- left it on that side of the bed

shit...

i woke up this morning

to a dream that felt so real...

i woke up finding myself really in tears and

i felt dumb

it was one of those dreams where it felt like it's reality

i was sitting in a room

a class

and i walked out as i saw her sitting in the same class

and my friends told me that she's there

i went home and change to go elsewhere

i walked out of my house,

the class ended

i could hear people shouting

happy the exams are over...

and i saw her walking out with her friends

i went to greet my friends

and she came trying to talk to me as if nothing had ever happened

as if nothing ever was

it's like she has no memory of what we were

and i ignored her

i went back home

i sat in my room thinking

and as i went to grab my stuff on the table

there she was at my door

with a sad look on her face

i looked at her and she looked at me

tears started to roll down from my eyes

and i woke up to feel alright.

i walked out of bed. to see the time

and as i turned back

i saw something that made me cry...

a tear hit my pillow and formed a shape of a heart

what odds does that happen ever in life?

hah... i don't know

and i left it on that side of the bed

it's just so stupid...

9 months i've tried

and this just tears that all back down

i even dreamt that i already turned off my fan

when i woke up

i realized i didn't.

that was how real it was. hahaha.

i never should have answered...