesn't feel like a game anymore.
after such a long pause.
isn't it time to resume?

why couldn't the flies and scavengers just buzz off?
they just sit and wait until their prey is weak and dying.
then they feed on them.
leeching every single drop of life out of it's prey.
and it's prey... just lying there, unknowingly being sucked out,
due to the over exhaustion and inability to realize that they are being fed on.
until it's time when they realize, they are already dead.

sometimes the angels of earth come to save them
but only to come too late.
fending off the scavengers, only to realize that the remains
are all over the place,
messed up, and beyond resurrection.
only the fortunate prey, gets saved and healed.
then brought to a better place.

it's so hard to unmask the evil
because they wear it so well
they cast the spell when you are vulnerable,
and when you know it,
again it's too late.
the kind hearted falls for this treacherous trap
easily and surely.
even the angels can't help to defeat such evil.
only the self can realize it on it's own.
or with the greater help from above.

it's hard to describe or even tell things straight forward
if you understand this part of life
i hope you realize your path
although it's a path needed to be taken,
but no one said you have to take it
alone.

cherish the trust you are given,
because you can never get it back once it's lost.