- situation out of sight

i hate being kept in the dark.

so stop doing that.

- five forty P.M.

i have nothing to say actually.

i don't know what i'm doing actually.

i can't explain it actually.

i am confused actually.

i don't know what this means actually.

i know what it seems actually.

i can't deny the fact actually.

i brought this upon myself actually.

i wished it never happened actually.

i know i'm always a step behind actually.

i realize it too late actually.

i denied my feelings actually.

i felt it was actually.

love, actually.

- livefree or diehard

hey i hope u enjoyed the cockroach story.

haha.

i'm back in KL again

yup. i know you're wondering why.

despite how much i dun like it here.

haha.

well i gotta be back to finish up some unfinished business

you will know what it is soon enough.

haha.

i'm keeping it private.

=P

i have something to share tho.

i never knew, that someone could hate you so much?

as to delete u?

haha.

i thought we were still friends.

i thought, it just needed more time.

but i guess not.

a bitch is a bitch.

hahaha.

well safe to say now, i'm totally free from it.

and i'm ready to love someone else.

i just hope that someone else have just the slightest feelings back for me

u can't decide who to love now can u? hah.

well... it ain't a straight road for certain.

and i'm up for the challenge.

i've been through alot. i believe the experience counts.

not that i'm full of myself.

but i'm ready for more now.

so i say BRING IT ON! haha.

if there's one thing i've learnt in life

is that no experience is enough.

because every experience is different.

different people, different situation.

we should not think that we are better, but to think we are not.

that we need to continue gaining that experience.

never think, you are the best.

haha. i love these pictures.

lastly; SCREW YOU BASTARDS!

=]

have a good one peeps.

- man vs roach

it was a dark. the night was quiet. it was one fifty one A.M.

a warrior by the name of Ken sets out on his journey to the holy grail of cleanliness

- The Bathroom.

as he proceed out of the chamber door

he looked left and right

in case of passing by lizards

and the hallway was dark

street lights from the outside shown in

just enough to illuminate the walking path.

at the end was the grail.

with no sweat

he swifted towards the shining grail thinking

"this is going to be an awesome shower"

with his half naked body and towel wrapped around his waist

barely showing just a few strands of leg and pubic hair

he hit the lights and moved the slider

only to realize

an uninvited enemy awaits.

it fell out of the gaps.

it seems that Ken had unlocked the seal that was sealing this treacherous creature

called

-The Cockroach

it was black and huge with it's feelers moving up and down

as if it was provoking the warrior

it turned it's back on him

the warrior immediately tighten his towel

and with no armor he decided to take on a tactical move.

he sprung over to the armory

only to find that the only weapon that could kill this creature

has met it's last spray

-Shieldtox

the warrior was in vain

he didn't know what to do next

then, a voice whispered

"the legendary forbidden weapon; use it"

immediately it appeared before his eyes

-The Mother's Slipper

the warrior knew he wasn't suppose to use it

unless at extreme circumstances

THIS IS EXTREME CIRCUMSTANCES

the creature was standing in between his only hope of attaining the holy grail of cleanliness.

he equipped himself with the Slipper

and went on to confront the beast

the beast now aggravated

it's looking towards the warrior

giving signs that it's not going to leave

the face off on the edge of the cliff

was intensely short but felt like forever.

the warrior kept in steady pose

even tho his heart was pumping faster than a Lamborghini's engine

he knew he only had one shot at this

the beast moved forward.

he stepped on step back.

the beast advance with speed and moving it's feelers to further scare it's enemy

the warrior was prepared.

at the final moment.

both feelers and wings clashed with the slippers

in a flash of light

the warrior and roach was left standing

in a classical ending posture

of two samurai clashing blades

the roach twitched

and it fell flat under the Slipper's ludicrous force.

the warrior won the battle.

he had to bury the body.

to honor the death of the creature.

water from atop the grail was used to wash the body down

into the river of organic disposal residue

the epic battle ended between the two

and peace was once again upon the warrior.

finally

he attain the ultimate refreshment.

-The End-

i just said something really fucking stupid

fucked up.

damn i don't know what's going on.

fuck it.

this is going to haunt me for the night.

i'm fucked up.

i shouldn't continue doing this anymore.

shouldn't have started.

i'm a total moron. fuck.

- ore! sanjou!

hahahaha...

anyone knows momotaros? lolz

was having fun with steph's mask. lolz.

ORE! SANJOU!

(I have Arrived)

like damn bored only...

so decided to have fun with the mask. hahaha

i know la... i look better with the mask on rite?

xD

more can be found on Facebook. lolz

this is my weapon.

THE SAO BA

(the broom)

use it to sweep the world off evil!!

lolz...

and this is one that will scared the shit out of u

if it's the chinese 7th month.

hahaha.

be afraid...

be very. afraid...

hahaha.

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can't make my own decisions; or any with precision

...

...

...

if god's the game you're playing

well, we must get more acquainted

because it has to be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy

...

...

...

you don't have to believe me

but the way i see it

next time you point the finger

i might have to bend it back and break it off

next time you point the finger

i'll point you to the mirror.

- Playing God by Hayley Williams

i'll see u around yea!

leave a msg! =]

- this has been a pretty long weekend for me

ORE-SANJOU! lol.

hah! i'm back in JB for a week or two.

aaah... have lots of pics actually.

but most of em are in Dick's camera

which he FFK me for a girl.

bloody bastard.

a cute chick at steph's bday party caught my attention!

lol!

too bad we didn't manage to talk much.

but might have a chance.

or not. LOL!

yeap! random pics ard for today.

hahaha

anyways.

it's so damn boring in KL i started taking pictures of

Myself. = =

which i don't normally do.

jeng! this one i call it the HENSHIN pose

to turn into

GUITAR-MAN!

yesh randomly lame...

haha

it's good to be home.

owh have u guys seen this pic?

lolz...

and a couple more randoms

ahh... i have lots to say

but lots cudden make it in words.

i guess i'll just leave with a lil note?

hahaha.

i'll be back to update on the happenings.

just for ur info,

i'm currently working hard with "the band" on the EP

we don't even have a band name yet.

lol.

and we're short of a drummer and bassist.

when the CD's out! be sure to buy em!

thankyousomuch

for that 1hr call on the highway

urspecial;

somehow.

too bad fate doesn't go the right way sometimes

=]

- tour de room?

IMPROV! lol.

anyone seen how my room looks like now?

tada!!

like some ikea show room rite?

this is my office

my studio

my bedroom

lolz

this is where i live in KL

compare!

this is before

and after!

it feels good to shift or add things around.

haha.

not permanently staying here. so have to keep it simple

study and work desk!

hah.

hope u enjoyed the tour.

lolz

for more info.

please visit!!

= =

sighz...

ciao!

- four twenty six A.M.

good morning?

hah. i just finished having drinks with friends

met new people.

lost a few too?

i said that i felt like the past was back to haunt me.

and that maybe it's for me to rewrite the wrongs.

but i guess i guessed wrong.

it's purely back to haunt.

maybe things isn't going well.

i just think it is.

sometimes, thinking positive ain't good enough.

the reality is still there.

just feel insignificant to the people i love.

aargh.

i feel confused.

i feel cheated.

i tried but only few was appreciated.

there's just so much to say

yet only few made meanings with words.

doesn't matter anymore i guess.

i don't anticipate it any longer.

- this has nothing to do with anything

The All-American Rejects!

lol!

yesh i know!

awesome rite?!

hahaha.

sigh... ANGELALALALA! so sad you're not there!

despite this crazy queue.

which we didn't bother to queue anyways.

hahaha

see how crazy these ppl are?

we still got in in the end. and got a nice spot too.

so...

this was how i celebrated halloween.

despite the exams. =X

this is colin still trying to rock out even tho he's abt to get killed

and me just plain acting like and idiot

the guy's palm is huge btw, and he has long fingers.

wonder where they found him

grim reaper was happy to see us. so yeah. hahaha

aww steph's on the camera.

nvm. here's a picture of u with us. xD

blah. i'm pretty lazy to caption the pictures.

but i just feel like typing.

......

that was an awesome night.

then it was back to studying..... = =

and, i guess it didn't work out that well.

cause, as u can see

..

..

.......

....

..

.

btw, this is what you should not do, when studying.

drawing doodle arts. lol.

check out the monster lizard thingy.

hahaha!

= =

anyways. was at the car wash

when i saw this

lol.

i miss JB

this Syed reminds me of the Syed back at home.

which is so much better

hahaha.

okay! QUESTION! :

so how did you celebrate halloween?

i know someone kena Got'cha! haha =X

and she's hating me for that.

of which i'm proud of.

xD

ahh can't wait to go catch a movie.

it's been so long since i've done that.

where my movie buddies went?!

fun will come back after the exams!

(which is next weeeeeeek!!!!)

holla me if u have plans! =]

i'll see u around!

- reflected at the last minute

woosh. today's the day i realized what i should have realized months ago.

i shouldn't bite off too much than i can chew.

ever feel like you know how to answer your exams

but when u sit down in the hall

prepared and confident.

but as you start doing the questions

you just find yourself losing your confidence

and then soon you lose everything else in you head and you go blank

that's the shit that has been going on over and over again

and it took me only now to realize.

it's FUCKED UP!

now i'm facing the fear of failing everything and getting thrown out of the uni.

just because i wanted to "try" engineering.

it's like the whole world is crumbling down on you.

and plus when i went to talk to the lecturer.

i could see from his speech and expressions

"sigh... another guy who wants to quit at the last minute"

and i'm scheduled to meet him tmr afternoon.

gonna call my parents soon.

have to tell them now.

and just pray that i don't get shit all over me

aaarrgh!

why didn't i just follow my plans?

stop for a sem.

start out everything next year.

kan i've already told myself to take a break.

and now... see what happens?

just pray that i can still continue my studies next year.

all this striving for nothing.

and i just wasted a ton of money.

i feel like shit.

why?

is the only question i have right now.