- you are just not worth fighting with online

Whoever appeals to the law against his fellow man, is either a fool or a coward.
Whoever cannot take care of themselves without that law, is both.
for a wounded man shall say to his assailant
"If I die, you are forgiven; If i live, I Will Kill You"
... such, is the rule of honor.
- Lamb of God; Omerta

hey! it's post ke-100!
hahaha.
took me long enuf.
but looks like i'm posting more and more now. hehe

THANK YOU FAITHFUL RELIGIOUS READERS THAT READ MY BLOG POST!!

haha. i know sometimes it's boring, sometimes it's interesting.


okok once again, this blog contains explicit contents, P A R E N T A L Advisory. hahaha.


hmm...
feeling.damn.messed.up.recently
things just happen so fast wey.
It's like March edi.
sigh... time time time took a toll on me.
everyone else have been.
i've been had. and had again.
who could possibly know what the future holds?
based on my faith, i pray the storm would soon be over.

like these boats lost in the middle of the rain?

school's been hectic. assignment after assignment.
boring classes after boring classes.
just gotta hold on for 2 more months man. then i'm out of this place.
out of this country maybe.
out of this life.
hahahaha. awesome.

yeah man, why should i bother about
about the things that only drags me down;
about people who don't care;
about not being appreciated.
because i know it's better to have one good, than one extra bad.
you don't need a reason to help others.
all you need is faith, and a smile.

haha.
so just forgive and forget, tmr is a new day. start new.
yeah?

this is what you've taught me.
i will keep it in mind forever,
thanks for changing my life.

hope everyone learned something new too
=]
it's not easy to be in this world.
sometimes, i think that we are all just an accident,
chemicals and particles colliding with each other;
accidentally creating and evolving into life.
Life, is nothing but a chain of accidents.

haha. okay. so what's been going on...
well basically this is post ke-100. so i wanna make it slightly...
special.
hahaha.
mix of what is in my head, and what's been going on.


well okay, what's major that happened recently is that ASHWIN got hurt.
lol
well can't discuss it here due to some P&C treaty i've signed.
but come ask me. i might tell you. hahaha.
ok.
hope he's recovering fast. and healing fast.


what else is that the problems that some of my friends were having are being solved one by one.
happy for them. =]
and...
i think i've solved my own too. haha.

then...
lots of homework lorh...
like tonnes.
from Chem, to CS to Maths to Physics to English.
i'm drowned in them all.
cant finish them all in time.
esp moral.
lol. still dragged.

hmm... Topic Tests are falling down on me like rocks now.
trying to do the best i can.
i need to hit my TARGET! haha.

okok. finally, please pray for the unfortunate people,
for the people who are facing problems,
and the people who needs help from prayers.
whether you are Bhuddist, Christian, Islam or whatever other religion there is in this world. hahaha

if you're sweet enough, pray for me too! hahaha
perasan jer...


to WaiLing aka my Sis/Mum/Auntie hahaha
hope your Pops get better real real soon.
may God be with him and bless him.
=]

and lastly...

if you think that you want to live in a world where there's only good;
where there is nice people all around you;
where things are always blissful and happy, i will not stop you.
but if one day, you decide to come back into reality;
come back to the harsh and cruel world;
come back to things that need to be solved and taken care of, i will be there to protect you.

ciao peeps!
jya na

- i love her because she is ugly

haha.
earth hour earth hour.
it's okay if you don't turn off your lights from 2030 till 2130.
WHY?!
cause...
if you're going to turn it off from 2330 till 0930 the next morning.
it'd be so much better now wudden it?
hahahaha.

anyways. it's just an awareness thingy.
i'm sure everybody in this world is aware of it,
it's just a matter of showing that you know and proving that you know.
don't force yourself to off your lights and use candles to study for 1hr.
it's crazy. lol.
unless you plan to have a romantic bath with yourself/your partner.
a candlelight dinner.
or because you didn't pay the bills and your power is cut off.
then... feel free to do so.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.


go watch KNOWING.
it's AWESHOME!!!
srs.


be back soon. ciao peeps.
EARTH HOUR!

- was i born to be a screw up?

lol.
i screwed up 50% of my performance.
i felt so shitty but slightly better when pple come to me and said it was nice.
but i didn't feel it was nice at all.

colin knows,
i know,
some other pple know too.

cause i cud have done so much better.
but i don't need to explain why i screwed up.
cause it ain't explainable...
there's just no excuse.

i'm tired,
i wanna sleep now,
oyasumi.

- katy perry has some awesome songs. lol!

mucho gracias.
i know i've been lazy.
but i'm sorry i can't help it.

HELL NO!! another assignment and i'll die!!
PHYSICS!
why?!?!?!?!?!??!
lol.
actually sounds quite fun la. but i feel like i have no time wey!
cause i've been sleeping damn early. waking up to another school day.
weekends just jam packed.
macam mana nih!! haha.


siao liao lah i tell you lah.
wanna be cina beng edi...
nono cannot. lol

okay. so this friday is the freaking fresh-y night.
and i'm suppose to sing?
but i don't feel like singing anymore........
but i still have to sing.
=. =

hmmz... i'll be out teaching col his stupid brain how to do CS for tmr now,
i think i'll just update bitss and pieces.
lol.
cause i know got pple reading edi!! hahaha.
no lah...
just cause i scared i forget what i wanna say the next time.
heeee...
and i think won't have much time to blog long long next time.
so sikit sikit, lama jadi bukit.

dan mungkin bila nanti...
kita kan bertemu lagi...
my moral teacher liked it when i sang this
haha.
ciao

- please replace the "c" with a "k"

cause K is kooler than C. hahaha
lol.
pple with K as their Initials! BE PROUD! cause we're KOOL!
Mat Kool! hahahahahaha.

hey!
guess what. i think i might pick up some classes to be a Radio DJ! lol
cause i know i need to learn how to talk more to pple.
so... THIS MIGHT ACTUALLY HELP!


argh! FRIDAY!
damn malas wanna perform edi.
my mates won't be ard.
but i'm kinda cool with the noobies now.
haha.
although they are still annoying to me.
srsly. but i'm getting used to it. they seem fine/better now. haha


jeez. just one year diff and we have generation gap edi.
kinda cacat.
hmm... i'm kinda suppose to do my english assignment now,
but,
as usual, i'm lazy.
i just think studying ain't my thing u know?
i've thought of dropping out of school and start some job or career in something.
like dunno how many hundred times edi.
but i know my parents would FLIP!
i'm doing it for the sake of them i guess...
jeezzz...

i hate it when pple assume i'm smart?
cause I AM A DUMBASS man... srsly....
ask me anything, and i'll have to look thru the books to give you an ans.
else i'll just crap stuff to you.
haha.


eeeesh.
this week got so many deadlines.
CS practical... Moral Assignment...
English... Maths...
OMG! GIVE ME A BREAK MAN!
break is two freaking months away... =. =
gotta work towards it!
else i'll be skinned alive.
srs.

ahh.. nothing special up other than this Friday's Freshie Night.
got some rehearsal going on tmr night.
hope i'm up for it.


nothing much to blog abt.
just wanna blog.
don't know why? haha

enjoy. hope i'll have some interesting stuff next blog.
ciao

- peace... and quiet...

ahhh the serenity.
i know i've been erm... haha. overreacting for quite abit.
lots of factors.


but i love my friends,
they helped alot.
just by being ard them helped alot.


i take back everything i've said.
and, i will change for you. =]
things will never be the same again...

haha.
ahh.. life...
i think i'll die for tmr's chem exam.
ORGANIC CHEMISTRY IS A CRAZY SUBJECT TO TAKE!

"what a beautiful mess... this is....~~"
PERFORMANCE!
CB! COLIN BRANDON! haha. idiot backing out on me.
i want to kill him

- awesome quick quiz from Adrian

hey...
got something to share

me taken a quiz.
it sounds so chun. lol.
i wonder how pple come up with this stuff.
or they do this which make you believe it is you? hahaha
idk
but it feels... hmm... haha.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


go try for yourself and post them up in your blogs!
haha. IT's A TAG!
to anyone who is interested to find out
CLICK ON THIS! to go try it out!

laterz!

- open opportunities, open doors, open heart

haha,
whaddap?!

today, is a very good day. haha
went to school for only one classs!!! woooweee!
awesome man.
okay den erm.. haha. den now bored lo.
dunno what to do. wey!
after makan jer.
haha

so... that explains why i am here.

anyone wanna lepak pls cari me!
i'll fetch you! lol.
not your ahmad tho.
just i can fetch you. haha.


hmmz... k la. come back later after i'm done with the day.
stay tuned!

-----

part 2! lol
erm.. kinda just got back.
haha. it's like 3.16am now!
wtf?
woken up by ash and col and dickson at abt 9 plus
den we went out to yumcha.
met up with danbob.
den went to uncle Leslie's CC to have a game of L4D.
it's been like 5 years since i stepped into a CC. haha
this one's nice. koz they all have 22 inch monitors and it's not dark and smelly. hahaha
it's in Perling... lol.

in the morning...
i had a sudden burst of adrenaline.
hmm, i guess, not being appreciated got the better of me.
sometimes, it's better to just eff the stupid feelings you have for pple.
haha.

a relationship is a responsibility, not based only on the feelings you have for another person.

based on that, i think i've already done enough of my part.
you need both hands to clap
you can't always do things according to your feelings,
because feelings do fade away sometimes.
you gotta consider what responsibilities you are holding when getting into stuff like that u know?
well, having experiencing it so many times,
i guess i only want this to be the last?
or... i hope it will be the last.
just go for real, mature people next time. haha!


haha.
haih... i'm an idiot.
what's the use to suppress all the emoness
and when night comes and you have nothing left to keep your mind away from it,
you break it out and it hits you twice as hard.
so,
i've gotten rid of it.
but it seems like the roots are still intact.
dig deeper?
lol.

what.am.i.to.do.with.the.tickets.now?

ciao peeps. =]

- it's not what you think, it's just infatuation

your actions show that you are just afraid,
your so called friends, teased you with words,
when you where at the edge of falling,
you don't want to feel left out, you choose the easy way out.
you let in a person, who you barely know. yet you think you are in love.


you left the past one alone, suffering from what you have earned.
it's easy for you to go along with another,
because you are just like all the other,
immature, childish and running away for some cover.
you would rather be a flirt, than to commit to something
where you think you might get hurt.


is it really love? or are you just infatuated.
by another who hasn't gave you hurt?
you are locked in the illusions, of thinking that someone else,
is the one you are in love,
when the real true love, was the one you left
undertaking all that hurt.


think of what you have really done,
before a new page has begun.
think of what you have really felt,
before more pain, you will be dealt.
to solve a relationship, is not by ending it and looking for another.
but to find closure for both, and still love one another.

=] i hope this will bring many people some closure,
and to work out your problems,
instead of sentencing it,

as a dead end.

i guess sometimes, you just have to wait for the storm to be over.
before you can see true light upon the skies.
i wish you only the best. if you think that it's right.

-----

SHIT! didn't see no HOT chicks at all in this new intakes.
Aaaarrggh... boring sem again i guess...
hahaha.
just kidding.
i'm ending my semester and graduating soon!! wahahahahaha. awesome!
malas to blog right now.
so... LATERZ peeps!

[BACK!]
lol...
okay... now i'm free. not.
anyways.
i feel awful for me, myself, and my friends.
haha.
ok well it's just me and colin.
freaking lame shit.


i hate those buzzers
they buzz too much. can't they just live their own lives?
can't they just buzz off?
they make other pple's life miserable without thinking of the 2nd party...


if you don't know what is really going on, please don't infatuate your friends.
please do think abt the other party.
please, grow up.


anyways... there's a whole line up of topic tests and quiz coming up!
and Freshie Night don't seem to hold any hopes.
lol.


okay. i'm back to my malas mood now. if anything, i'll come back. haha. ciao!

infatuations don't last... google it! haha. i'm sure u can find what it means.

- it's more than what meets the eye

hello ya'll
ain't getting much pple reading or talking ard here recently ey?
wonder where everyone went. except for Karyn who frequently have something to say here.
haha.
guess the others are too busy with life.

hmm
where's my life...

it's in my hands! haha. ok i'm huggin mah guitar now and my pencil is in my left and right palm.
i've been using my left hand to write for sometime.
kinda... a lil thing i do for some reasons.
lol.

anyways. what i mean is my music and studies.

i d k man.. shud i pursue music as my career? things aren't really falling in place right now at the moment.
recording have been failing numerous times.
still learning how to perfect the sound engineering part.
any help?
it's very welcomed.

sheetz! school starts tmr.
again. with one whole big line up of topic tests.


hmm went to singapore yesterday!
walked ard orchard rd.
long time since i last been there.
Far East Plaza hasn't change much
to Rachel: your Crumpler is in Wheelock. i think. the shopping center with the glass cone thingy outside. u can see it right outside the MRT station.

got my 1TB hard drive! lol.
time to transfer all my backup files there.
it's called the SAFE Disk now. haha
and i got mah TICKETS!

they are still for you. =]

owh. They extended an Extra day for the concert cause it's too fully BOOKED! haha
i guess pple from all around the world are flocking to SG to watch the orchestra.
it's by the Legendary Nobuo Uematsu. the Master of New Age Classical Music.
as titled by me lah. haha. i just love his music.
not just caused it's from the world's most aweshomest game! but the music itself.


do do dooo~~ do do dooo~~~
well you done done me and you bet i felt it.
~~~~
anyways. have u guys heard Jason Mraz live in Korea? go watch in YouTube.
haha. great performance wey.
srs.

owh. and i'm performing too! on the 27th of March.
come watch if u can get the tickets! haha. it's my school's freshie/prom night.
so yeah. get em from the SSD in Sunway or ask me to help u get if u want. by this week.
i try to get it. haha. koz i think tickets are going to be sold out soon.
RM10 i think. if u come with me... as my date... maybe free.. hahaha.
jkjk
see how lah.

anyways...
life's too short to hold grudges.
a friend once told me.
and another friend also once told me.
"what are the chances you get a second chance in life?"
haha. or something like that.
come to think of it. yeah. maybe for what i've lived thru, it's meant by god for me not to have second chances.
i've never really had one. not till even now.
if you get them. appreciate it to the fullest.
i'm hoping to get my first, second chance.
cause i really don't know how it feels do re-write something
something important to me.
so damn important that i risk anything and everything for it.
it feels like it's slipping away right now.
or maybe it's already slipped away.


but whatever the odds. i know some how if it's true, it'll be right there waiting too.

so... wish me luck? haha.

hmmz...
what else...
i'm stuck. so i think i stop here now. thanks to karyn la. suddenly "msn incoming msg sound"

haha.
see ya'll next time!

what ever his name is
where ever he is from
you are who you are.
say selfish,
i just don't want to let uncertainties,
or some other person
make you smile when i know i can do it myself.

immaturity. screw it.
i've moved on. but have you?

- the raging hell of the nine tailed demon fox

HELLO EVERYONE!
how nice to see you.
i have a point and stand to make here.

GUYS: I'm sure all of you have heard girls saying "omg... good guys in this world are coming to a point of extinction" bla bla bla. am i right?

Hell yeah i'm right.
BUT! have any of you ever thought the other way round?
good guys are everywhere!
EVERYWHERE! in fact i can give you SHITLOADS OF EXAMPLE WHO THEY ARE!
WITH NAMES! [AMERICANS NOT INCLUDED: I"M SORRY NOT RACIST or ANYTHING but CHRIS BROWN TOOK YA'LL IMAGE DOWN] ( and so did Rhianna)
GOOD GUYS THAT I KNOW:
1. TYRONE TANG XI
this idiot is such a nice guy, girls bully him. but hell, go get to know him la. you'll fall in love with this idiot naive boy.
2. Colin Chia
this fucker. cacat. idiotic. lame. cares only for himself AND his girlfriend. he's a good guy. but not a good friend. but he treats his girlfriend like diamond and gold. and seriously. if you get to know him. He's a bloody nice friend. but people just judge him because he smokes, he drinks and he's not that good of an academic student.
3. Nicholas Cheah
wah lao eh. this shitty bastard. he another loyal to gf type. pple think he playboy. but NO! HELL NO!
his attitude may be fucked up. but what the hell? pple are not perfect. NOT PERFECT.
HE's STILL A BLOODY GOOD Guy to be ard with.
4. Teh Kai Hong
this fella too good i tell u. TOO GOOD. sometimes he's lame. but he's tooooo good.
see how he treat his gf la. see how he treat pple la. you may not be able to find him anytime anywhere. but this fella is a real friend when you need him.
5. Diong
another devoted son of a bitch.
sticks to his gf like glue.
afraid he'll loose her if he don't.
does everything and anything for her.
6. Darren Tan
this asshole. this tall MF. this lol. HE may be fooling around. but HE cares for the girl he loves so much that he would sacrifice his sleep and energy anytime. and we all know this idiot needs his sleep. else he'll be so annoying and also very very impatient. he was once an asshole. but look at him now wey. ask his gf how good is he to her la. ASK!
7. Mark Kee
he is also another good guy lo. just that u have to know where the hell he's good at. get to know that fella. and you'll find out.


of course i can go on forever with the pple i know.
i'm sure there's something in every guy that is worth.

but! then!

GIRLS: "ALL GOOD GUYS ARE EXTINCT!!!"

FUCK YOU! HELL NO!
have any of you thought that it was YOU that is the problem?
huh?
i see so many women now. say la guys not treating them good. but padahal, they the ones scandaling.
the guys are the one devoted.
wah.... you pple can scandal all you want and say "he's just a friend"
you know how a guy feels not?
and when a guy talks to some hot chick. the girl will go "who is she? your scandal rite? break up!"
WTF man?
what happen to the values of humanity?
what happen to the fairness and equality?
where's the truth?
i don't know.
where's the love?
i don't know.

i don't have to point or even say names. koz those pple know who they are lo.
yes if i have to spell it out for you.
it's equals to the opposites of the pple above you've read.

it's not that the good guys are being extinct.
it's the good guys being bullied by women who scandals and flirts so much that they missed their eyes on who is good and who is bad.
Women now only see:
MONEY
STATUS
LOOKS
WALLET
HOUSE

materialistic betul.
CONFIRM all the girls who are reading this. will go against what i'm saying.
CONFIRM ALL!
i tell you. search your souls.
deep down. you are.....

Good Guys Finish Last. that's the old saying.
and it's true.
girls drama. put words into good guys mouth.
pple make peace. they make war.
that's what the world is changing to today.
open your eyes and see.

THANKS TO THE FREAKING MEDIA.
THEY MINDFUCKED EVERY GIRL'S MIND by showing bad guys and good girls.
sorry. i mean "GOOD Girls"

agree or disagree.
your pasal.

- it's not enough just by saying thank you

KONICHIWAA!
haven't been cakap jepun in awhile.
how's everyone?
haha.
ok i know i took long enuf to post abt my day at TGIF.
well cause. STONE. and erm... haha. STONE.
now i'm sober and ready. haha

27th of Feb.
the day a very cacat fella was bored.
then again. he's not that cacat.
haha.
invited a few group of people who have been there with me thru think and thin for the past few years.
and people who just knew me and i think is worth inviting. wah... sound so grand. anyways.
with no special order what-so-ever:

Adrian
Ash
Lincoln
Colin
Wai Ling
Victor
ShanLi
Pui Ling
Joanne
Karyn
Hui En
Lawrence
Fiona
Sarah
Tyrone
Nicky
YuJia
Kui Ying
Karen

hahahaha.
we came. we sang. we laughed.

This is The FAN-TAS-TIK Four.
yes.. FAN TAS TIK.

den victor masuk. hahaha COLIN SHUD STOP EATING!
lol.
classic this one.

Not to forget

em cute lil scout jr. of mine... so shweet.
hahaha. Ryn, Hui En and Lawrence.


aww.. look who came too!
Joanne.
ok well she tengah sesat koz....
thattimeitengahhighwannainviteppledenijustcalleveryoneiknowonlywhichd
entada!calledu.
anyways. hahaha.
awesome that u came =]
even tho 70% of the time u were texting =. =
hope u enjoyed the food and booze. =X
i'm so bad... teach u to drink. hahaha.
haha.


and the all time all stars since Secondary 1.
the SMKST gang. hahaha.

we reached there. abt 7.35pm.
went in. sat there.
tried to like... clear the air of sesatness.. and in the end we all started talking.
haha. well.
then came the cake.

which colin chose. =. = very cute... haha
but it was good.

here comes the part where i have to stand on the chair and do stupid stuff
which was kinda awesome

singing I'm Your's by JMraz.

being PUNK'D
[i knew what was coming]

PIAK!
kena gao gao.
the fella look like snoop dawg man. haha the black dood.
but he smack my face macam the plate made of paper
which FYI is not
MY NOSE HURTS!
hahahah. but it was cool.

Partied out late. ok not so late.
den went home.
Colin not feeling good.
waited out at my place.
then went to mamak haha. at abt 1am 2.

after that was so stone and tired for like 2days.

overall. it was an awesome 19th bday. =]
Sarah, Chong, Nick, Tyrong, Adrian, Karen, Yu Jia: Thanks for the Pen! and the Card! haha. which i think it's yujia's idea. haha. awesome pen! i'll use it to sign autographs next time. =P
Karyn, Hui En, Lawrence, ShanLi, Pui Ling, Mouse, Rachel, Kim: Thanks for the Calculator Baju! haha. and the CARD was erm... hahahahha. lame! but sweet. =]
Joanne: no worries for the present. haha glad you were there at the party. =] things might b diff w/o u there.
Ash, Colin, Wai Ling, Victor, Lincoln: you guys know what u did. haha. and i'm really greatful for all that's been done. the Cake, the Booking, coming and having a great time.

THANKS GUYS!
wished that night didn't had to end.