waddup peeps
how's it going for you guys?
hah.
god knows if anyone's still reading this old blog.
apologies for the ones who constantly check for updates.
and HELLO! to those who came by for a short visit.
what am i here for??
lol. i don't know.
just feel like typing.
looking at the keyboard and realized i haven't touched on my typing for ages.
and figured out the best way to do so.
which is... BLOG.
so guess what...
i'm graduating from Sunway JB!
kudos! woohoo!!
wow.
what news ey?
and i'm heading to Monash U in KL...
which is still within the borders of Malaysia
not out of country yet for me i guess.
most probably taking the Engineering Course if i'm able to get it.
okay.
total Random blogging
since i haven't typed so much crap in awhile.
lets read up some crap shall we?
hahaha.
right.
i'm just in a state of dilemma recently.
i think i've lost my identity
i used to know who i am and what i want.
and i don't give a shit what other pple say abt me
whether in front or behind me
until recently...
i guess it's because of going to Uni.
that made me feel like i've lost myself.
i begin to wonder...
when someone asks "everyone around you smokes... why not you?"
i ponder.
and i just smile with the ans "i don't get influenced easily"
then i thought: "that was kinda naive. what's the real reason i don't smoke at all"
yeah i know.. it's stupid... to think abt something like that.
but i guess. it's just the ol weird ken.
hah.
and i know that the 1st impression people get from me is that i'm a
quiet, steady, serious
type of guy.
hmm...
i feel like i'm being judged.
and i get this awkward feeling when people talk abt it in front of me.
and when they say "i didn't know you're this this this and that that that"
i get this stun-moment where i don't know how to react.
and i just totally stay quiet.
but come on. how are you going to react to this kind of situation?
den i just cover my self thoughts with a sentence
"well... now you know not to judge a person by their appearance?"
or
"that's cause you don't even know me from the beginning"
"yeah so now you bitches know what i am like; and i know you love it"
hah! ;]
yeah i know... randomness...
just some thoughts.
wonder if there are people who have such experiences.
well i get this sorta reaction from others all the time.
and another popular one:
"WOW YOU CAN SPEAK CHINESE!"
that's my favourite
and
"engkau nih orang melayu ke?"
hah.
moving on.
i guess i'm having issues.
lol.
with myself.
which explains some recent up and down random mood
i don't know.
i think people ard me feel so too.
i get hyper at a moment.
then i'm quiet and silent for a period.
it's like... i have stuff running through my head.
and it comes and goes at weird timings.
haha.
when i go into deep thoughts. i don't voice out anything at all.
i'll just listen and observe
i don't even give a comment.
then when i'm hyper and all...
things come out.
things get revealed.
things are shared.
i know some friends ard me are already used to it.
just curious how others that just got to know me
feel abt this.
after all.
i am unpredictable.
it's sorta my shield.
an armor.
protecting and defending against something.
against intruders to my own little wonderland.
where i have peace and serenity.
and i do what i want. when i want.
and this
contributes to another factor and reason why
i'm the perfect subject to be
a one-night-stand partner.
lol
call it commitment issues or whatever.
but it's just how i feel comfortable.
reason?
the characteristic of being unpredictable and weirdness i guess.
and of course past memories; bad bad memories.
nope, not that i could not leave them behind.
it's long gone.
but what's left. is the path i've chosen to take;
for the time being.
anyways,
you only have one life,
why subject it to an end?
when you haven't even explore the world.
JB? KL? Malaysia?
that's only like 0.01% completion of your Global Progress.
hah!
okay... i think about 45% of the things i typed above
are things that i don't know what i'm saying.
it's just random stuff that comes to mind.
after all.
this is just a session for me to feed my hunger to type.
and it is well fed.
have you any idea how nice it is to type on a mac keyboard? LOL!
alrighty.
no offense peeps!
like i said.
random thoughts.
keep it alive.
(please excuse all sorts of errors. i'm lazy to review this)
loves
and whatevers.
hah! peace out.
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